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latesco.

“Ah~ I haven’t used a kotatsu in so long~ I’m in heaven.” A gleeful chuckle left her with a pleasant smile, curling under Shinsha’s little table, any stress or worries she may have had before all but slipping away.

Things had been...less than quaint for her recently. Her stage life continued to flourish and thrive, while her more personal life remained dim. Maybe even dimming just a bit more than usual, guilt plaguing her like a sickness anytime she was home. One could only tend to the person they may as well have been slowly killing for so long. Ah, even as she tried to be happy she could feel her smile falter.

This wasn't any time to be gloomy, to be the depressing Kasane. No. Not at all. ‘Nina’ was to be a shining light, always.

“I'm sorry for not being able to talk or even message you too much lately, I've been busy with a new play. But i read all your messages, always!” Thinking of those very text messages brought her smile back. Thinking of her friend in general always brought a smile to her face, she half hoped the same could be said for them.

#latesco #♦ verse ii. / cherish the days of sea glass #u dared me so ofc u get the goods #also like. while writing this. i thought abt this being around the time she's just started doing salome??? and my rat brain followed up #that thought with kasane drags uno to shinsha while also trying deny any kind of crush she may have #she'S 95% GAY AND THAT MAN IS THE 5% BI mostly cause i can't blame her he is a. looker.#but yea i thought it'd be funny if shinsha asked her abt that. rlly tho shinsha gets all kind of dirt on kasane's costars

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#♦ musings. / crimson dyed self hate

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Kasane Fuchi from the manga Kasane

#♦ visage. / monster made beauty #reasons you should read kasane: she's a Goddess and so is matsuura daruma her art style is the definition of Aesthetic

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meta. an attempt was made at describing the differences between kasane and the roles/personalities she takes on

due to the nature of the life she leads, kasane has frequently had to alter herself and take on various personalities in order to become the mask of who ever’s face she wears. each time gaining new experience and skills, yet also losing pieces of herself, losing things be it people she held dear or even her own sense of morals.

as she herself, KASANE FUCHI, she is a tortured soul who has only ever experienced disdain, fear, hate and stepped on like some bug. she experienced terrible bullying from other kids in school, from being told to go die / kill herself to being called a liar when ever they found out her mother was an actress famed for her beauty. her aunt, the one who took her in after her mother’s death, was only slightly better. if only cause she outright ignored kasane most of the time, taking her in only to obtain the money sukeyo had left for her daughter.

due to such treatment kasane is someone who tries her best to be as unnoticeable and small as possible, wearing bland and boring clothes that are likely hand me downs and never going outside. if she does she always wears a medical mask to hide her face. aside from avoiding people for her unsightly appearance, she also suffers from social anxiety. it can be taken as shyness at first glance, but the way she trips over her own words and avoids eye contact, proves she isn’t the best at talking nor does much of it. though, really, it could be possible she simply has a fear of people. of others scorning her or laughing at her. a fear not at all unfounded.

aside from anxiety she also has depression and a strong suicidal ideation. years of abuse and years without the care of the only person who ever cared for her has left her with an awfully strong sense of loneliness. of worthlessness. she’s never physically harmed herself, but she has had episodes where it is a frequent thought in her mind. at one point she’s even tried jumping off a cliff cause her loneliness had become so bad. the only thing that ever stops her is the spirit of her mother telling her not to give in and her own need to gain a happy life.

when she becomes NINA TANZAWA, she couldn’t be any more different. nina is almost exactly not only who kasane wishes she was, but even close to who she’d have become if she’d been born under different circumstances. nina is, quite frankly, a dazzling star on a moonless night. a pure light that shines seemingly forever.

she’s as ladylike as they come. dressed in the finest clothes that switch from looks befitting of a rising star to a simple yet beautiful look. a diligent actress who almost religiously studies her lines, but isn’t so stuck up she doesn’t tend to go out for drinks with the cast and crew after work.

a true social butterfly with a hint of shy awkwardness, but a calm and friendly smile that is hard to not return. she’s the kind of girl you’d want for a friend, someone who is the definition of warm and loving, someone who’d care for and spoil you without a second thought. always there to reassure and comfort you.

though there is a sense of distance. a feeling that tells one she may seem to be the happiest person on earth, yet she’s also the loneliest. she masks many things with a happy smile, be it she realizes it or not. after a certain point it becomes taxing to be so happy and friendly all the time. be it kasane is good at playing such a part, it’s still all an act. one that she wishes could be real, but reality tells her otherwise.

SAKI is an entirely different existence from nina and kasane. a construct made not from another person, but a thing entirely made up to be nothing but perfection. she has no background or personality beyond cold professionalism. she is kasane ripped down to her bare talents as an actress and nothing more.

she avoids interactions with others unless it is absolutely needed. always looking like a cruel witch who could curse you with a simple glance. though she may not act it, there’s a strong sense of pride and haughtiness always around her, something in her crimson colored smile that tells you you’ll never be better than her even if you practiced for a thousand years.

she’s also not above stepping on others to get what she wants. especially after having lost the one person who arguably kept that one shred of humanity she had afloat in a sea of rage. once that happens she truly does become a hollow vessel who only comes alive when on stage. off stage she’s like a doll, sitting on it’s shelf, waiting to be played with so that she may feel alive for that short period of time once again. wishing for it to last longer and longer, trying to chase that feeling of pure euphoria down and never let it go ever again.

#♦ info. / find the truth in a maze of lies #the way i categorize them is like so. kasane: disaster gay. nina: functional bi. saki: disaster Everything #also on a scale of nina to saki how depressed are you #man i wanted to do this a certain way but my mind said no so here's a borderline messy meta thing

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There were many things that didn’t truly belong to Kasane, even if she’d grown comfortable posing as Nina Tanzawa, and she’d admit they were similar in some aspects of their personality ( quiet yet friendly, though Kasane seldom had such chances to be friendly ), the feeling of pure content she felt right now was wholly her’s. The smile and laughter that left her as she told Shiina of a little, humorous mishap that happened on stage during rehearsal was as genuine as it could possibly be. “ My manager got pretty upset, but he let it go as the director was laughing just as much as everyone else ! “

With one final laugh, she’d raise a hand to her mouth, an attempt at ceasing any more giggles to leave her, least she get a headache from laughing so much. “ Ah, I talked your ear off a bit there, didn’t I ? I’m sorry. But, I’m surprised ! I didn’t know you had a cafe in your town, you should’ve told me sooner. It’s so nice and relaxing here when compared to the city after all. “

#latesco #♦ verse ii. / cherish the days of sea glass #im lov these two this is all i need in my life. this is so. Wholesome #so Pure i. wheeze

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