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FINAL FANTASY XVI - - JOSHUA ROSFIELD 💭

#i'm done posting what i managed to write on this blog last week LOL #time to disappear again #self; #gifs

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Joshua can tell from the look in this woman's eyes that she worries, and he genuinely wishes he could help her and make her feel better. He wishes he could make her understand she's not alone, even if it's maybe not enough. He spent so many years in loneliness during his time with the Undying. He knows how it feels, and he refuses to let her feel this way, even if he doesn't even know her. It's in Joshua's nature to want to help.

He offers her a soft smile. "You are in Rosalith." It should sound a bell, right ? And if it doesn't... he will remain at her side and find a way to help her somehow. "My name is Joshua."

༊⋆｡˚                                  anxiety  beating  (  almost  painfully  )  against  her  ribcage  —-  confusion  c  o  n  t  o  r  t  e  d  onto  her  features  as  she  looked  around  before  her  gaze  landed  upon  the  male  before  her  .  everything  a  blur  ;  the  ache  in  her  head  causing  her  to  worry  even  more  so  —-  if  she  could  just  figure  out  where  she  was  ,  p  e  r  h  a  p  s   she  could  connect  the  dots  . 

❛  could  you  tell  me  where  i  am  ?    ❜  there  was  no  use  panicking  in  things  that  could  not  be   u  n  d  o  n  e   .  she  would  find  her  way  and  the  reasoning  for  being  here  . 

#rp #lockedfighter #v: the flame alights

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Joshua would do all he could to help Clive. It's this simple. He wants to fight at his side. If he has spent this much time to find information about Ultima, it's because he thought it would give him a way to protect Clive from that so-called god. They are protecting each other now; they are each other's Shield. He refuses to believe otherwise. He lets a soft chuckle escape his mouth. "Well... I will do my best, Brother. As long as you promise to not die for me either." Even as a child, Joshua refused to have people die for him. He has always felt uneasy with the Undying, and he finally feels free of them.

He smiles gently. "Jote has helped me a lot. She was like... She was a bit like you, Brother. Not like you, but she helped me feeling less lonely, even if I still felt lonely." There were similarities between Clive and Jote, of course. Both of them have always protected him. With Jote, it's different than with Clive, of course. They're definitively not as close. Joshua has tried to see her as some kind of sister, but Jote could never see him as an equal. However, that bond is still what prevented him from being consumed by his loneliness. His smile saddens at the mention of Cid. "I wish I could have made it in time to save Cid. He really seemed like a good man." And Joshua is so grateful he was there for Clive.

Clive would risk everything for Joshua, to keep him safe from harm and anything else that was thrown their way. It wasn't just his duty as First Shield, but also as his brother and it's something he'll do his outmost best with doing so. Sure, the Undying might not like him for being Ifrit's dominant, but it's not something he wanted or asked for to begin with and it just happened to him.

❝ If you're sure than it's not for me to say no. I can't force you to stay behind. Just promise me you'll stay safe and don't die for me. I know you can, and I believe you. ❞ It wasn't up to Clive how or who saved Joshua. Not when he couldn't exactly be there for thirteen years and the extra five years after Cid's death. ❝ It sounds like she means a lot to you brother. That's how I feel about Cid, without him I wouldn't be alive right now. He gave me what I needed to continue to live. ❞

#yes don't worry haha :3 #and sorry for being slow too i'm mostly on aerith these days! #rp #dawnturnstodusk #v: the flame alights

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Joshua can't help but let an awkward chuckle escape his mouth at Aerith's reaction. He just hopes she won't start seeing him differently now that she knows who he really is. She's so... special. Unlike most of the Undying, Aerith is always laughing and smiling, and it's something that has been growing on him since they met. He's not used to it, and it has made him feel curious. He won't forgive himself if she starts acting differently because of that.

