faifaifaiiii

[faifaifaiiii]

Life is hard

[faifaifaiiii]

It's my 6 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

#6 year tumblrversary #tumblr milestone

[faifaifaiiii]

OUR YOUTUBE

[faifaifaiiii]

Do you think you do this to yourself?

I think I tend to do this occasionally when my family members gaslight or manipulate me into thinking I'm a horrible person for living normally. When individualism isn't recognized, codependency, enmeshment and close mindedness causes toxic behaviours from others (imo).

[faifaifaiiii]

"Deflects responsibility and counters when they make a mistake"

"Trivializes your emotions and opinions"

"Ignores proof and gives their reality"

"This is completely your fault"

The above quotes are just a few I hear on a daily basis at home. I've been wanting to cut off the toxicity from my life so bad recently cause I'm absolutely burnt out and fed up of people being so absurd and nasty and justifying their behaviour by saying "others make them behave that way". 🤬

As the last image says, there's no definition for phrases used to represent gaslighting, but heck I'm so done with the toxicity. I just want some peace and quiet in my life for once. 😣

[faifaifaiiii]

An Open Letter to All of You; If I Die Young

If I die young, don’t pity me.

Don’t go weeping on my funeral and say, “Poor girl. She’s still young,” for I’ve lived enough, laughed enough, loved enough, cried, burnt with passion, in despair, regret, kissed, hugged, and danced just enough.

I avoid thousands of possibilities of suffering and uncertainty that life could offer.

Don’t pity me.

Sing mariachi songs, dance a happy dance, wear your best clothes, raise a toast; “here is for the death!,” then talk about life in a most amusing way. Don’t go a thousand miles to my funeral. Don’t wait until I’m decaying, talk to me now, weep to me now, cherish our memories and moments now, reminisce now.

The value-judgment of death may make it sound bad, but it’s actually a friendly friend.

[faifaifaiiii]

“You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.”

— Unknown

[faifaifaiiii]

Some chapters of life don’t actually have an apparent ending. They just fade away silently.

It’s a strange feeling to look back at the past sometimes and see how some parts of life have simply dissolved into nothingness. And even though this poem might sound sad, I believe that being mindful of the transience of life actually helps us to feel all the preciousness and beauty of it.

[faifaifaiiii]

FINALLY

[faifaifaiiii]

07.20.22 happy birthday oikawa  💙 💙 💙

reunion!!!!! (aka oikawa and iwaizumi may not play volleyball on the same team anymore but they always, always come back together eventually)

(redraw of this post from 4 years ago but now hq timeskip canon has happened and i will be emotional over it forever and ever)

[faifaifaiiii]

Monet's Garden, Giverny, France ( via )

[faifaifaiiii]

kagehina comic that i made! i wanted to do something based on their graduation and that thing about boys giving their 2nd gakuran button to a love interest was just. so them

[faifaifaiiii]

picnic date with their babies! iwa wants to play volley with tobio, daichi takes one thousand photos, oikawa has planned everything aesthetic and suga is cuddling shouyo!

[faifaifaiiii]

talent is something you make bloom 🌸

[faifaifaiiii]

the usual oikawa slander

[faifaifaiiii]

it’s all about the biceps

part of my team crush series!

[nekoma]

[karasuno]

[fukurodani]

[shiratorizawa]

[inarizaki]

[faifaifaiiii]

—Chris Mc Geown