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I've been terrible, not coming on here. Sorry guys.

So, day 4 was a blast, went out with some family and had a great day - walked around a garden and ate some posh and yummy food. Thoroughly recommend the place I went to - they were very accomodating with my veganism.

Day 5 was a heavy day, received 850kg of "blue" slate (which turned out to be more purple) and fixed up my garden some more (and tested my back to its limits)

BEFORE

AFTER

And today, day 6... Literally didn't do anything other than lay in bed, had a nap, played on my Xbox, watched a series and a film.

With tomorrow being my last day of my holiday, I'm going to have to use it as my "getting ready for the coming week" day - food shopping, cleaning, tidying, hoovering etc. Etc.

Last couple of days had a few takeaways. Bad girl.

Now I'm looking up "profitable side hustles" because (like everyone else) I need more money 😭

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Well, I wrote a post as a catch up for the last few days. Then Tumblr didn't post it. There was an issue of some kind. Now I need to try and remember what I wrote! Argh

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Day #3. Didn't end well. 😕

Did garden shit - lots of digging and planting, took 2 hag bags of plant shit to the tip. In that regards, all well and good. Progress.

Tonight.... Not only did I order a pizza (medium instead of large), I also ordered 2 large McDonald's meals... For myself. I wasn't sharing with anyone. I ate the lot and then promptly puked it back up (on purpose). Not done that in ages and do NOT want to start that habit again. It didn't feel good - not the spending money, not to feeling too full, not when I saw it the second time and definitely not now.

This is the kind of shit I need to stop. THIS is the kind of shit I originally alluded to in my original post. For fucksake. Managed to fuck up on only day number 3!! 😡🤬

Going to remove my card details from the takeaway apps and websites (maybe even block them?! If I can find out how... If you know how, please let me know!!!). Hoping that will stop me in the future. Maybe even do a "days since I ordered/are takeaway" count to gauge progress and remind myself how far I've come? Maybe need to join a Fatties Anonymous (is there such a thing?!)

Gained a pound. Not the spending kind.

So. Yeah. Feeling down. I mark today as a Not Win. Not completely lost, as I did do some GYST shit, but definitely not a win.

Times like this is when I have to stop myself from punishing myself (like when Dobby fucks up and tries to bash his own head in) and start talking to myself like the caring best friend. (NOT like a patronising bitch though "There, there, petal. You only stuffed your face because you were hungwy. You're such a cutie little pudding aren't you?! Aren't you, baby?!" 🤮 No, not like that)

BUT! Tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow I'm going to get a rower from gumtree and add it to my exercise repertoire. (Which makes it sound I do exercising regularly right?! Laughable right now, but hopefully something believable soon).

Let's remember a couple of things my dad has said in the past:

1. About worrying and the fact there's no point to it: the thing you're worrying about - can you do something about it *right now*?

If yes - go do the thing and sort it out. No point worrying because you've sorted it.

If no - you can't do anything about it anyway and worrying about it isn't going to change it, so there's a actually no point in worrying because it won't achieve anything other than stressing you out and wasting your time.

2. Starfish. It's a sweet little story that has the message of doing even a little bit is making a difference. Similar to "climbing a mountain starts with a single step" or "you can only eat an elephant one mouthful at a time"

A father and his young daughter were enjoying a walk along the beach until they came up to a starfish stranded in the sand, washed up by the tide. Looking further along the beach, what looked like the sandy beach turning into a pebble beach was actually thousands upon thousands of starfish - all washed up with no way of getting back into the sea. As the father stands there, the daughter crouches down to one, picks it up, and throws it into the sea.

"What are you doing?" The father almost chuckles at her naïve actions, watching her walk to the next starfish, pick it up and lob it as far into the sea as she can. "There are so many, it won't make a difference!"

With the third starfish propelled into the sea with all her might, the daughter turns to the father and simply says "It makes a difference to this one," picking up the next starfish and said, just as she poised herself for another starfish-seaward-chuck: "and to this one."

Her father nodded as he realised that his daughter had made a whole world of difference for each of the starfish she had saved. He knelt down and joined her in rescuing as many starfish as he could.

Goodnight guys. Things will look better in the morning, they always do. You're less tired and it's light outside.

#starfish #tomorrow is another day #dont worry ill be fine #blip

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And Day 2..!

Had work.

Only lost .4 lb - but still going in the right direction!

Cleared my bedroom :) (yes, still needs hoover and clean etc. Etc. But it's nice to be able to walk anywhere and not tread on something! And to actually be able to *see* the floor!)

Gonna try and add before and after GIFs, not done this before sooo... Wish me luck! :)

BEFORE

This one has to be a vid to try and make this post a little less insane... (Yep, shit had gotten baaaaad)

AFTER

Almost feel like that deserved a fanfare before showing you :p

Aaahhhh isn't that *much* nicer?! :)

Today = a win ;)

#tidyhome #tidy #tidy room #bedroom #winning

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So, after day 1 of my GYST (get your shit together):

Did what I wanted to in the garden - should have done a before and after photo... But didn't think of that until after I did the shit :(

Did NOT order a takeaway (the fact I have less than £1 in my account is by the by...)

