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[gamewon]

so i might uh. i might be uh. rebooting a muse from 2019. i’m still cleaning up his blog and need to update a lot of pages including making a document but he’s over here @blindhavoc if you wanna party with him

#PUTS THIS HERE TOO I GUESS #mob psycho fans come and get yall juice

[gamewon]

Send a  🎤 + something to talk about and I’ll make voice recording of myself talking about it.

Does not have to be RP related!

#maybe... #ill see if i can stop being shy long enough for you guys to hear my little gayboy voice

[gamewon]

hey please help me fix my tooth

recently an abscess formed in one of my molars and was very painful. it burst last night which got rid of some of the pain but i still need to get it fixed immediately. i went in for an emergency appointment at the dentist and the two options i have are 1) root canal and crown and 2) extract. obviously extraction is MUCH cheaper, but i really don’t want to lose a tooth this early in my life.

i don’t know how much the first option will be, but i know it’ll be over $1k, at the least. so i really need help. and i need this as soon as possible.

i’ve been struggling to find work due to mental health as well as some discriminatory practices due to me being openly transgender in a very conservative area. i’m still working very hard to find a job in the meantime.

i’m hoping i’m able to get enough money to at least get the root canal started and i can pay it off over time. so my paypal is right here: paypal.me/shamusiel

PLEASE DISREGARD MY DEADNAME THANK YOU

anything helps. please reblog this, likes don’t help at all, and you’re free to share it elsewhere, too.

edit: i was just informed the link that i copied and pasted to my paypal was screwed up so i went and fixed that now. if you’re reblogging a version with the old link just remove all the extra stuff after “shamusiel” in the url.

#this is my main... :( please help me if you can

[gamewon]

can y'all help a young nigga out. im trying to move out of my dad's house because he's destroying my mental health and i can't stand his bitch ass anymore, like if i don't get out of here asap i may actually unalive myself LMAO, my cashapp and venmo are goldsteps03. every penny counts and even if u can't donate i would appreciate it if y'all spread the word around so i can move outta here

#boost. #help jack!!!!

[gamewon]

hmm.

#ooc.

[gamewon]

near is the king of games / for @gamewon​

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#HAL....THANK YOUUUUU AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #save. #near.

[gamewon]

An intense game of Mario Kart

#FUCKING CRIES #near. #mello. #matt.

[gamewon]

mun vs muse lol

#ooc.

[gamewon]

dreamhued​:

@gamewon​​

HE   IS  L’S  SHADOW,      an  echo  of  who  her   beloved  used  to  be.    could   have  been.      perhaps,  never  was.         she  can’t  help  but  catch  herself   swallowing  resentment,    swallowing  anger  into  pieces  of  hatred  that  she  knows  just  aren’t  quite  genuine.      grief  is  an  ugly  thing.   it  balls  itself  up  and  pushes  itself  into  your  heart  until  you  are  just  as  ugly  as  it  is.     SHE  DOESN’T   WANT  TO  BE  THIS  WAY   :       it  twists  knots  into  her  stomach  and  makes  her  throat  rise  with  bile  that  flutters  into   butterflies  that  eat  away  at  her  insides.     there’s  something  inside  of  her  and  it’s  becoming  her.     in  every  move  she  makes,   there  is  a  trace  of  who  she  used  to  be  before  L’s  death.    it  stitches  itself  onto  her  palms  and   smears  WATERCOLOR  STAINS  onto  the  world,     diluting  the  colors  until  there  is  nothing  left  but  pain.         but  he’s  told  her,       THIS  IS   A  SERIOUS  INVESTIGATION.    she  cannot  let  her  emotions  get  in  the  way.     she  cannot  live  as  a  human,   must  throw  emotions  aside  to  become  an  asset  instead.      she  sips  slowly  at  tea,    hues  overlooking  a  tape  that  runs  on  replay.      a  soft  murmur,     and  a  hand  drops  to  scribble  something   on  a  drawing  that  is  more  detail  than  anything  else      -        SHE  CANNOT  SEE  WHAT  SHE  NEEDS  TO,       and  it  is  killing  her.       it’s  early  morning,     or  possibly  late  night    (    …   )     the  days  blurring  together  until  it’s  nothing  but  a  timelapse  of  half  finished  images.        near   enters  the  room  with  padded  steps,    and  truthfully?     abel  feels  him  before  she  sees  him.     SUCH  FAMILIAR  energy,     wafting  over  her  until  her  spine  crumples  and  her  hues  deflate.       [     BUT  NOT  TODAY.    ]     if  she  was  to  do  things  wrong,   she  would  do  things  wrong  differently.        ‘       good  morning.    ‘      soft  voice  floats  upward,    gaze  peeking  over  from  beneath  lashes.      ‘   would  you  like  a  cup  of  tea?   ‘

—

        What would L do, he often wonders, when things are quiet and he’s all alone and he’s suddenly very aware that he’s freshly eighteen, still practically a child, putting his life in danger to catch someone the world may not even want caught. It can be terrifying when he dwells too much on it, which is why he doesn’t. What would L do, he thinks again. But what did L do that ultimately led to his demise? That is what Near wants to know. Got too close to the enemy, perhaps. Showed his face like an idiot, and then suddenly all responsibility was dropped in the lap of a sheltered boy.

