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First outing and will need two more to get out, aka I may as well get out on may :<

nyall, I'll be without internet access for around a week

I'm getting inpatiented, wish me luck!

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I wish I could donate more but every gfm has a minimum of $7 waaa

#that's like a fifth of my monthly income

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i'n making new post about this since my pinned is years old atp: i'm a crippled auDHD traumatized genderfreak college student who is still very much under-diagnosed and under-treated, needs intensive therapy due to over 2 decades of violent abuse, hoping to start the process of a disability income application this year, and i'm constantly struggling to afford necessities (including food, gas, and medication) even w/ financial assistance from my abusive family. additionally i'm in need of disability aids like a cushion for my wheelchair, a new cane, and a shower chair.

any help is greatly appreciated.

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Feeling like a menace today

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If you know anyone who seems really chill to the point of being virtually indestructible, like nothing could ever bother them in any way, could get hit by a train and just shake it off and be totally fine, laughing it off as soon as they've dusted themselves off and stopped bleeding, but who occasionally just randomly falls apart to complete fucking smithereens with seemingly no cause nor warning, only to get back up again a few minutes/hours/days later like "ok yeah I'm fine again that was weird lmao", and you've ever wondered what the fuck is up with that:

They are actually not ok and most likely are not ok at any point. The whole "hardiest person you know who just collapses randomly sometimes" thing isn't a deliberately constructed façade, as a matter of fact it might be something that they actually personally believe themselves to be. But in reality this is somebody who's either unintentionally learned or has been deliberately trained to hide negative emotions and mask symptoms at all costs, as the #1 priority that goes over any other survival needs.

So even though it may look like they go from 1 to 100 completely at random and unpredictably, and then swing right back again to being totally fine, you have no way of knowing how long they've been at 95% before the last line of defense broke down and the system collapsed. And once they flip back up, odds are that they just managed to scrape their shit back together again just enough to get their backup masking systems running. The "check engine" light never turned on because the wire was clipped years ago.

If this is you, this is your callout to seek some sort of help. I'm telling on everyone in this room including myself.

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mr sandman

man me a sand

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the bizarre experience of being high on a lorazepam shot

#it hurt a lot too #i legit screamed and cried

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nyall, I'll be without internet access for around a week

I'm getting inpatiented, wish me luck!

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This was shared as a "bad" joke but I was so charmed by it I've been thinking about it for days.

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Muslims initially admired Western-style liberalism for having created, at least in Europe, a humane civilization. But this prestige began to crumble in the last quarter of the nineteenth century; liberalism was discredited by its apparent complicity with imperialism, and its failure to sympathize with liberal nationalistic elements in Muslim society. Liberalism in Europe resolutely failed to amount to liberalism in the colonies. It seemed too much a sort of racially segregated liberalism. Mohammed Abduh summed up a widespread sentiment when, after successive disappointments, he confessed in 1895 that, ‘We Egyptians believed once in English liberalism and English sympathy; but we believe no longer, for facts are stronger than words. Your liberalness we see plainly is only for yourselves, and your sympathy with us is that of the wolf for the lamb which he deigns to eat.’

Pankaj Mishra, From the Ruins of Empire

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Reminder: trans Muslims and gay Muslims exist and we’re not going anywhere.

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the "you can't identify into oppression" sound bite might be one of the biggest headscratchers out there because for one thing yes you can, and for another you oftentimes don't even need to do any identifying. for someone who converts to judaism for their spouse it doesn't exactly matter whether they personally actually identify as 'a jew' if their synagogue gets a bomb threat to terrorise them. Balbir Singh Sodhi was a victim of an anti-arab and anti-muslim hate crime regardless of the fact that he was neither arab nor muslim but an indian sikh. if a country criminalises same-sex relations a straight male prostitute accepting male clients because there's more money in it will be no less at a severe risk for lacking internal homosexual orientation. all that which is generally subsumed under "oppression" absolutely does not 1:1 correspond to whether or not its targets internally match a specific criterion and to insist otherwise is strikingly stupid. whether a demographic can be considered "oppressed" is if anything to be determined by observing their situation in reality, not by making spiritual arguments along the lines of "they have X-intrinsic essence, therefore Y-effect must inherently be drawn to them; or they don't have X-internal quality, therefore i have logically determined Y-effect can't possibly follow."

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Girl, look at you! You've started to pray five times a day. You're working on your hijab. You've begun to love yourself more and think less about what others say. You spend more time with Allah SWT. You're pushing through the bad days, through the fear, and through the loneliness. You're trying your best every day. And for that, I am so, so, so proud of you.

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Shout out to

LGBTQ reverts in a homophobic and islamophobic household

Aromantic allosexual Muslims

Lesbian couples who can’t decide who pays mehr /hj

Queer Muslims who have cried to Allah SWT, begging for forgiveness for being queer

Queer Muslims who tried to “pray the gay away”

Transmasc Muslims who still wear their hijab and transfems who can’t wear hijab

Genderqueer and multigender folks who can’t decide if they should wear a hijab or not

neurodivergent Muslims

Muslims who can’t recite prayer in arabic because of neurodivergence

Muslims who are in DID/OSDD systems

Muslim system who feels guilt when a non muslim alter fronts

Muslim alters in non Muslim systems and vice versa, that’s probably pretty rough :(

Muslims who forget prayer because of amnesia

Muslims who forget prayer due to Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder

Muslims with invisible disabilities that prevent them from prayer

Muslims who can’t fast during Ramadan for any reason

Poor Muslims

White and Black Muslims

Arabs who have been accused of t3rrorism

Any Muslim who have been accused of t3rrorism

Muslims with addictions

Muslims who are therians, otherkin, or nonhuman in anyway

Muslims reverts who aren’t sure if they can still identify as a therian, otherkin, or nonhuman

Hijabi quadrobists

Hijabi cosplayers. Your hijab looks great

And anyone who feels they don’t fit into the community. You are loved, I promise. There’s people out there for you 🤍

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lately when I pray I feel like if Allah held my face in His hands while I do my duas

#muslim revert

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I understand that a lot of people are really into gardening but i think you should refrain from pointing at peoples houses and announcing the sexes of the bushes outside because you might accidentally get the correct ratio of men to women in that household and scare the crap out of the residents inside. Especially if you’re going to end your statement with “that’s why they’re not going to survive”