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alchemy

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alchemy

#almost posted this on my other blog

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Ed anytime I write him

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     “Brother,” you say it sharply. You love your brother more than anything. You haven’t always been the best of friends, in the vein of an older sibling resenting his younger stealing all of the attention, but that time seems so inconsequential to all that you’ve shared. When you were asked in school who your best friend was, the answer came without even a second of deliberation.

     But still, Ed has always tried to be the adult, the backbone, and you admire that – you really do; you want to save him from himself. From the needless burden he carries all alone, because he is, after all, still a teenager himself. – but it annoys you all the same. You’re not a child, not in the same sense you once were, and you don’t want to be treated as such right now. Not as a tag-along, or a walking guilty reminder.

     “You didn’t try to bring Mom back on your own. I was just as much a part of it.” You see the way he looks at your hulking, metal body with such sadness that he then shoves down, down into the depths of the Fullmetal Alchemist. Your brother is the reason you’re still alive at all, and not trapped in whatever overwhelming purgatory was once shoved into your head at rapid speed. 

     You sigh. Getting angry at Ed has never felt good, especially not when you’re all the other has left.

     “You put too much on yourself,” you say, gentler. You turn to him as much as the train seat will accomodate, and because your “face” doesn’t allow for change in expression, you put a hand on Ed’s shoulder. You offer a light squeeze. “You can’t change the world. Neither can I. But maybe we can together.”

There is always a resolute that comes with being an older sibling . Acceptance that some will prefer the younger , and at the time before tragedy . You found yourself a victim of the poisoned thoughts - jealousy and acceptance that maybe your mother dared to love Alphonse more than you . But that was another life , and much as your mother had said you were TASKED as a birthright to take care of your little brother , even if it meant your own life.

He was your last tether to the acceptance that things used to be some semblance of OKAY , and that if you were lucky you could return to that state , if god allowed .

There's a sharpness in his words that bring you quickly from your mind , blinking a few times before fixating upon Al, and there comes a semblance of a lecture , or maybe just reassurance . Reassure that there was no bad blood , or anger between them .. THAT HE FORGAVE HIM for his crimes against angels . A spiteful little nonbeliever you were, always taunting and toying with the lives of the faithful .

But here you sit , staring into the kindness that even still was represented off the emotionless suit of armor that held your brother .. and there's another wave of guilt - but you don't let it fester . YOU'LL WAIT FOR ANOTHER TIME to marvel over the pain that it brings.

In half of your mind you wonder if you find comfort in trains and traveling due to the ideations of RUNNING from the grave you dug for yourself , but there's no running from your sins when your own baby brother was a reminder of your tampering ...

A sigh sounds from you , tilting your head to the side and arms crossing over your chest almost defeated, leaning almost absentmindedly into the reassuring touch , unable to even try to force a smile or laugh off the concern. No , instead your voice just leaves bland.

" you worry too much Al.. But , you're right . " It doesn't feel truthful , accepting help from another always felt wrong , especially from Alphonse who was the way he was due to you .. " maybe it's just that older brother instinct winning me over still .. " and there comes the humor , attempting to lighten the situation - you HATED talks like these .. Especially with Al. you know he worries so for you , it makes you sick.

#ic . #handpickedriot / alphonse elric #handpickedriot

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#comic panels im OBSESSED With #* SLAP * #it makes me laugh everytime i see it #visage . #the moon . #the tower .

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these motherfuckers TOOK MY ABILITY TO USE XKIT EDITOR

#ooc .

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CONTINUED (x) @stonedeafdog

knowledge was something you chased helplessly behind , craving endlessly and seeking for more . SOME used it to call you obsessive , but you just found yourself hungry for understanding , maybe deep down you were trying to get that fill of truth that you once had hands on years ago. But sitting here , staring down the face of a rabid animal , you wonder if it was the smartest plan , full outright asking such a brash question , and clambering for the expectation of experience.

WHY THE SUDDEN INTEREST ; there were many things you could say at this . Truth be told , half of you held onto a childish wonder stoked deep under a flame of passion in a lifelong goal . so maybe you were fueling the wonderstruck ideations that still lingered in your blood.

It's bad , you KNOW it's a bad shaky mess of mistakes in your attempt to use what you had picked up from books to forward a thought . BUT even so, there wasn't any harm in trying .. It was the least you could do . ESPECIALLY as this face was becoming more and more frequent .

" Curiosity . Might want to try and gossip behind some people's back with it, you know. Why else ? "

The words are a lie, but at this point. Your behavior isn't something to be shocked at.

#stonedeafdog #ic .

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You're an angry little thing , but your anger is the logical second hand emotion crafted from grief that you held close to your chest in a cage you long since forgot , but now you stare at this entity before you with a silver tongue that dared to rival your own quick wit , but instead of being impressed - there was a growing annoyance . FRUSTRATION . you always were ill tempered .

" reading into things is my specialty . " Though before you could continue onwards comes the sugar sweet ladened words . And defensively your stature rises in a way that you try to keep stealthy . PREPARING FOR A FIGHT . things spoken in such a manor are usually thinly veiled threats .

" thanks for the advice , except I don't usually take it from strangers. "

CONTINUED (x) @guthalo

" sure sure - whatever you SAY .. I'm not a big fan of your whole circus act , sorry I'm not more enthused about this whole roleplay shit . "

#THE LEGACY EDITOR IS KILLING ME #ic . #guthalo

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#hey guys... smiles #ooc .

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Hey guys! I’m hanging over at my other rp blog @cardinalhope !

I am infact scheming and making a FMA AU for Hunter though.. the autism wins

#ooc .

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#he's soooo gender #wyd when he walks up to you looking like this #visage . #gawd damn

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#study . #IN THE LITERAL SENSE #edward has met god and went ' i don't believe in you ' to his face <3

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holding ed by the scruff.. this is my OC

#ooc .

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CONTINUED (x) @guthalo

" sure sure - whatever you SAY .. I'm not a big fan of your whole circus act , sorry I'm not more enthused about this whole roleplay shit . "

#ic . #guthalo

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OMG HIIII~ 🌞 i refuse to make a nice graphic for a promo but please ♡ and/or ⟳ if you’d be interested in a LING YAO of FMA:B rp blog. making a million verses/aus as we speak. low activity, penned by linnea, carrd

#hey there.... #tucks hair behind my ear and flutters my eyelashes #promo .

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This is nothing like Ed..

Sorry to instantly be crazy but you cannot tell me edward isn’t a Leo. He is SO leo coded Sagittarius my ass look at the Leo traits

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Sorry to instantly be crazy but you cannot tell me edward isn’t a Leo. He is SO leo coded Sagittarius my ass look at the Leo traits

#ooc . #HES A LEO