But he doesn't think Aerith is like this. No, she's too kind. He's pretty sure she will keep seeing him for who he really is. But... she's making fun of him in some ways now, right ? Well, it's a beginning. Most of the Undying won't approve, but Joshua couldn't care less about how they feel. Joshua Rosfield doesn't exist for them; only the Phoenix does.

"I am... I think I am somehow relieved that you know." Maybe he shouldn't say this, but it's still the truth. He laughs a bit once again before he shakes his head and offers her a nervous, awkward smile. "Please, Aerith, this is not a meeting. Let's... Let's keep this secret between us, alright ?" His hands are sweating. Maybe he should have kept this to himself. He doesn't even know why he's this nervous, but he surely is. Aerith has this strange effect on him.

Aerith whipped her head around to stare at him with widened eyes. It was difficult to get a read on her expression, whether she was shocked or upset by the revelation. It was a moment longer before she whisper-shouted at him again. "Josh-hua!?" her accept leapt out again, she would probably never say his name the Valisthean way.

Hands planted on her hips, she looked him up and down as he explained. It all made sense, of course, and she wasn't actually cross at him. If anything she felt a bit foolish for not catching any signs.

Her head turned away from him and a massive grin split her lips as she laughed to herself. Wow! She had him teach his own name to her! Made him talk about his family, too! She'd feel worse about it if he hadn't put himself in that corner.

Finally she looked back at him proper, wearing an amused smile. "I don't know who feels more awkward right now, well done on spilling the secret to the one person in the Order who could have been fooled." Another laugh bubbled up and she waved her hand, as if to dismiss the entire thing. "This is certainly a meeting I shall never forget. I must thank you for that."

#HAHAHA i'm laughing too 😂 #he really can't resist LOL #rp #holyguardian #v: away

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💋 to abruptly kiss Aerith.

It was a quiet moment in Joshua's bedchambers where they had retreated for privacy. Nothing untoward, except for maybe the heavy, somber silence that blanketed over them. Ultima had raised Origin skywards and he awaited the arrival of Mythos.

The hideaway was torn between preparations and a looming dread. Naturally, in the face of what could be the final days, things were a lot more serious.

Aerith sat at the very edge of Joshua's bed, one hand crossed over the other in her lap. She should have been saying encouraging words. She should have been positive, or at least anything but her depressing quiet. But it was so difficult to find her words in the face of this darkness.

Joshua knelt down in front of her. He placed his hand atop hers and offered a smile — it was kind, gentle, but it too was edged with sadness. They were on the precipice of goodbye.

A long silence was shared. She tried not to be so sorrowful, tried to be strong. That meant having a difficult conversation. Something she was quite terrible at, when it came to real talk she could dance around the topic until the sun went down. This was hardly the time to be avoiding what had to be said.

Her head leaned to press into the palm of his hand as he cupped her face so affectionately. "I believe in you, I do." she spoke quietly. "I'm having a hard time letting you go, you see. I have a selfish wish to hold onto you tightly..." he might feel how her hands tensed, balled up into fists now. "I love you, Joshua."

It was an admission sealed by an abrupt kiss. Whether Joshua had had lost his own words, whether he needed a push, or whether this was simply the very last chance and he didn't want her to flood him with tears just yet, she didn't know. And it didn't matter.

Though the kiss was short, Joshua remained close enough for Aerith to chase another from him, her brow creased with heavy emotion as she slid from the bed into the small space in front of him gathered him into her arms. Lips parted a second time, she pressed their foreheads together, holding him close and dear. It was an embrace that had to end, she knew. But in that moment she simply held on, and they drowned together from the weight of what was to come.

#AWWWWW MUDDY hfdhdh #this is beautiful 🥰 #saved #holyguardian

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#musing #imagery

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Joshua gently returns her smile. This smile... He sincerely hopes he can see it forever. Aerith probably doesn't even realize how important and precious her smile is to his. She always manages to give him hope. She deserves the brightest future, and hopefully, he can contribute to it. As Joshua Rosfield. Because Aerith sees him for who he really is, not as the Dominant of the Phoenix only. And it means the world to him.

