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Unwanted memories

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Eating drywall

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albatross shenanigans (i am recovering from the latest episodes)

two schemers a-scheming, gillion breaks jay's project again

#i love this art style!!! #jrwi riptide

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My turn on the eye lineup thingy

#beautiful!! #jrwi riptide

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felt cute might delete later

#damn #the Dakota one hits #hard #jrwi

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LISTEN fish and chips is NOT mutual pining to me, it is one-sided on Chip's side. Not because Gillion doesn't love him back, but because Gillion accepts whatever love he is given and it doesn't occur to him to expect or demand any more. Gillion is very happy to be in a romantic relationship with Chip, but he's also happy to just be friends/family/whatever queerplatonic familial closeness Albatrio have going on. There's no pining on Gillion's side, because Gillion has already got a family he never would have expected to be blessed with, and it doesn’t occur to him to expect anything more than what has already far exceeded his expectations.

And this is where the angst comes in, because as we know, Chip:

hates himself and thinks he's a burden on everyone around him and thinks he’s unworthy of love

puts Gillion on a pedestal and thinks he’s this wonderful perfect paragon who Chip can never come close to measuring up to

has internalised homophobia and a crippling shame at the thought of ever revealing his dependence on others

So on the one hand we have Chip, with all these internal reasons why he can never bring himself to make the first move, because he thinks Gill would be disgusted at his presumption for thinking someone as amazing as Gill could possibly deserve someone as awful as Chip - and on the other hand we have Gillion, who is never going to make the first move because it would never occur to him to expect more love than he’s been granted, and would likewise consider it a presumption to demand more after he's received so much more generosity from the crew than he could have ever imagined, and probably expects Chip to someday find his true love and live happily ever after with them with Gill's blessing. So what do they do in this situation? Chip fantasises about Gillion being in love with him and making the first move, then feels disgusted at himself and beats himself up for feeling that way about his friend. Then Gill deliberately ignores any hints Chip might make that he likes Gill, because Gillion must be misinterpreting human behaviour again because in Gill's mind there’s no way Chip would be flirting with Gillion, Gillion never even considers that he might fill that role, because surely Chip is destined for another, a human from his own world. Then Chip interprets Gillion's intentional obliviousness as rejection, and a confirmation of all his negative beliefs about himself.

Suffer.

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an edyn design but i will most definitely futz with the outfit when i have brainjuice for it gill with pretzel babywrap inspired by my brother who listened to maybe half of ep1 and got it in his head that pretzel was tied to his stomach, not on his hip and i screamed when he told me no thoughts head empty sketch of gill pose

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kian stone!!!! based on this twt post

#the tweet is so real tho #jrwi bitb

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Cute date idea:

I throw myself out of a 40 story building and you jump after me and tell me that you see me <3

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This scene got me fr

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Introducing The Captains of the riptide pirates!

#wow!!!!

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pov your characters are at vidcon but you aren’t @grizzlyplays

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hey. its ok. gill's loud wet real fish slippers. edyn has a matching pair 😌

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the weylin twins

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#sweats #jrwi bitb

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GHOSTKNIFE DAY 2 - HEART

@ghostknifeweek 💜

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