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{ Tenel Ka is at her new home over at @ereneda! :D

I’ll reblog the multimuse promo here once I do it to hopefully get it to all time zones, hehe. }

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This journal is being archived and Queen Mom Tenel Ka has moved to the new @ereneda blog! :D

N E O N S H A D O W S ➳ a multimuse collective featuring star wars expanded universe/legends muses (open for rping and also geeking out about legends :P):

↠ Tenel Ka Chume Ta' Djo // Queen Mother of the Hapes Consortium @ereneda

↠ Jacen Solo / Darth Caedus // Jedi [verse dependent ;)] @goodofthegalaxy

↠ Gadell Vessau // Hapan Royal Social Secretary / OC @gadellvessau

↠ Zekk // Jedi & Hapan Security Specialist @tastybouquet

(All of these characters have been moved to new journals of the same name as their originals so if you were following before and want to keep following make sure to click their link above! <3)

#FINALLY GETTING STUFF DONE #i hate 2023 still tho #after losing my mom in january and feeling like shit mentally and physically since then #i'm just #over real life #-_-

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{ Tenel Ka is at her new home over at @ereneda! :D

I’ll reblog the multimuse promo here once I do it to hopefully get it to all time zones, hehe. }

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I MOVED TENEL KA TO HER NEW JOURNAL! She’s under a multimuse now so I’ll be following from @neonshadows! But I’m planning on moving threads and such over there and it’s up to you whether you want to continue them when I respond -- no worries!

I wanted to do this a good while back but never got the chance cause the past two years have been The Worst. But I finally did it and now it’s time to fill the queue with things to bring over to the new house journal!

The ancient woman stood as they entered the room. “Welcome, Jedi Skywalker. And welcome great-granddaughter Tenel Ka Chume Ta’ Djo.” She embraced each of them in turn. 

Tenel Ka groaned. “Please,” she said, “do not use my full name. And do not send word that we are here.”

   warrior princess ✙ queen mother tenel ka djo ♕

{ @ereneda // THIS IS A FACT: badass momma wolf Tenel Ka Chume Ta’ Djo – Mother, Jedi & Queen Mother of 63 mostly questionable worlds from the star wars: expanded universe/legends. Come rp or nerd sweu w/ me I’m down. ♡, hex 

est. 2016, revamped & reopened in jan. 2023 // follows from @neonshadows // cosplay photos: x }

#we also just moved houses finally so i'm just moving everywhere #I WOULD LOVE TO WRITE WITH YOU ALL AGAIN <3 #thank you for understanding re: my break #losing a parent just absolutely sucks

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{ i’m so tired 

and apologize about rambling in the tags about life but i’m oVER THE UNIVERSE RIGHT NOW. }

#i'm sticking all this in the tags #cause if i don't i'll ramble #my mom passed away about a week and a half ago #and my biggest escape from life is writing #i've been working on a new blog for tk and all that jazz and will be here to write soon #because that is what my brain wants to do right now #it's maybe all my brain can do #if it can even do that rn #i'm #all i'm doing is sleeping ffffff

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{ hello <33

i get all ready to come back and start working on new blogs and stuff and then there’s a serious family emergency and i vanish again – i will be back at some point soon, but i need to weather an irl storm so i’m not sure how long i’ll be. }

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{ hello <33

i get all ready to come back and start working on new blogs and stuff and then there’s a serious family emergency and i vanish again -- i will be back at some point soon, but i need to weather an irl storm so i’m not sure how long i’ll be. }

#i am so so tired #and i'm so tired of having a permanent panic attack #:|

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{ Does anyone who has any experience making this decision have any advice? My brain is not working and is going overtime on this mess and it shouldn’t be that hard of a thing for me to figure out. -_- }

[ I have almost 2,800 posts on this blog since February of 2016 – and 1,200+ on @ereneda​ – and I’m at the point where I’m thinking do I archive these two blogs and start new ones for a sort of clean slate? Or these have so much history I should just stick with them?

Like they would have the same names and everything but……..?

Then… do I put them under the multimuse umbrella of @neonshadows​ with their own sideblogs… or…?

Does anyone who has done any of the things above have any insight/advice/suggestions? xD

THANK YOU! <3 ]

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Wedding Gown for Tenel Ka Djo Yiqing Yin, Couture Fall 2013

In a galaxy far, far away but in a different life… Tenniel Djo doesn't suffer a Force induced miscarriage and gives birth to a baby girl. Tenel Ka gives up her rights to the Hapen throne and stays a Jedi and marries Jacen Solo.

#fiercely {tenel ka djo} #formally {queen's wardrobe} #passionately {jacen/tenel ka}

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  Every bone in her body, every feeling in her heart, and every single spark in her mind told her to approach Allana -- to reach out to her and tell her not to do anything too rash. It was what she would have done to anyone standing in front of her with as much rage and animosity as this woman held.

  But something kept her there, her hand curled around the carved wood of the chair back. How could she have let that happen to her daughter? How had she never known?

  Tenel Ka could feel her whole body shuddering slightly, the only thing keeping her on her feet was her iron grip on that chair. It didn’t matter though, nothing did. Not after thoughts traveled through her head, images of everything her daughter described she had gone through.

  The Queen Mother deserved whatever her daughter had arrived with -- whatever grief and anger, whatever plans she had. The whole Hapes Consortium was something she had to take care of -- how had she done that for so long when one single girl stood in front of her that she had let down so hard.

