Day 1 (1200)
water 5/8
bruch 500
144 - two eggs
175 - 1/2 blubbery muffin
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=319
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dinner 500
370 - ramen
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=370
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snacks 200
150 - pea pouch
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=150
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total daily cal intake...
!839!
167lbs
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Day 1 (new challenge)
1000: meal= 233^3 snack=100^3
1200: meal= 300^3 snack= 100^3
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Water 0/8
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Breakfast:
100=Breakfast bar
60=mermaid gummies
160= potato
=320
Snack:
40= rice roll
60= apple juice
=100
Lunch:
Bread
Mayo
Cheese
Meat
Snack:
Dinner:
Snack:
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Weight
Morning: 166
Noon
Night
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Thoughts/notes
Sept 12, 2021
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Day 15 (500)
I am such a fat failure. The only thing I am good at is failing. I will never do anything good with my life because I am a failure.
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-3 Chicken wings
-3 Cheese sticks
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The last 2 day's I have failed.
Morning: 165
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Why do I have such a large gap in my ugw?
I have 120-100 as my ugw bc idk which one I'll look better at. I Don't want to look like a skeleton, but I do want a thigh gap. I think my hips are wide enough to achieve that.
This is kinda what I want, maybe a bit thicker.
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Stole this post from somewhere
1. when did your ed begin?
Not sure, middle school?
2. what is your earliest ed related memory?
When I was 6. I was looking at my mom, I thought she was beautiful, but I didn't want to look like her.
3. favorite safe foods??
Any greans
4. favorite safe meal?
Broth soup
5. how do you handle hard days?
Binge eating
6. sw/cw/hw/ugw?
168/160/175/120-100
7. how do you comfort yourself after a binge?
District myself with the internet or physical activity
8. what type of ed do you have?
Not diagnosed with anything, but ana. Prob don't even have it
9. when did you realize you had an ed?
I don't think I have an ed, but I do have a problem. I probably realized around early high School
10. do you have any recovery tips?
Surround yourself with a lot of people that don't have mental food problems
11. does anyone know about your ed?
Before yes, after my relapse no
12. what is an embarrassing ed related story you have?
Don't want to share
13. longest fast?
2 days prob
14. do you have any other ed communities?
A few websites that I frequent
15. have you recovered/relapsed before?
Yes, and Doing it now
16. favorite safe outfit
A sweater that's 2/3x bigger than me and pants to go under
17. do you smoke?
Occasionally nicotine mostly weed
18. coffee or tea
Coffee usually
19. diet soda or energy drinks
Diet soda, I don't like energy drinks
20. biggest sweet tooth craving/binge food
Anything pasta or Asian cuisine
21. something you want to tell about your ed but you’ve never had the chance
I'm doing this for me because I hate myself rn
22. best words of advice/love/experience to other ppl with ed’s
You're probably happier and more emotionally stable when you eat a normal/healthy diet
23. do you have a partner? if so do they know about your ed?
No partner
24. do you want to recover
Not rn
25. do you actually enjoy working out?
Yes, I don't have the energy alot
26. do you smoke?
Asked this b4, but yes occasionally.
27. if you smoke weed, do you get munchies?
Yes, it's a big problem for me
28. what is the thing you miss most that your ed has taken away from you
Not sure. Relationships maybe. Idk if that's the ed's fault tho
29. have you worked on your ed in therapy?
a little I guess
30. have you ever been caught mid-ed act (ie: purging, bingeing, etc)
Bingeing, but that's really easy to hide "I'm just really hungry today"
31. do you eat healthy or not?
No
32. does your ed affect your sex life/sexuality?
Not much
33. what is your favorite unhealthy but safe food? (if you have any)
N/A
34. what is one of your most obscure fears brought on by your ed?
N/A
35. least favorite part of your body
Legs, belly, and chest
36. favorite part of your body
Neck and wrists
37. do you have a fast metabolism?
Depending on the day
38. dumbest weight loss advice you’ve ever gotten
"You can eat whatever you want you just got to exercise"
39. do you try to practice body neutrality? positivity? if you do, how?
Haha, no, I hate myself
40. how do you handle ed related nausea, fatigue, sickness, or weakness?
I either power through or give up there's really no one in between for me
41. what was the moment you realized you had an ed?
Another repeat question, but I still don't think I have an ed
42. what food do you miss most?
I don't really miss out on food, it's mostly about portion control and calories for me
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Day 12 (goal 600)
Only 45min till I can eat something!
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60- juice
120- milk
20- 1/2 riceroll
70- cod fillet
25- portobello mushroom
130- cheese sandwich crackers
40- mini fruit rollup
60- sour cream
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=525
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It's almost 10 and I haven't eaten anymore than 525! I'm so proud of myself!
Tomorrow I get 800cal! I'm very excited!🖤
3am: 160!
12pm: 160 still!
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