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[every18things]

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[every18things]

mau tmi dulu gais. gua kek seneng banget, walaupun nilai masih naik turun kaya monitor vital sign. tapi udah clbk lagi nih sama semangat belajar.

fwif, numbuhin rasa suka ke belajar tuh susah, dulu waktu sma gua kaya ga paham paham sama nahwu shorof mutholaah wa akhwatuha, tapi karena ustad ustadzah pada ngajarin buat cinta ke belajarnya jadinya ga pernah misuh. abi juga dari kecil ngajarin buat cinta ke belajarnya. jadi ga lelah, ga gampang nyerah gitu buat belajar hal apapun itu. idk how to clearly define it, tapi yagitu dah intinya. ntar kalo gua panjangin malah jadi next chapter.

nah pas kmrn, gua kecewa karena nilai turun, gara gara itu gua malah jadi di titik benci belajar bgt, hikss. padahal yaa, si alip sajadah mujadalah ini yg salah. udah tau dirinya ga bisa belajar ramean, malah maksakeun. udah tau harus bikin jadwal belajar biar terarah capaian belajarnya, eh ga dibikin. lalai dah pokonya.

tapi at the end, untungnya ketemu win-win solution. hamdalah. emang kudu dicoba semua si biar ada trial->error->trus bisa determining the best method to obtain the desired outcome by recognizing and removing errors or failures through various experimental techniques wkwkwk keluar dah bahasa perskripsian. peran orang ketiga juga penting si, dlm kasus gua adalah komunikasi sm ortu. soalnya kalo engga, gua ga bakal bisa comes up sama what's the ideal, atau apa yg harus di-remove atau di-add gitu biar mencapai satisfactory result.

oke sekian gais. makasi udah setia jadi readers sw sw alip yg tidak seberapa ini. also ps, kalian coba sekali-kali komen "berisik lu lip" biar w stop curcol gitu. kalian mah gua oversharing gini malah dikasi feedback baik si elahhh. kan jadi makin cinta. etapi kalo dikomen "alip lu berisik banget", gua tetep gamau stop curcol si wkwk, ada juga lu yg gua hide di next stories gua hehehe, or the worse ku remove contact, darls 👋

[every18things]

hello there, it's alif again.

im concerned abt my own mental health two months ahead. i have to be strict to my own screen time-use.

so i decided to install wa only on the weekend.

in case u have something suuuuper serious and urgent to talk abt, text me or call me conventionally.

in case you have no, you know, that "stuff"

find me on telegram, but im quite unsure to also quick respond to your demand so yeah, just two months anyway, i beg your forbearance.

[every18things]

私の趣味は話したいです。

これはジャーナルです。ジャーナルまたはにっき書きことがいいですよ。研究によると良い影響がたくさんあります。

一番、記憶力を向上させることができます

ニ番、きもちを表現する場所になります

三番、外国語で書いたら、あなたの言語知能はより速く向上します。

小学校から、にっきを書きことがすきです。むかし、きれいいなノートがもらいました。ノートの中にたくさん海外はがきがあります。それは古いですがきれいです。いいね！とても好きです！

でも今そのノートが失ったんです。妹がとりました。

私は両親に読みたくないですから、英語で書きます。今私はノートで日記を書くことが怠惰になります。だから、私はツイッターまたはタンブラーで使いますよ。

私が本当に怠け者なら、私は一日中何をしていました録音します。 面白いことだけは何でも話してください。

日記を書くことで別の日に読むのが楽しくなります。心が折れたときに書いてみてください。幸せなときに読む。その時の気持ちを調べてください。

日記をかくことで強制がないとき、とても楽しいです。難しいことを書いてはいけません。3つの簡単なポイントを書き始めるだけです。面白いことだたら、あなたの日記が長くなります。

今から、あなたの日記を書き始めてみてください！

[every18things]

We are having a holiday from 19-25 April. If we had school in the morning, we might have left the dorm by afternoon. On the contrary, my pals who had school in the afternoon, first spent their morning time packing, and left by night.

At least, it was what I thought before. However, we had a downpour in the afternoon, so some of my friends were hesitant to come home due to the extreme lightning.