  “I am so sorry, Shadowmoth.”

  Her voice was barely a whisper.

Allana paused, frowning at her mother. She sounded desperate and wounded enough to be telling the truth. But why wouldn't they have told her? She had so many resources that could have been used to find her. Her jaw clenched, rage surging higher.

"These are the people you gave me to." She snapped, standing in the middle of the room as a scent of ozone like just before a storm began to fill the space around her. She had no training, no control when her emotions got the better of her like this.

"You could have kept me here, with you. Kept me safe. But you handed me off to a couple who had already fucked up every child they raised." These words came out in a snarl. She did remember good times with her grandparents, she remembered their love. But her rage overcame all of that and turned every memory bitter.

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#abloodlineunraveled #abloodlineunraveled {allana djo solo} #fiercely {tenel ka djo} #cleverly {allana} #royally {v. ereneda}

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WHAT TYPE OF LONELY ARE YOU?

loneliness of the mask

you're a good actor, a good liar. your masks are intricate and hand-carved. for your lover, you wear a mask of softness, quiet words uttered in the night. your friends, a boisterous laugh, always a joke at the ready. your professionalism at work and school is steady, allowing the occasional lapse to make a small joke. you have to keep them interested, after all. you have to please them. you are manipulation itself, your head is so full of your intricate webs there is nothing left. you might be the loneliest of them all, seeing as there's no one left behind your facade. you lost your real face long ago.

tagged by: @reawakcn​ <3 tagging: @abloodlineunraveled​ (allana!), whO ELSE IS UP FOR A QUIZ GO FOR IT xD

#i agree re: why are there only four options there should def. be more! #but i feel like some of these fit her having to deal with ~HAPES!~ #also i hate that this fits the fact that when they stopped the EU she was like... alone #with nothing good in her life #like she did so much for 63 planets + others #and was left with nothing #no dad no jacen no daughter #just effin' hapes #playfully {memes} #seriously though throw her a gd bone authors why

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#elegantly {face} #purely {sight} #fiercely {tenel ka djo}

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I am tired and a mess at the moment but I really need to write a ramble here about how much ILU all -- writing here and at @goodofthegalaxy over the years has brought me so many things from new friends to fic ideas to editing tips and if you’re reading this right now you have assisted in this warm, fuzzy feeling and I thank you for it.

Life has been absolute the worst kind of ass the past couple of years and here and the jacen journal (also the zekk one, ofc) have been lovely places for me to spend time not thinking about life and nerding out about the EU with y’all instead. 

For now please have this tiny ramble above and also my appreciation.

💙 💙 💙

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{ Bumping this post from 2016 cause this fic was a really good time to write and I can’t believe it’s been years since then -- but I’m also itching to play a Tenel Ka who gets to Let Go Sometime lololol. I need to fix my verse page cause it’s been forever since I did but I’m feeling the need for a slight darker Queen Mother of Hapes if anyone wants to do something ridiculous with me, hehe. 

Also, bless you 2016 hex and your Carida thing - you’re such a dork. }

it’s that thing of when you know Tenel Ka Djo would never, ever, ever go Sith for anything but still write about it (~adventures in killing Hapan asshats w/ Darth Caedus~) because angst and feelings. and more angst. Because:

/shrugs and keeps writing

(also, I haven’t written in forever because of depression and life crap and just all kinds of shit and if this madness is what’s making me write again THEN SO BE IT.

I have almost 25,000 words of this SO IT’S NOT STOPPING NOW.)

#generally {out of character} #tragically {v. sith} #violently {erida} #hex is this you looking for anoTHER ESCAPE FROM LIFE??? #I DON'T KNOW MAYBE IT IS #basically life is making me angry and i need to get the angry out #does anyone want to play with a dark side queen mom

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*** - By: (raquel lopez-chicheri)

#aesthetically {inspiration} #purely {sight} #indestructibly {reef fortress} #deceitfully {hapes}

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Tenel Ka - Queen by spacecraft

#Tenel Ka Djo #fiercely {tenel ka djo} #purely {sight}

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  “Ah, Jacen,” she started, still not finding herself able to turn to look at him. Every muscle in her face strained to keep her expression from cracking. Usually it was so easy. The betrayal in is voice is what almost broke her. “I was blindsided as well, believe me. This is...”

  She didn’t want to say it was the last thing she wanted. It could have definitely been worse. But she never wanted anything with Jacen to go this way.

  Tenel Ka never finished her train of thought, her head slowly shaking back and forth as she watched a school of bright green fish swim by the wall of windows. His last words stuck with her but she was unsure of how they made her feel.

  “I understand if you are just saying that. But you do not need to...” ( What was the term he had used before? ) “...sugar coat it for me. I understand if you are angry, I would be too.”

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"I don't know." Jacen sighed, walking to stand a few feet away to her side and look out the window as well.

"I'm just feeling kind of blind-sided here Tenel Ka. No one told me, not even when we decided to come here and visit you. Your grandmother's aid dropped the bomb like ten minutes ago, and I couldn't just ignore it." He paused and glanced over at her, expression softening.

"You know it doesn't change anything right? You're still my best friend."

#peacefully {jacen solo} #fiercely {tenel ka djo} #abloodlineunraveled #abloodlineunraveled {jacen solo} #forcedly {v. arranged marriage}