faithfulmaiden

[faithfulmaiden]

oh, exploring the inner tenebrosity of a person who must stand for noble causes with firmness is utterly hot.

perhaps i’ll focus on the study of rabene’s anger.

#RABENE TONSORT #Mun is speaking

[faithfulmaiden]

People aren't homes, they never will be. People are rivers, always changing, forever flowing. They will disappear with everything you put inside them.

~ Nikita Gill

#RABENE TONSORT #( … ) be like water

[faithfulmaiden]

I'm overwhelmed by a vague sadness about life, an inner anxiety that makes me nervous and uneasy.

- Fernando Pessoa

#RABENE TONSORT #( … ) life won’t feel peace if the bearers run after conflicts

[faithfulmaiden]

quote, clarice lispector / eleanor oliphant is completely fine, gail honeyman / quote, anais nin / quote, khalil gibran / quote, sophocles

#RABENE TONSORT #rabé aesthetics #Mun is speaking : will dig more into the conflicts that rabene feels within her

[faithfulmaiden]

#RABENE TONSORT #( … ) melancholy is my life

[faithfulmaiden]

In Blackwater Woods, Mary Oliver

#RABENE TONSORT #( … ) plain observation of changes

[faithfulmaiden]

what shaft, tearing my heart? what scar, what light, what fire searing my eye-balls and my eyes with flame?

—H. D., excerpt of "Cassandra", in Collected Poems 1912-1944

#RABENE TONSORT #( … ) wondrous inklings to focus on in solitary evenings

[faithfulmaiden]

perhaps i’ll focus on the study of rabene’s anger.

#RABENE TONSORT #Mun is speaking #inner turmoils ? sufficient reason for an inevitable wrath that makes a devil excited

[faithfulmaiden]

“She has a heart, too much heart perhaps.”

— Marcel Proust, from The Complete Works; “Remembrance of Things Past,” (via violentwavesofemotion)

#RABENE TONSORT #( … ) a grand but slow heart eager to consume &. to fancy

[faithfulmaiden]

this is not what was meant for me this body, this mind, this life i’m a stranger in here somewhere behind all that decaying hope and pounds of empty flesh that agony and fear my spirit cries for what could’ve been it spends every second longing, begging for release it fears what it needs, what has to change is too much, too daunting, too drastic it’s convinced death would be easier i was not made for this please can someone hear me? i wasn’t made to be

~what is harder? living or dying

#RABENE TONSORT #( … ) hopeless pleads when reality hits again

[faithfulmaiden]

The Orange Eats Creeps, Grace Krilanovich

#RABENE TONSORT #( … ) the significance of an ending in miscellaneous forms.

[faithfulmaiden]

ESURIENT ORPHAN, MOURNFUL HERO, grief teaching

independent portrayal of anakin skywalker, from star wars. ( a selfless &. reckless general who battles for justice &. represents tragedy, enamored with padmé &. exploring his inner desires in secret. ) — CANON DIVERGENT.      read rules before following.

study of : shakespearean triumphs, pain’s a great teacher, accept fate’s surprises, break rules when necessary, combat deviations, rage is a promise kept, i’m the melancholy, darkness’s a faithful ally, never underestimate a lover, escape the reality, sentimental turmoils, contradictory yearnings of humane souls, gnawing aches &. inestimable arrogance, half–forgotten tragedy, undisclosed desires, the man &. the devil, etc.

verses &. portrayal.