On 19/4/2023

In my POV, I was too lazy. It was a test day after all. I need more naps. Plus, packing is a difficult task. I have to ensure that my things in the dorm are safe. I have to ensure that I didn't carry useless things too. So, I negotiated with Kristin whether we can go by tomorrow, and she agreed. Luckily, it was a downpour too. My mom asked me to stay low in the dorm first.

We spent nothing except resting. Oh, I forgot to tell you. I bought something for old lady whom generally sweeps the street. She is so kind and frequently greets us when we are off to samit. Her hospitality reminds me of my old-ladies friends. At this point, I 80% agree I suppose to take Kaigo, but hell no, I won't. And so, I bought an extra meal for me. It was astor. I was shocked that it seemed to be made by Khong Guan. The packaging was brand new that I could barely recognized it. Too stunning that I decided to buy it for myself. At night, when only a few people left, I opened my astor, hope people will start make a circle and have a warm chat. And it worked. I'm happy. I love when people gather without any boundaries. Peace heals me. None know this fact, but sisterhood's is as awesome as brotherhood.

On 20/4/2023

I did my last laundry in the morning. We left the dorm by 10:30. I did check how many people left. Before we left, I said goodbye and Sinta begged me to let go of my astor, which I found funny. So I passed down my astor to her. Kristin and I took commuterline. I've offered her to ride a rent car, but she refused. She wanted to experienced riding commuterline. We arrived at 12:30. I saw my little brother sleeping on a couch with my babysitter. We were to fucked up of the road so we went upstairs, washed ourselves, and passed out.

By 4 I checked my brother, he was still asleep. That was insane. So I touched him a little, and called him softly. I said, "Look, who's finally coming home". He recognised my voice and directly smiled and awaked. He hugged me. My younger sister who slept next to him said, "Why don't you do that when I'm coming back home from Purwokerto too, you, kid". We went downstairs to checked whether my mom and dad already back from work. And it was. I greeted them.

Not long after, we broke the fasting. I planned to go the mall to buy a proper fit for rayya. Mom and dad was little worried because it was late already, but they finally permitted it.

I went to the mall by car together with my sister and Kristin. I bought a dress, my sister bought a brand new shoes, and Kristin bought a coffee, just like her. After that, we had a super late dinner in a fast-food restaurant.

On 21/4/2023

I actually forgot what I and Kristin did on this day because the Eid is not happening but tomorrow. Therefore I am just gonna write it: We are totally resting the whole day. Resting means:

- We eat

- We watch

- We sleep

- Repeat

Oh, I just remembered that in the afternoon I did decorating the front counter. I moved the cookies to a good looking jar and displayed the most appealing desserts for the table. My sister helped me with sweeping the floor. I helped her back by do the mopping. I remembered that I still texted Kak Helena to check how many persons left in the dorm.

On 22/4/2023

Happy Eid Mubarak!

I woke up earlier to help my mom cook though I can't cook well. I helped her stay awake by talking nonsense. After that, I woke my brother up and bathe him. I always enjoy talking with my brother. He is just like Kristin. A type of Why-Person. For adults, answering a question why from children is somehow tricky. I learn and practice a lot when my brother asked me such question. Finding a proper but simple definition is thrilling.

For example, what if a 5-year-old boy asked you a question, "Why people who drinks too much Boba can ended up dying?." What could be your best answer? How could you define diabetes in a child-language?

After finished bathed him, I helped my dad cleaned up the house once again. I prepared to take Eid Prayer. My dad and Babang took a larger mosque. My mom, my grandma, and I took the shorter mosque. My sister and Kristin secured the house.

After that, we met our neighbours. We apologized. We shared some money to kids around the neighborhood. Then, we ate opor.

Before leaving to my other grandma's house in East Jakarta. My sister and I did ask for apologies to our parents. My mom whispered and always begged me for the same thing. "Always be a nice girl." From the day I was born until the second I write this diary, the order is exactly the same. My mom always only wanted me to be a good one, and my dad always wanted me to be a success or somehow smart girl that this family can rely on in the future.

On our way, before we visited the cemetery of granddad's, my mom gave me, my sister, my brother, and also Kristin a shopping voucher, hehe. By 6 we arrived at our home back. It's a long trip to ask for 12 hours apologies. At our home, a new guests already awaited us. What a tiring day.

