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i’m turning 28 in june and besties. can i be honest. i have this sense of anxiety and foreboding as i near 30. i love my birthdays and genuinely see aging as a privilege and i think every year that i’m older i feel so much more myself and you couldn’t pay me enough to be 21 again, and i don’t even think that 30 is old! i actually think that, holding the emotional progress i’ve made these past few years constant, i’m going to thrive at 30! i have this idealized image of myself at that age and i am truly looking forward to it! and i do think some of these feelings can be attributed to the fact that my 20s are the first decade of my “adult life” and so i have nothing to compare it to — much in the way that turning 14 felt monumental and terrifying because it signified this arbitrary “transition” — but regardless of all of my cognitive recognitions i cannot seem to shake this feeling.

and i feel so conflicted about it for all the aforementioned reasons, but also because i fundamentally think our anti-aging culture is goofy and ludicrous and pernicious but i am also a member of the dominant culture so even with my beliefs and even as much as i know the anti-aging programming i am inundated with is horseshit meant to make me buy shit, i still feel it! i am still susceptible! and i will be fully honest that some of my fears / anxieties are vain or superficial. like i can admit that some of my thoughts are in the vein of “will i still be considered pretty as i age” which, again! i recognize as probably sounding insane or frivolous to people, but it is in my brain nonetheless. anyway i don’t know the point of sharing this on tumblr instead of journaling it but maybe i’m hoping that someone else understands this and i am not donkey kong king kong crazy

#i feel ashamed of it too because i keep telling myself you’re smarter than this. you value yourself more than this. but i am still a woman #over 25 in a world that thinks we turn to dust at 30 and i can admit that affects me! #i also don’t want to express this to my friends who are 30 or older because i don’t want them to think that my personal anxieties mean that #i think 30 is OLD or that i think any of these things about them because i don’t like if anything my friends who are over 30 are PROOF that #they’re generally better than your 20s. yet i’m still here #perhaps no one relates and i’m leagues behind in my Feminist Evolution but…. i can accept that

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Andy Biersack in Attend the Tale - A Mini Documentary (x)

#andyblackveil is back!!!! #i love this (and him) so much 🖤 #p: i have to poop and my hands hurt #a: black veil brides #int: misc #y: 2024 #era: bleeders

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rewatching house for the first time since i watched when it was airing. what is the heterosexual explanation for why house knows which days of the week wilson wears which ties

#come on guys

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was going through my kenobi series tag and came across these ones i left on a post from last year and i’m like damn. let her cook

#also after a quick survey i have realized that the majority of my responses to anakin posts are saying that i’m going to eat glass or #telling someone to shut up which is… incredible

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EWAN MCGREGOR | Vanity Fair | 2024

#this is making me choke up #and that chemistry produced the best scene of the series!!!!! #p: ewan mcgregor #tv: obi-wan kenobi #f: star wars

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In a way that sort of criticism, I think, comes from a certain failure of their own suspension of disbelief.

HAPPY 43RD BIRTHDAY HAYDEN CHRISTENSEN Born April 19, 1981 | Vancouver, Canada

#happy birthday my king 🥹🥹🥹🥹❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ #p: hayden christensen

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I really don't know how to explain to people that supporting gender liberation (liberation for trans people, liberation for gnc people, liberation from all oppressive gender roles) means you have to be able to see someone you think is cis "crossdressing" and be cool about it. You have to be able to see someone presenting in a way that doesn't make sense to you and not interrogate them about their identity. You have to be able to hear someone express a gender identity you don't understand and go "Huh! Neat," and go about your business. If you truly want gender liberation for all then you have to stop trying to exert control over other people's genders, period.

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and is your shame helpful? is it inspiring goodness and change? or is it keeping you frozen in time unable to move on and be everything you have expanded to be?

#okay man #o: reminders

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the rafah border crossing could close as soon as next month, leaving people in gaza with no way out. please continue to fund trusted people who are on the ground. do not donate to anyone who does not know what they are doing or how to get funds moved properly, or those who have no connections to volunteers in cairo who are working tirelessly to transition traumatized people as smoothly as possible while the egyptian government does squat. many sources are aggregating vetted funds like the linktree to several funds below.

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Just hours before the start of Eid al-Fitr celebrations, while children anxiously awaited the morning festivities, the Israeli army massacred the Abu Yousef family in the Nuseirat central Gaza Strip , resulting in the killing of at least 13 civilians most of them children.

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"are you implying you want israel to not exist" im not implying im demanding. pleading with God and everybody. explicitly stating. i dont want any fascist state to exist i dont want any ever settler colonial scar on the face of our beautiful earth to exist i dont want that genocidal left hand extension of a hideous sinister empire to greet another dawn israel is not subtle at all about its child killing and innocents killing palestinian killing it hasnt been subtle about its fascism in seventy and more years and im not subtle about wanting it to end and wanting it to never have a chance to spring back up again

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anyway. onto better things

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Favorite Padmé Outfits (2/2)

#this is so cool!!! #c: so this is how liberty dies #f: attack of the clones #f: star wars

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#🤝🐦‍⬛🖤

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i was so fucking sad when i was 14 and now when i fold my laundry or see a pool of moonlight on the floor of my bedroom i know that miracles exist. i see love in everything. love sees everything in me too

#🥺

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BRANDON LEE as ERIC DRAVEN THE CROW (1994)

#so so so so sooooo beautiful #f: the crow