Drank more water than normal (the fact I drank water and not fizzy shit is a plus!)

My body aches (about fucking time I exerted enough to ache)

And weighed myself (looking to weigh daily to start and then move to weekly as I get into the swing of things). Saturday night I weighed 254.6lbs - the heaviest I have EVER been.

Sunday I weighed 253.4lbs, even after having 1 takeaway for breakfast (I know, having a takeaway for BREAKFAST sounds insane - because it is. This is why I need to get my shit together and stop self sabotaging). But after today I weighed at 250.8lbs! Whoop! Yes, I know it probably is water weight etc, but it's going in the right direction for once. :)

I class today as a win. Go me! :)

#win #gyst #progress #beginning

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Right. I've had enough. Had enough of hating myself, had enough of feeling sorry for myself, had enough of failing and complaining. Fuck that.

It's time to get a grip. Get my shit sorted. All my shit. I've attached photos and they speak for themselves. Not only have I not looked after myself, I haven't looked after my house (believe it or not, I took the picture *after* I had done some tidying...!). No wonder I'm a depressed puddle of flab. Had I foresaw how I was going to be 10 years ago, I'd have been embarrassed and distraught. Bout time I grew the hell up and stopped "needing help" from others - the only person who can actually help me is me.

I need some accountability though. Because I know me. I make grand plans like this and then find every tiny excuse under the sun to not go ahead with it and it becomes just another list/schedule/idea/table piece of paper to add to my ever increasing C.R.A.P.* pile. I want to grab my head and scream into my face. Why the hell do I keep sabotaging myself?!

Time to improve the shit out of me. Improve the hell out of my life. Actually be happy. Finally become myself.

Now, it's all well and good having this "get shit sorted" mentality. Bravo. I need a plan. Some goals/objectives. A way to measure the progress. A deadline.

I'm setting myself a period of 6 months to get it together (deadline = end of February). This is the shit I need to achieve:

1. Complete all 8 modules of my CIPD qualification

2. Tidy my house

3. Lose weight/get fitter

4. Get in control of my money

Number 4 is already in progress, paying off a credit card for 2 years and then I'll be debt free (not counting mortgage). Budgeting is a bit tricky right now due to changing prices and energy price cap increases, but I'll make it work one way or another.

To complete number 1, I want to complete a module each week for the next 8 weeks, including assignments. After which, I'll go over the assignments again before submitting. Bosh, done.

Number 2 is already in progress. Cleaned the hell out of my bathroom today (yeah, it was grossss). Main bedroom and spare bedroom to be sorted this coming week. Garden to be worked on this week too. Have tick lists to keep up the tidying on a daily/weekly/monthly schedule.

Number 3.... This one on the face of it isn't difficult (eat less shit, move your arse more). It's the mental side of this one that gets me. The bonkers thing is that I KNOW I'll be better mentally as well as physically down the line once I've formed the exercising habit.... It's making it a habit that I've found bloody hard. Hence the need for accountability.

I can do this. I know I can. I just need to get off my arse and do it.

Bits I hate: belly is bigger than my boobs. Belly actually folds over itself. I have back rolls. Double chin for days. No face shape. The chub-rub kills me every fucking summer. I'm tired all the time. My hormones are out of wack (makes me grow lots of dark hairs on my flabby chin, noice).

Hoping to show you guys the improvements at least weekly. Tell you what I did to work towards my goals.

#health & fitness #happiness #getshitdone #growing up #adulting #betterlife #plan

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Vegan Pesto Pasta!

Only 136 calories per serving or 272 for the whole pot.

Ingredients:

1 Package of Shiritaki Noodles

1 Cup of Chopped Kale

1 Cup of Sliced Zucchini

2 Cups of Sliced Crimini Mushrooms

1/2 Cup of Chopped Tomato (I used a Roma)

3 Tablespoons of Homemade Vegan Pesto (pinenuts, Basil, lemon juice, garlic, water, and avocado oil)

Seasonings: sea salt, black pepper, paprika, onion powder, garlic powder

Makes two servings!

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Personal recipe: shirataki miso ramen. It’s 80 calories and this makes SO much ramen - my bowl was almost overflowing and this wasn’t even all of it. This could probably be broken into two servings.

Combine your broth ingredients (except the miso) and veggies and bring them to a boil. Meanwhile, drain and rinse your shirataki noodles. Add the noodles once the broth is boiling. Season to taste with hot sauce, salt & pepper. Let your ramen simmer for about 10 minutes, until the vegetables are soft. Turn the heat to low and add your miso paste last (boiling the miso will kill the healthy probiotics.)

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A big ol’ plate of greens; broccoli; green beans; peas; roast potatoes. 🌿🥗

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