On 23/4/2023

Welcome to the second day of Rayya. It's the first open house for this year. We prepared a lot. We cooked bakso and bought a gallon of ice creams. We served the best snacks for our guests today, or to be precise the younger relatives from my dad. If yesterday was the day where my dad visited the older family, today is the day where my dad be visited by the younger relatives.

I really love the crowd. There are a lot baby too. While parents were busy talking and eating, the babies are busy fighting. I really enjoyed the scene. The babies would fight over my brother's toys collection. I mean it, my brother's toys collection is like a toy store moved to our house. He bought a toy everysecond. People don't have to buy him another toy because he had a lot. Even he had a go kart when he was still 4.

Our house situation is chaotic and really messy. I'm super glad that Kristin is there to help us a lot. Plus, our housemaid is taking her days off, right. So, we need more people to help.

But really, I really like this hectic situations. Kids are running up and down the stairs. Front and behind my house. LOL. This is so lit!

On 24/4/2023

I'm feeling not well today. I have fever in the morning. I'm planning not to do anything, but to remember that my kindhearted teacher assigned me a task, so I'm going to do it today.

Anyway, I am supposed to go to my other relatives' house in Tanjung Barat today. Commonly, I have to visit my relatives for five days straight day and night. I also need two days free for my own schedule visiting my teacher from Aliyah and College. And by Saturday next week, we will do open-house for my dad's colleagues. It's a huge party. There are a lot of food displayed. It's like a semi wedding party without the groom and the bride. Food is everywhere, I love it! It's so weird that we don't do it this year because the time is so limited.

By night, I have finished my homework.

On 25/4/2023

Kristin and I packed to go back to Samit. We are totally unready to face the school and especially the normal FMD. But it's about time, we have to be patient for the rest of two months left. And it's about time, I can finally and gracefully separate seeing that person to my own good.

Appendix

Writing a journal is not a heavy task for me. You gonna know how I'm used to do it when I explain about my speech sooner or later. The problem is I don't like it when my language is limited.

Also, this is my first ever Lebaran where I celebrated together with other person besides my family. It's so fun having Kristin on my own. I'm a bit worried but I hope our family welcome her well. Kristin is helping us a lot. The only minus she had is she is so shy. Whenever I asked her to come downstairs, she refused. I understand her reluctance. But somehow it's weird. Really weird.

For example, I'm not a person who like to push anyone you know. Eating is what you need to stay alive. You can't be so shy to eat, right? But everytime I asked her what to eat or to ask her let's eat, she said, [I'm on diet/I've just done eating snacks/It's up to you]. This is making me insane.

Or in another case, when we were finally eating together in the dining room with my family. She kept pinching my hand or nudged my leg. Like, come on, can I just eat peacefully in this super beautiful day? Let's worry a little. I have ever be in her position, and to stay calm is a good option. I'm not angry it's just my family don't bite, do they? Why everyone thinks that our family is that strict and have no humour at all. Like we are basically a human living and social creatures too, OMG.

But again, it's cool to have Kristin. I can't thank her enough for helping me on this chaotic Lebaran day. Like my family is always super chaotic when it comes to Lebaran. Because we have so many guests and hectic schedule.

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Oh, and I watched a lot of series this holiday. I watched an anime entitled Tomodachi Game, Western Series named Euphoria, and K-drama that I binge-watched a lot named Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha. I love them all. Precisely, Hometown Cha-Cha-Cha because of the characters is so sweet. It reminds me of Niko Sensei Whatsapp's profile picture. LOL. Too sweet that I can't handle it. Actually there is a woman that resembles me. She fancy pricey things, she is stiff to others, she likes beautiful things, and hates unpredictable things. She also hates someone who is loud. By destination she finally met a man who is on her contrary. A loud, tender, and simple-man that value littlest things highly. And that typical contrary made her comfortable. Once she said,

"I'm the kind of person who makes plans for the rest of my 99 years. I don't like people who cross the line. I fancy higher priced shoes. I guess we're the opposite. I'm sure our blood types and MBTI don't match. Like the distinction between polar bears that hunt sea lions and penguins that consume fish. But I could care less. I love you."