#RABENE TONSORT #Mun is speaking #my anakin skywalker ready for tragic streams

[faithfulmaiden]

me &. the devil, soap&skin / bound in time / discourses, niccolò machiavelli

WELCOME THE QUEEN : RABÉ assess &. memorizes all particular steps of a canvas, excited to use such noteworthy knowledge to adorn manifold garnements that the queen amidala shall wear. the beauty of her excellency will defy the majority of paintings, without neglecting how to add symbolic patterns &. to not minimize the divergent designs in costumes that fool, mesmerize &. intimidate the audience whilst embellishing the grandeur of the senator : a costume at banquets that heightens the importance of one’s status, that forces anybody to skip bizarre demeanors &. to embody the highness of grace, verity &. public order — decorate the neck with rich jewelry, a long rouge cape with royal embroideries to understand the majesty’s positions, thick brown curls delicately combed, wide gown flares hide feet since concealments &. elegancy remain an obligation. the colors would be somber in political meetings, not ashamed to pick up stygian &. purple canopy. then for meaningful reunions like a dinner with old friends or closest allies, the outfits will be more light, not covering a lot &. very silken, often equal to handmaidens’ chosen layers with an absent need to maintain a professional stance.

NO TIME FOR COMFORT : RABÉ as the wardrobe mistress &. author of decoys’ fashion totally rejects self–heeds if the queen demands aides, briskly getting up from a dusty couch &. forbidding her creative &. worn–out physique to rest until queen amidala embraces safety. the ancient quires on untidy chairs, wide–ranging historical documents smeared with inks &. political texts borrowed or scrounged on the floor after the maiden’s impromptu departure from the solitary room in the big apartment. WHAT DOES HER MAJESTY NEED ? large gowns worth flattering ? a private moment to confess that more political operations will necessitate the presence of friendly companions for diplomatic advices ? a mundane interaction with few jokes &. generous says ? no problem, RABÉ is the listening ear, the artistic guidance &. the shield against would–be menaces. GOD KNOWS SHE HUNGERS FOR KNOWLEDGE &. SAFETY, all her preferences in terms of breading a creative mind rely on this purpose : to serve, to protect, to embellish her highness. but unlike the other handmaidens, RABÉ will not accept eulogies because of the impostor syndrome.

TIME FOR POLITICS : political circus or democratic ballad, … how does the female protection view different challenges in politics ? the auditorium mustn’t let a single information fall into deaf ears, into sly calculators who hide behind genteel mannerisms &. educational strength, concealed in esteemed garnements &. mastering the language of persuasion.

the opposite party filled with disputable ethics represent the machiavellian code, avoiding compassionate traits to reinforce solidity in arguments with less mansuetude gestures &. without hesitation utilizes buoyancy to cut a defender of truth’s sentence in the midst of a verbal exchange, yelling objections &. reacting like a dramatic theatrical group who finds offense in statements &. hunger for a commission to assert a clear dominion even if the rules of a committee oblige all participants to not stumble upon such unruly actions &. here, RABÉ entitles the whole moment a ‘‘ double-edged performance ’’, careful to summarize diverse topics in ambitious hands &. prepared to seize the right opportunity to disturb the balance : just the epitome of antics, hunting down a voracity for bargains, maintaining the pawns with strategical threats, occupying naive individuals with a promising end, woven to frightening admonitions &. orchestrated sacrifices ( goodness of verity’s protectors, the ebb of honesty … ) then hail exploitative operations ( contradictory yearnings of humane soul ). just like chess, the board is the battlefield or the committee or any space that interests the plotters, ready to choose different paths for the greater cause — rationality is above emotions &. this leads to insufferable conceptions, precisely because of male leadership. RABÉ reluctantly stays behind, analyzing facial expressions like a hawk &. the quietness the maiden wears ain’t something her closet friends underestimate : observation from a distance, calculative &. meditative, then announces that many shouldn’t be easily trusted, especially when senators’ humble mannerisms can be mistaken for feebleness, like ‘‘ your majesty, never forget that appearances can deceive. ’’ or will ramble about philosophical quotes which explain the political arts. for every leader, it’s a mission to not delay important updates, a private lieu with trustworthy companions like an inevitable assembly, ready to introduce essential plots on the table &. offer methodical ideas for defiling potential schemes or worrisome tactics without forgetting the hidden agendas’ operation &. a rapid decision must be made, supported by everyone or the majority. anyway… it’s very difficult, &. unpredictability is dominating.