"Aerith, you know..." His little smile turns somehow playful. "I enjoy making you blush." Of course she already knows this, but he has to say it out loud. He lets a soft chuckle escape his mouth as she covers her cheeks. She's adorable and beautiful at once.

He gently shakes his head and squeezes her hand. "I can light a fire, my Lady. I do not mind if you can not," he assures, half-teasing. But he becomes slightly more serious as she keeps talking. She definitively doesn't realize the strong impact she has over him. Once she's done, Joshua's smile becomes warmer.

"You are here, Aerith. With you, I feel seen. You make me believe I am more than the Phoenix. You make me want this future and survive the final battle against Ultima." He wants to live, more than anything else, and Aerith has contributed to this, just like Clive, Jill and everyone else at the Hideaway. These people who doesn't care about the Dominant, but about the man. "I am... truly grateful." There are some other words he wishes he could speak, but he's not sure he should yet, when the future is still so uncertain.

The smile that blossomed on her face was immediate. Aerith would never tire of his sweet little kisses — she felt giddy, like a young girl swept off her feet. Then he chased his hand kiss with such a warm reassurance.

By the Gods, she was going to kiss Joshua the moment they stole away to his chambers.

"You're making me blush." she quietly accused him, going as far as to cover her pink-stained cheeks for a moment. It was with a small squeeze to his hand that she sobered a little. He was prince charming from his head to his toes, but he wasn't superficial. Oh no. Joshua put his heart into it, as he did with everything.

"Don't thank me yet," she half-teased, "you haven't witnessed how awful I am at lighting a fire. Which should probably offend you." Even though she teased, she allowed the gratitude to wash over her all the same. "... I'm not sure I've done a lot. You're the one who has carried such a heavy burden, but if I helped even a little. That is something that makes me happy. I want to help." That was who she was. The person who wanted to help lift the heavy things, not add onto them.

#LET'S BE FOR REAL #he ABSOLUTELY wants it LOL 🥰😂 #rp #holyguardian #v: the flame alights

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●●●●● | ATTRACTION ●●●●● | AFFECTION ●●●●● | INTEREST ●●●●○ | LOYALTY ●●●●○ | TRUST

Almost a perfect score! The only thing holding Aerith back from fully committing is her healthy fear of the future and what it might hold, she doesn't like to imagine a world without Joshua (although she is aware there is a very real possibility he might not come back). If he comes back, he has her heart completely, and she will never doubt him again.

#i looooove them gfdgd 🥰 #so i'm saving this a few days late LOL #saved #holyguardian

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JOSHUA ROSFIELD + DETAILS

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#i'm bringing back my aerith :3 #self promo

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                    go on.                         UNDERESTIMATE ME.

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ACCEPTANCE, REUNION, FAREWELL

#clive; #self; #gifs #queued post

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Joshua has been craving affection since he reunited with his family. He repressed this for so long with the Undying because the man couldn't exist; only the Dominant could. But now... he wants to defeat Ultima, but he also wants to live after that final battle. Sometimes, he still feels like a child in a grown-up body because he pushed his humanity aside for too long. And now, he's finally allowing himself to feel thanks to his family and to these new friends he met at the Hideaway. It means so damn much.

He can tell his uncle his emotional right now, and Joshua feels the same. The upcoming battle is scary, of course. He knows about his own health, and he knows how strong Ultima is. But he needs to believe in himself, in Clive and in Dion. They are not alone into this fight, and the three of them are very capable.

He smiles gently as Byron kisses his forehead, then lets a brief chuckle escape his mouth. "Thank you, Uncle. It means a lot... Seriously." Joshua never talks much about his time with the Undying. Anyway, other than his studies and his training, there was nothing to say. He just wishes he would have reunited with the others earlier. "I love you, too. I will come back. I have to." And he will make sure Clive and Dion come back, too. As the Phoenix, he's the one who will have to protect them.