AHAHAHAH, I kicked my blanket a lot when I saw her confession. That's what we call UWU, ladies and gentlemen, trust me. Anyway, this woman is actually a good one, she is a sincere one. She had been hurt before so she was very careful. Good for her, she was fated with the nice guy even though it takes them a lot lot lot of time.

That's the end of my journal. Doesn't sound really interesting, right? Happy giving feedback and tell me yours.

[every18things]

Sensei, maaf datang lagi.

Hari ini saya takut banget belajar di kelas. Saya pikir, yang lain pun merasakan seperti itu.

Tapi tadi, saya sedikitnya bisa mengerti dan bisa memvalidasi kenapa sensei bisa sekesal itu di kelas. Bisa jadi sensei khawatir kalau-kalau anak-anak yg dikasih tugas aja bisa menyepelekan tugasnya, apalagi nanti ketika ga ada sensei, trus mereka dikasih tanggungjawab yg lebih besar. Mungkin itu jadi beban moral sensei makanya sensei sampai marah besar

Bisa jadi juga, sensei ada faktor internal tersendiri. Bisa jadi sensei mau cerita masalah sensei, tapi ga tau harus cerita ke siapa. Bisa jadi juga, sensei ga sadar kalo sebenernya perasaan sensei tuh lagi ga baik baik aja gitu. Wajar banget kok buat berada di situasi kaya gitu.

Sensei tuh bisa masuk Forbes 100 manusia terbaik di dunia loh. Percaya ga sih? Saya udah denger dari puluhan warga Samit yg bilang, mereka cinta mati banget sama Vai Sensei. Serius. Makanya tiap nemu minoras yg ngejelek-jelekin sensei, itu cuma perkara waktu aja mereka bakal tau betapa sensei tuh aslinya kaya duplikatnya malaikat. Dan tiap ada yg ngejelekin, pasti langsung ada aja yg menepis opini jeleknya itu. Segitu kerennya sensei loh!

Sensei, perlu diketahui bahwasannya kepedulian sensei dan kemurahan hati sensei ternyata juga bisa trigger side effectnya buat keluar. Seperti hari ini, diri sensei sendiri yg membuktikan kalau sensei itu capek. Padahal saya udah wanti-wanti tentang hal ini, tapi senseinya yg ga percayaan. Ini bisa jadi bukan fisiknya yg lelah tapi emosi atau kejiwaannya sensei yg sudah super duper burnout. Sensei perlu dan wajib banget buat meluapkan itu. Dan itu wajar banget buat diluapkan.

Cuma saya tuh tadi sedih, kenapa diluapkannya harus sampai seperti itu dan di ruang publik. Seandainya ada yg ngerekam adegan sensei melempar buku Brandon tadi, trus misalnya Brandon gak terima, sensei bisa banget jadi orang yg disalahin karena jelas itu melanggar kode etik guru juga. Saya nulis surat ini bukan mau menghakimi sensei loh, saya selalu bakal jadi orang yg ada di sisi sensei kok. Tapi saya tuh asli, khawatir banget tadi tuhh. Dan sedih juga, sedih karena bisa jadi, setelah ini, gak semua orang bisa langsung inget kebaikan sensei lagi karena satu kekeliruan ini

Terlepas dari kekecewaan saya atas masalah yang sebelumnya pernah terjadi, saya masih bisa dan mau kok dengerin keluh kesahnya sensei. Ayo, cerita aja! Atau kalau mau sambat juga ayo aja, saya dengerin. Sensei mau misuh-misuh asal gak pake acara pukul-pukul meja depan saya juga saya dengerin. Kan saya bilang saya suka banget dengerin sensei ngoceh apa aja. Kan saya juga selalu bilang kalau sensei itu orang baik. Oleh karena itu, saya gak mau sensei malah jadi orang yg di luar batas kaya gini lagi ya

Tolong istirahat yg cukup ya!

Tolong kalau kurang hiburan, minta pacar sensei atau wanita-wanita yg deket sama sensei buat ngehibur sensei juga, sekali-kali, gantian gitu

Sekian surat dari Alif. Mohon maaf kalau ada pemilihan kata yang memberikan konotasi kurang mengenakkan. Semoga manusia baik satu ini sehat selalu. Selamat berbuka✨

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[every18things]

“I don’t like to give up on people when they need someone not to give up on them.” —Carrol Bryant

[every18things]

Last night, I had a dream about someone. Whoever I've been injured by over the last few years is that person.

