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send “you okay?” to find my muse sitting alone on a roof at night.

#✦ MEMES | YOU NEED A SECOND OPINION.

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“She distanced herself to save herself.”

— Unknown

#✦ CHARACTER STUDY | NO HONEY IT'S MORE THAN THAT. #✦ QUEUE | DIDN'T KNOW ANYONE ELSE WAS UP.

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where do you carry your pain?

your heart.

you have loved, and been hurt. your heart is tired, but cannot grow calloused...

tagged by: none tagging: @ladiesandwitches (dana scully) , @thecavclry (bill jr)

#✦ CHARACTER STUDY | NO HONEY IT'S MORE THAN THAT.

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beep beep how’s my portrayal ?

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“Of course. I wouldn’t have let any of you go through with this alone.” she returned with a reassuring smile of her own as Melissa closed the door after Monica. “Under different circumstances, it does have its charm.” Melissa looked around, touching the dusty surface of the furniture as they passed. Making their way over to an old bed, which was hardly prepared for the upcoming home birth procedure.

She would still have to change that before Dana went into labor, Missy thought to herself.

The older Scully had to admit, that she agreed with her sister on choosing a hospital over this setup. Though they were lucky enough, that Melissa had taken a midwife class in her twenties when she was flying under the family radar. Having taught Monica one or two things over the past couple of days so she could help when it was time since she never fully physically recovered from what happened six years ago.

"How are you feeling, Dana?" Missy brushed off the dusty hand on her skirt before touching her sister's shoulder after the younger of them sat down.

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This wasn't how she'd imagined any of this; people after her, after her unborn baby, driving out into the middle of nowhere, allowing the location to be chosen by Monica's 'feelings' about the place, with Mulder miles away, not even with her. She'd imagined a hospital, something clinical and clean; instead she had two well-meaning, spiritually inclined women who both tended to base their decisions on feelings more than facts.

But at least one was a fellow FBI agent, and the other was her family.

"Thanks for agreeing to come along, Missy," she told her sister warmly while Monica went to look for something resembling clean running water. "You've already done more than enough throughout this whole thing..." Especially when Mulder was taken, when she'd been putting all her energies into getting him back, and her sister had been one of the only people there to remind her to take care of herself as well. Also, she'd been a much needed buffer between Dana and her mother's well-intentioned interference. "And I know this place isn't exactly cosy..." She emphasised the point by brushing away a clump of cobwebs. "But I do need you here."

#ladiesandwitches #✦ VERSE V: EXPECT MORE. | S7 - S10 { CANON DIV. }

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"Then stop thinking about it. This is your choice of what you want to do with your life, Dana. Not ours or anybody else's, and especially not his. Dad has made his own choice, just as much as Billy, to follow in someone's footsteps. We don't know if it was the right one or if they have regret making it."

Though at least partially, Melissa knew that their brother felt pressured to join the Navy as their firstborn and that he was trying his hardest not to repeat their father's mistakes.

Melissa reached out and gave his sister's hand a gentle squeeze. "It's not me you have to convince on the matter. In fact, you don't have to convince or need anyone's support on this but yourselves. Do you want to take this next step in your life or not?"

Dana nodded, smiling a little at how easily her sister managed to take her observation and change it into something philosophical, an observation on the human race as a whole. "Well, I can't argue with that," she agreed, still smiling.

But it faltered, fading a little, when Melissa brought up the topic that was plaguing her so much it was the exact reason she'd needed the caffeine in her coffee more than usual.

"Well, it's more when than if now," she admitted. After her last chat with Missy, she'd made her mind up about joining the FBI rather than practising medicine. She even felt excited about it, that she was making the right decision...until she remembered she was going to have to announce it to more than just her sister at some point.

"I just feel I could make a real difference at the FBI. But the moment I think about telling Dad, all I can feel is that I'm going to disappoint him, and everything else goes out the window."

#ladiesandwitches

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“The saddest truth is realising you have fallen madly in love with what can never be.”

— Michael Faudet

#✦ MUSINGS | IT’S NOT HIS LIFE. #musesofhororr | fox mulder #✦ QUEUE | DIDN'T KNOW ANYONE ELSE WAS UP.

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this attitude came from pain, i wasn’t always like this.

#✦ CHARACTER STUDY | NO HONEY IT'S MORE THAN THAT. #✦ QUEUE | DIDN'T KNOW ANYONE ELSE WAS UP.

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"YOU CAME BACK FOR ME!" PROMPTS *  assorted dialogue, adjust as necessary

[name]? what are you doing here?

nothing could ever take me away from you.

i thought you said you would never return.

i fought to find you again.

what made you change your mind?

it was a mistake to leave your side.

you came back for me. i knew you would.

i can't believe you're here, right in front of me.

[name], in the flesh. i never thought i'd see the day.

i was hoping you'd hear my call.

i never should have left you in the first place.

what took you so long?

i had a feeling you couldn't stay away.

promise me you'll never leave again.