"Of course, Joshua," Byron whispered, and his voice cracked. "I will always be here to hold you. I won't leave you alone ever again."

Maybe it was the tenderness of the moment, or perhaps it was the weight of it all crashing down onto Byron's shoulders. But, whatever the case, he was finding it harder to remain bright and jovial for this, even if he was fairly certain that a good measure of these tears were those of joy. And perhaps that was it, in the end. Maybe he was just feeling too much all at once, and the fear and happiness and resolve and anxiety were all rolling up into one large, unfathomable thing and curling up in his throat like a heavy stone. So much his the muscles felt as if they were strainung as he swallowed, were he felt no less thick for the eventual success of it.

But he smiled, because he was happy at the end of it all, and he pressed a kiss to Joshua's forehead. He would make sure it wasn't the last one he ever gave him. He would make sure this wasn't their last meeting. He would be that shoulder Joshua needed from here on out, come hell or high waters.

Finally pulling away, Byron smiled and gave Joshua's shoulders a gentle squeeze, eyes twinkling with the unshed tears, "Be safe, my boy. I love you very much."

#:3 #rp #phoenixcoin #v: the flame alights

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you can love someone so much platonically that it feels like you’re gonna die. platonic feelings can be just as intense as romantic ones, and that doesn’t make them any less platonic. 

#listen joshua loves deeply #period #quote #musing #queued post

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More than once, Joshua has doubted all of this. He has wondered if hiding that way truly was the right thing to do. He doesn't fully trust the Undying, even if he also owes them a lot. They made sure he survived and made him stronger. And yet... they also only care about the Phoenix. Joshua is well aware of that fact. He knows he has been losing his humanity, and being with his family and friends again could surely change everything.

He clears his throat and hesitates for a moment. "I need... I need to go to Drake's Head." This is where he will stop Ultima. He trained so hard for this; he knows he can do it. "What I want to do there is dangerous. It is best if I go alone." He knows Noctis would want to help him, and now that they reunited, maybe he would prefer to accompany him too, but Joshua isn't sure it's a good idea. "Do you know how I could quickly go there ?"

"I understand."

Joshua had always been kindhearted so Noctis knew that he'd never have willingly hurt the people he cared about. Noctis knew that the first time someone primed was rough, and he'd seen the state of Phoenix Gate so it didn't surprise him that Joshua had needed so much time to recover. He just wished his friend hadn't had to go through so much.

"For what it's worth, I'm glad you didn't."

Perhaps that was selfish of him given what Joshua had no doubt been through since then, but he was glad he got to see him again.

"So I guess the big question is, how can I help?"

#rp #chosenbythecrystal #v: away

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❛  have i ever told you how beautiful you look in the glow of the moonlight?  ❜

Joshua has been quite lost in his thoughts. What will come next ? He truly wishes to be reunited with Clive soon, and yet... this moment seems so far away. Sometimes, he even wonders if it will truly happen again. His brother thinks he's dead. Joshua was so young back when the Night of Flames took place... If only he had been older, he would have never done like the Undying wanted. Of course they have protected him and have made him stronger, but they also hurt him. They want the Dominant; they don't care about Joshua Rosfield himself. When he meets Clive again, though, maybe he can finally start existing and living again.

Orihime's voice suddenly brings him back to reality. Him ? Beautiful ? In the glow of the moonlight ? Where is this coming from ? Why is she saying this ? He awkwardly clears his throat. He's really not used to receive that kind of compliment.

"Thank you, my Lady," he replies, offering her a soft smile. "I'm afraid I was mostly lost in my thoughts, though." But now he's fully back in the moment because he didn't see this compliment coming at all.

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#LOL he really didn't see the compliment coming 😂 #rp #auburniivenus #v: away

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FINAL FANTASY XVI ↳ "Do you remember me, boy ?"

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