        And what would L do about this one little problem? Near had already spoken to her. Direct, honest, with little interest in coddling her feelings. Grief is a horrible thing, so he’s been told. It affects everyone differently, in a variety of ways. And even after years she still grieves, and she looks at Near but sees someone else in his place. It was irritating, to put it lightly. Do you understand what’s at stake? He had asked, peering at her over a wall of building blocks. If you can’t take this seriously, work on this case on your own.

        It wasn’t a difficult talk for him, really. Some would call him emotionless, but he prefers the term efficient. He feels emotions well enough, he just knows when to set them aside and not let them cloud his judgment.

        Surprisingly, she had been receptive. Somewhat. There is still a tension lingering beneath the surface. Pull it any tighter and it might snap.

        Near hasn’t slept. It’s six in the morning. He’s spent the last four hours lying on the floor, staring at the ceiling, listening to the same recorded conversations and news reports over and over, memorizing each and every one word for word. Thinking, thinking, thinking. Always thinking. Never a moment to let his mind rest. He can’t afford to let his mind rest.

        He rises slowly, saunters wordlessly into the next room where multiple monitors flicker and glow. She’s there now, and he doesn’t expect her to address him first. Near blinks slowly.

        “Good morning. No, thank you,” he replies simply. He sits down in the middle of the floor, one knee drawn up to his chest. Near twirls a lock of hair around his finger. “What have you found?”

#dreamhued #v tbt. #lets goooo

[gamewon]

What is Near like when he has a crush? 👀

depending on the situation and who it is he’ll likely just straight up tell the person with little to no hesitation LOL... he’s not one to sit and mope about being romantically interested in someone. so there really is no like... day dreaming staring across the room at the other person when they aren’t looking Longing Yearning Pining stage. he also gets over crushes very, very fast. so if the person he’s interested in doesn’t feel the same and/or is already involved with someone else he’s able to drop it entirely with no issue.

#near and romance is uh... weird #not impossible just not high on his list of priorities whatsoever #headcanon. #anonymous. #ask.

[gamewon]

comfy-core Near from that one DN nemu out there

I wonder if he’s still 5 foot

#near. #comforble...

[gamewon]

here is my headcanon. one of the rare times near is out he finds an abandoned kitten in an alley by the headquarters. he immediately grows attached to it and it is so small and still needs to be bottle fed... he’s so attentive... and gentle... anyway he now has a cat for life. this is the closest to a father he will ever be

#gevanni watching near suddenly walk right into a dark alley like sir?>?!??? and then 5 seconds later #near walks out with the tiniest kitten imaginable #near: this is my cat now. #ooc. #near just likes cats

[gamewon]

Hmm . . . Gameworm . . .

#hes just a little worm #anammxlech #ask.

[gamewon]

near is entirely aware of his autism and it was likely diagnosed when he was a child, probably around 7 or 8 years old (so in the late 90s, therefore even more difficult than it is now to get diagnosed; i also don’t know what the statistics would have looked like in england at the time, google isn’t giving me a clear answer). he just doesn’t talk about it because he doesn’t feel he has to. especially because he knows people might try to baby him over it, which would just piss him off. he doesn’t need anyone to hold his hand or be his Advocate.

and while he’s pretty much never outright stated it he does identify as a nonbinary trans man. he didn’t necessarily know the proper language for it when he was younger, but he was around 9 when he started telling people to call him a boy and later chose his own name for himself (just nate — the river surname was always present). it wasn’t until he was around 15 that he learned the proper language for it while in the middle of gathering his own data for the kira case, and somewhere along the way managed to pull some strings and find resources to allow him to begin his hormone treatment, which wasn’t as easy for him in the mid to late 2000s as it would have been these days. i don’t think he even started identifying with the nonbinary bit until post-series, when he actually was able to finally learn what that was. it’s been a journey.

those closest to him, like his agents, know that he’s trans, but he and they don’t feel like they have to talk about it at all.

#ooc. #headcanon.

[gamewon]

@lifesliced, continued from here.

        “Entirely professional, I promise.” It’s oozing with dry sarcasm, accompanied by the slightest hint of a smile pulling at thin lips. Near moves onto his knees, then slowly pushes himself up to his feet. He grabs another stray pillow, making a mental note that he should probably do some tidying up at... some point... and chucks it into the pile. “There’s nothing more professional than building a pillow fort with my agents. Just wanting to bond? Perish the thought.”

        Joking aside, he is quietly appreciative of the fact that Gevanni is willing to indulge his more... childish whims. He just gets bored, especially with a lack of interesting cases to keep him entertained.

        Near likes his agents and enjoys their company. It’s not often he explicitly expresses wanting to spend any time with them, though. Normally because they’re always around, so he doesn’t necessarily have to ask.

        He huffs through his nose and pulls a heavy blanket over from where he normally sleeps. They’ll have to drag a few chairs over...

        “I’m sure a man of your caliber is capable of such a difficult task, don’t you agree?”

#lifesliced #lifesliced: gevanni #Hey :smirk: #two wolves inside me one wants a serious plot based thread with these two and one just wants Weird Family Time

[gamewon]

Computer Chess (2013)

#character study.

[gamewon]

♩ 米津玄師 (Kenshi Yonezu) - クランベリーとパンケーキ (Cranberry & Pancake)

#music.