[name]? it can't be.

you shouldn't have to deal with this mess on your own.

i'm real. touch my hands. i'm right here.

you're not dreaming. i came back.

come a little closer. let me see you.

am i dreaming? pinch me.

i should have known you'd end up in some trouble.

it is you! you came back!

i waited and hoped and prayed you'd return.

they told me you'd never come back here.

you showed up just in the nick of time.

i thought you'd never show up!

you actually came back for me.

so you do care after all.

let me get a good look at you.

we've gotta stop meeting like this.

something told me i should go back there and find you.

i'm sorry i keep touching you, i just can't believe you're really here.

this is a dream. you're not real.

i thought you were dead. i saw you die.

how did you know i was in danger?

you're the problem! i just can't stay away!

there's always been something about you that pulls me right back here every time.

i just couldn't get you off my mind.

it was as if i could hear you calling for me.

you visited me in my dreams every night, and that's how i knew.

leaving you was a terrible mistake.

i don't believe it. [name]? really?

will you ever forgive me for leaving you?

you shouldn't have to fight this alone.

i told you not to come back for me.

you're wasting your time coming here to find me.

did you just throw yourself into danger to get me to save you?

now i'm being tortured with visions pretending you're back.

what are you doing here? this is some cruel joke.

#✦ STARTERS | IT'S LIKE YOU'VE LOST ALL TOUCH WITH YOUR OWN INTUITION. #✦ QUEUE | DIDN'T KNOW ANYONE ELSE WAS UP.

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i can’t ignore you even if i wanted.

#✦ MUSINGS | IT’S NOT HIS LIFE. #musesofhororr | Fox Mulder

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It's strange to think that the words we use to communicate are just sounds and symbols that we have agreed upon as a society to represent certain concepts and ideas.

#✦ MUSINGS | IT’S NOT HIS LIFE.

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“She loves deeply, regardless of the love she gets in return, and it is both her greatest strength and her biggest weakness.”

— N.R. Hart

#✦ CHARACTER STUDY | NO HONEY IT'S MORE THAN THAT.

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"So do human beings. None of them are exactly the same copy of the other." Missy played along with her sister's train of thought in her own way. It was nice when they shared moments like this without conflict. "It was simply time for a change." She grinned sheepishly before taking a sip from her tea.

"You want to talk about what is on your mind?" Melissa cocked her head to the side, watching her sister. "Are you still debating if and when you're going to tell Dad about your plans about quitting medicine? You know I'm on your side no matter what you decide feels right. It is your choice, Dana."

Dana sometimes wondered how it was that their sister could be so different from the rest of the family. But then, she supposed, her siblings could say the same about her. Neither new age spirituality or science had been at the core of the Scully upbringing; religion, the church, a sense of duty to your country, those were the things they'd all been raised with.

"Under a microscope every one of your crystals has a different atom formation, it's known as a lattice. It's how they're grouped together, based on their lattices-- whether they're hexagonal, cubic, orthorhombic..." She trailed off, sparing her sister the entire list as she gestured to the crystal in question. "If I remember correctly, I believe that one is trigonal. Though I imagine you wear it for a different reason," she added knowingly.

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“Pay attention to the things you are naturally drawn to. They are often connected to your path, passion, and purpose in life. Have the courage to follow them.”

— Ruben Chavez

#✦ MUSINGS | IT’S NOT HIS LIFE. #✦ QUEUE | DIDN'T KNOW ANYONE ELSE WAS UP.

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"Maybe a little." Melissa returned with a warm smile of her own while joining her on the sofa with a fresh mug of herbal tea. Fingers gently touched the new velvet chocker around her neck, which had replaced the necklace she usually wore before. "Thank you for noticing." The older Scully shifted in her spot to give Dana a better look at it, honestly touched by the apparent interest. "It may not look like it, but this one is so comfortable to wear. I couldn't resist when I saw it."

@expectmcre sent: ❛ i thought you’d like some company. ❜

"Do I look that lonely with my cup of coffee?" Scully half-teased in reply, giving her sister a small smile, before shifting a little so there was room for her to sit. As she looked up at Melissa she noticed something new about the necklaces she tended to wear around her neck. "Is that a new crystal?" She asked. "Or should I say 'is that another new crystal'?" There was a warmth in her voice despite the gentle teasing.

#ladiesandwitches #✦ VERSE I: DEVIL'S ADVOCATE. | PRE SERIES

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“You were born with the ability to change someone’s life, don’t ever waste it.”

— Unknown

#✦ MUSINGS | IT’S NOT HIS LIFE. #✦ QUEUE | DIDN'T KNOW ANYONE ELSE WAS UP.

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THE X-FILES 5.06 'Christmas Carol'

#✦ MIRROR | FACECLAIM. #✦ QUEUE | DIDN'T KNOW ANYONE ELSE WAS UP.