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Speaks heavily to what it was.

one of the most toxic things i’ve ever done is ignore the bad in someone because i love them

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City and Colour - Tulsa

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Frigid Lavender

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Treating myself before this week of events and this past, busy weekend. Steak, shrimp, fresh sauteed corn, sauteed onions, mushrooms, 1 jalepeno, small tomatoes, and a fried egg on top.

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La Reine Noire #2: Ami dans la mort

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Inferno #3: God Couldnt Save The Queen

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Inferno #2: Command

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Moonlight Queen

Its been a while.

Doubt anyone reads this anymore, but a lot has happened over the last 3 months.

The end result is me living in my own apartment and alone.

I miss her on a daily basis but we both acknowledged that the more we tried, the worse it was getting.

We had talked about marriage, family, future, growing old together, our lives as one…but we couldnt communicate nor see the good in one another.

Reflecting on everything, there were so many situations where all i had to do was comfort her and speak up, yet felt like keeping it to myself would make things easier, even when i knew they wouldnt.

My girl is gone.

A King no longer has his Queen to sit next to and to love, to talk to when you’re hurting, to relax with on your nights in.

I love her still and every part of me is reaching towards her with all my strength i can give, but my logical mind is what’s anchoring me heavily to the ground.

I want my partner back, i want my other half back, i want our plans and the original goal and intended future back.

I want to feel the happiness that surrounded New York City, ramen, world traveling, growing old, poop, art, making love, cooking, buttery nipples, string lights, kittens, long road trips, lazy days, sex when it rains, floral crowns, business talks, sunsets, and glowing angels as they wake up in the morning sun…

I miss you and all I can think about is that no one can live up to you and what we’ve done…and all you did for me.

To my longest…deepest relationship I’ve had

“…to you the Moonlight Queen, there shall never be the same Sunrise King….”

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Nikki and Collin at the Philbrook in Tulsa. Check out my facebook for the full set.

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It'll be a little while until i get to these but here's a shot from the wedding i did over the weekend at Quartz Mountain.

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Today has been phenomenonal, exhausting, and a great experience. I cant thank Haley Estep enough for her absolutely amazing skills on the models and makeup for all the concepts today. This image is just one of the many concept from the day but thank you to all the models for coming and dealing with the cold, hunger, and a few painful moments but itll be worth it. And a huge huge thanks to Ally Cooper for organizing and planning out everything for today!

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Mural #3

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Last night with the Gf, ALLY LADY MA'AM-NESS ...and our new glasses.

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Birthday: #27

I dont say much here anymore nor post as much. I am looking to change that but i feel tumblr has lost its edge as far as getting my personal messages out there. I'm going to see though. Birthday came and went but this time...i really didnt want others to know. The closer i am to 30, the the less I feel like I've done. I'm not going to let 28 feel the same.

#personal #birthday

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Another large format drawing on the way......itll be a couple of months but itll be worth the wait

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Luminosity in the Garden

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"Dressed in Botanical Fragrance" This is the dress created by Ally Cooper