My neck is so tight from trying to forgive him that it feels like I should be swilling alcohol. But in that dream, he remarked, "Truly, you are the most noble woman I have ever met. You have forgiven me even though my sins are not worthy of your forgiveness, and I now regret that I did not ask my best forgiveness to you."

There he added, "Then seek out your ideal mate;

don't be afraid to look for a man who possesses the most beautiful key to open the gate to your heaven. No, you shouldn't risk your heart any more, darling, especially with those who have abused your trust and tortured your confidence in the past. You can definitely pass the test, after all. Find someone to replace me and him who will exalt you instead of continuing to test yourself, since you deserve it."

And the dream ended, the woman's niche seemed to let go of the heavy burden she had been carrying. Now her heart feels like being hugged, warmed.

[every18things]

Now, we will begin the second chapter

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Mochammad Hamzah Rivai

[every18things]

Baik-baik yaa,

Selain ibadah kepada Allah,

Berlaku baik kepada orang lain selayaknya kepada diri sendiri itu juga dakwah paling sopan paling mudah diterima kok.

[every18things]

atuhh, kalo udah jodoh mah gimana anjir..

[every18things]

<PLEASE READ FIRST>

- HOW TO START A CHAT -

1. Please use proper greeting or salam, not "P", to start a chat.

2. Directly drop your message purposes, do not ever cat-texting my name and leave me without giving further explanation. e.g. :

- "lip" ❎

- "alip gue mau minta tolong kirimin file ABC ya" ✅

3. If you consider your message is important, and need me to make a fast response, please notify me by texting :

- "lip, tolong balas segera, boleh yaa", or

- "ditunggu balasannya ya alip.."

4. And please no call unless you are close to me or it is really an emergency.

Thanks for reading and following my communication guidelines.

[every18things]

buibu bapa-bapa, rekan mahasiswa, rekan guru, abang ojol, anak murid, cs-cs serta teman seangkatanku yg kusimpan nomornya, aku ini sama-sama manusia biasa seperti kalian, jadi izinkan aku kali ini mempost apa yg sedang aku rasakan tanpa beban pikiran dari komentar yg seringnya menjustifikasi aku: "ko guru kaya begini/ko anak bahasa inggris kaya begini/ko anak pesantren kaya begini/ko muslim kaya begini" aku masih di fase bangkit dari patah hati, and it's normal. you guys do not deserve defining my what-to-do-next or any happiness i should've been received. also, i ain't in the mood of being lectured by anyone speech, im gonna get thru this, but it is when i finally decided the time to get over it. so please, keep your thumbs away from commenting unnecessary things about my life which is definitely not yours. Thank you yaa, ladies and gents ☺️🙏

[every18things]

Dear viewers, izin keluh kesah ya. Iya sihh, tau, harusnya keluh kesah sama Allah aja udah, tapi pliss, hanya untuk malam ini aja, beneran mau caper ke sejuta viewers WhatsApp saya.

Saya cuma mau bilang aja, "Kenapa ya harus diblokir? Kenapa sih ga cukup sekali aja? Kenapa harus sampai berkali-kali? Kenapa sih segala-galanya diblokir? Kenapa harus putus komunikasi sih? Kenapa sih kenapa?"

Kadang cuma beneran mau bilang aja, ga semua orang yg menerima silent treatment itu akan ada di posisi "oh yaudah, bodo amat, gue juga ga butuh lo", bukan karena saya seorang people pleaser, tapi cuma karena desperate nyari titik kesalahan awalnya dimana biar bisa memperbaiki diri atau bahkan situasi ini. Ada juga kondisi dimana saya sampai ragu buat bilang ke diri sendiri bahwasanya, "the fact you've done to me with all of these silent treatment is also do tear me apart" loh.

Ah, tapi, yaudah. Mungkin memang sudah terlanjur seburuk itu di mata pihak terkait sampai harus diakhiri seperti ini.

[every18things]

Hi, nice to meet you again.