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john marston // disco elysium style

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Why are they *so* adorable

#ARRGRGRGGGGGHHJJJHHHHH #GGuhh #abigail x john #sickening

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op turned off blogs on one of my favorite posts so here it is again

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does anyone understand me

#rdr2 #red dead redemption two #johnigail #john marston x abigail roberts

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charthur

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Little John, following his brother Arthur’s footsteps when it’s time to feed the horses! (click for larger version)

This is the image I used for my cards this year! It was based on a pencil drawing I posted about a year ago. Also trying out a different coloring style.

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he's just a boy

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if kieran went to the saint denis bank robbery his mask would have been those comically realistic horse masks

the REAL reason he didn’t come along is he told dutch that that’s the only mask he would wear and he couldn’t me him take if off so they left him behind

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all i had, i gave.

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writing down “had a frozen lasagna for dinner. it was subpar” in my diary and thinking smugly about how i’m recording the common lives of 2024 for future anthropologists

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BRO YOU CANT JUST SAY THAT

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some light reading

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Just got the interaction where you give Abigail $5 for clothes for Jack.

"I'm sorry I ain't much of a mother." "If only I had a few dollars I could clothe my son"

God I'm gonna cry. This fucking woman, man. She deserves the goddamn world.

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“abigail cheated on john”

do you even understand their time period? how do people not understand that yes, cheating is very scandalous now, but it was so so so much worse back in the early 1900s, especially for married women. a married woman would never ever just go out and cheat on their husband, because they were putting literally everything at risk. do you honestly think that abigail marston, desperate of a quiet, legal, normal life with her husband and son, would go and commit adultery, knowing she could lose jack and john, her job, her money, her protection and even face time in prison? how can people hate abigail so much that they refuse to see that logic and decide she is a cheater. well because theyre sexist men, we know that. even if abigail and john were not legally married, in the eyes of themselves and both of their employments, they were. abigail loves john more than everything, we constantly see that. she takes him back after he abandons her for a year, and only leaves because he is undeniably putting her and jack in danger, even then she really does not want to leave him and still completely loves him. and people honestly think shes just going to risk losing all of that to go commit adultery in a town she had literally just moved into.

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i discovered i had a heart because it was broken

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Kinda tired of seeing the fandom forget that john after saving jack from kidnapping starts really caring for abigail and jack. No, its not ooc to imagine john in rdr2 taking care of jack, mostly after the kidnapping. And lets not forget epilogue and rdr1 John is a whole different man who will kill for his family so much he loves them. And even before, during his semi deadbeat dad era, he is actually more than just that. John is a very nuanced character, so is every character in rdr2. Look at Jack constantly running after his dad, asking constantly for his attention, copying him a lot, down to the finger guns, the hand on the hip and the sassy attitude. He keeps running after John when there are literally ten other available "uncles" at camps to interact with, including Arthur who was being ten times more of a dad to Jack than John. If John was being completely dismissive of Jack, Jack wouldn't run after him. He wouldn't try to play with John if since birth John never played with him. He keeps trying because it happened before, sometimes, John says yes, even though most of the time he says no. This means that, sometimes, John did take him in his arms and gave Jack just enough love for Jack to want his attention.

Am i trying to excuse his shitty behavior? No, not at all. What I'm saying is characters, humans, have nuance, depth, they're not all black or all white. Obviously this sort of behavior from John, of being semi there for Jack and randomly and rarely giving him attention, created a ton of insecurities and attachment issues with Jack, which is something he will sadly carry on in the first game and even into adulthood. And that's without even talking about the damage he did to Abigail. But John isn't all evil, even in his semi deadbeat era, there were some moments of light. There are reasons for characters to behave a certain way, sometimes understanding a character is understanding these reasons without trying to immediately categorise them into evil or good boxes. Situations are often way more complex than we think. And i wish people would remember that humans are never all white or all black.