#RABENE TONSORT #Mun is speaking #the political art is my favorite subject

[faithfulmaiden]

So happy to see you back on the dash!! ♡♡

thanks, my friend. i just need a dose of inspiration &. then, the rest’ll be history.

#RABENE TONSORT #Mun is speaking #love all of you

[faithfulmaiden]

this man…

#RABENE TONSORT #Mun is speaking #maybe will create an oc

[faithfulmaiden]

“I am young, I am twenty years old; yet I know nothing of life but despair, death, fear, and fatuous superficiality cast over an abyss of sorrow. I see how peoples are set against one another, and in silence, unknowingly, foolishly, obediently, innocently slay one another.”

— Erich Maria Remarque - All Quiet on the Western Front (via quotable-notable)

#RABENE TONSORT #( … ) in the field of politics when caution becomes the ally

[faithfulmaiden]

little girl having a tea party with a lobster &. a hawk, 1938. childhood’s little depiction.

the image’s used as an inspiration.

rabene tonsort received love from parents only if succeeding or exhibiting genius ideas for a painting or admirable projects but without errors as the main condition. in boring hours, chess game would nurture one’s wits alongside selecting a random magazine to ken actualities. isolation &. pressures never has strengthened the descendant of tonsort family, drawing green shades for abandoned forests plunged in winters or reclusiveness in varying shapes like twisted entities with no face &. blurry appearances veiled by layers of albescent dusty clothes expose the maiden’s psyche at only ten years old, already savoring disputable explorations before hiding papers under draps or behind a closet, trapped in high expectations of hypocritical parents who despised failings or possible imperfections. the topic of young flaws has been equal to venom in the house, anticipating nauseating events that smear a family tree’s reputation after tolerating one mistake. this, a compound of boundless folly &. obsessive perfectionism.

sometimes, imagining a landscape with bizarre figures &. adding obsidian with virescent colors easily frighten a normal person, but not when realistic scopes mingled with clear negligence as prime foundations &. unjustified demeanor towards offsprings has alternated rabene’s entire viewpoints on miscellaneous issues, leaning on philosophical–related cognizances &. the healing process when focusing on humane yearnings through soulful incandescence &. emotional maneuverabilities. so hereafter grueling assignments, the gifted child’s occupied with quizzes, waiting for debatable results like vastness before all lucidities &. correct answers. unfortunately, forlorn moments come to weaken a brittle &. demure spirituality, especially when mothers begin a lecture with tears, the index pressed against the child’s temple before adding the nail to impose &. fathers quench a thirst for dominion with copious beverages, reinforcing quotidian indubitable disciplines to satisfy their blithering egos. name those poor events signs of hardship.

the fruit of affection in home just stopped growing, resting under the surface, deprived of cares. unthinkable is an ounce of genuine support : put aside doting trait, catch the grotesque aspects of this exploited world, diligent incandescence &. fragile balance, but no marigolds, talents give purposes. an orphan prepared to unravel woven threads of ancient novels in solitude, engrossed in half-ripped parchments thrown into hideouts like boxes under the desk, questioning the expanse of life, then parents busy with accomplishments &. jobs interrupt the pursuit of knowledge with complaints, reinforcing this loop of awfulness. hesitation obscures individual motivations, guiding a consciousness to a bubble of pessimism &. even succeeding in locking up dreamy ambitions. with all those insufferable memories that often haunt rabene, tragedy’s the prime root of all creativity &. inspirations nestled within her mournful spirit — that’s why feeling like an orphan becomes an identity when responsible adults proffer negligence but at least encourage offsprings to seek independence instead of yearning for regular mansuetude because the world’s a plane laden with free wills &. ersatz innovations amongst sly disguises &. all–consuming varieties that often target naivety.

&. the rest’s history.

#RABENE TONSORT #Mun is speaking #so proud of this post.