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It's my turn on the meat sack. Some of the others may not miss about people but I DO!! I MISS PEOPLE!!!

I want to see Vel and Val again. I want to see Alastor. I want to see people from sourceeee

#hazbin fictive #vox fictive

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So much boredom can be stuffed into one person...I cannot do anythingggg

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SzPD culture is being confused about spontaneous phone calls. Calling for the sole purpose of... talking? Without concrete intentions? No, but when will you stop talking? Can I leave?

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#ok! i started thinking of this as #the intentions are: fun. #interactions for them are fun #if they are bored #they wanna do something fun. #what's fun? interaction! for them #Norman Polk's SzPD

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schizoid culture is realizing you are only there for and cater to friends/others because making them happy satisfies your brain like a game or puzzle and in no other way else. on this, schizoid culture is being unable to be open about this because people get offended and feel betrayed by this. why? am i still not serving you? what difference does it make? it feels like a win-win to me.

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#I can't feel my emotional connection to others or whatever love is supposed to be but I can protect you. I can do whatever you ask. #I can't love but I can suffer for you #< prev #exactly #but this is the ultimate form of niceness. to me. being a shield for people who need it. #i may not emotionally connect but i like people being happy because then they make me laugh. It's the only form of social reciprocity I can #be genuine in. #i may not connect fully and truly but I find you entertaining #. I want to be nice as a result. #if you make me laugh that's all i need to return the favor. even if i won't cry or miss you once you're gone.

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Szpd culture is inadvertently becoming an compulsive liar because I don’t want to be vulnerable and also don’t care enough about most topics to have an actual opinion

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questioning szpd culture is liking it when people are clingy and need you and want to talk/be around you 24/7, but also at the same time knowing 100% that after two days of that you will start to die because what the fuck, it's so much, why are you always here, get the fuck off and go away

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questioning schzd culture is wondering why do you even need friends as if its a must requirement that you must have.

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#the only answer i have is that they are entertaining.

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Schizoid culture is not talking about your issues because you find no need. There doesn't feel like a point to talking? What does it do?

I don't mind talking about them. It's interesting to speak of experiences but it's just. I don't care? I don't have that need to vent? Why do others do? Why must I be so emotionally disconnected from other humans?

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Schizoid culture is being told "I missed you" constantly and not knowing how to answer. You just lie and say "I missed you too!" When you couldn't give a shit. I'm sorry but I don't miss people. I didn't miss you. I don't mind talking with you, it's entertaining. I still have empathy I just, don't miss people I'm sorry. I wish I could connect like others do but I don't.

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#Sent this in. Yeah. we have to constantly lie and we became a compulsive liar. at this point it's just us. #it's habit to lie i dont know how much we can detangle the pure instinct to lie about how muh we dont give a shit. #we can have fun in the moment and enjoy people and laugh and think it's great but theres no deeper connection we can form #Interaction is about entertainment and not being bored. #we would make people think we are bad shitty people if we voiced our 'wow. You care? you have attachments to people? you need them? you are #upset by not having people around? you care about opinions for more than just practical purposes of not being annoyed? wow. sucks to be you #i do not want to be like you' #trying to not think so poorly of others for emotions. im working on it.

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Bringing this back yet again. Hello. Figured something out

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plural culture is being 15 and having people who are older than time

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#make it 16 and older than time

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How do I react to this Suddenly getting gripped and thrown here, away from the people I know

AND LEARNING OH! THERE IS A MUSICAL!

and learning about this future

#-john laurens #I mean the songs are absolutely excellent #like 10/10 especially Guns & Ships #The Lafayette actor did amazing #might just scream internally #this is so new I am #in shock

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Respect introjects whose source is an AU challenge GO

-Mossflower, they/it/ey/fleur/snow

#REAL points at AR

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When their entire relationship is toxic, but they're both so fucked up that it's actually the best case scenario, because subjecting anybody else to either of them would be a human rights violation.

#zhongchi to me teebeehach #- Neon #(...fair -Ajax) #also I add Killermare

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i'm literally the priest's favorite sacrificial lamb because i am so docile and sweet and i hold very still when they put the rope around my neck and i trot along so happily while they lead me to the altar and they do not even have to tie me down because i lie so very still and only bleat once or twice in my lovely lamb voice and when the knife comes down it cuts through me like butter and i offer no resistance and i bleed so prettily all over my new white wool and my guts all unspool like the most beautiful shining yarn and my eyes are animal and dumb and hold no accusation and every time i die i come right back as another little lamb because the priest loves me so so much and he always chooses me for the sacrifice every time and he always places one hand on my small and twitching nose to calm me while he lifts the knife and he doesn't do it for the other lambs only me because i'm his favorite

#. ah #tw animal death

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guy who has mistaken adrenaline for love and isn’t interested in correcting the mistake

#tartagliacore tbh #just ajax coded #- Nisha

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Got this from seirai-collective ASK GAME!

🌫️- How many people are in your system

🌊- What's everyone's favorite colors?

☂️- Most common fronters?

☔- Collective pronouns?

💦- Everyone's pronouns?

💧- Most common age group?

💨- Do you have any fictives?

❄️- Are there any romantic relationships in your system?

🌧️- Does anyone have a favorite number?

☁️- Are any of your alters neurodivergent?

🌤️- How many people are LGBTQIA+

☀️- Do you have any non-human alters (including hybrids)?

🌈- What are some common hobbies?

🌪️- What is the most liked food between everyone?

🔥- Current hyperfixations?

☄️- Do you guys have any collective interests?

⚡- What is your headspace like? (If you have one)

✨- Does anyone have a pet?

⭐- Does your system have a name?

💫- Does anyone wanna share something about their source? Feel free to ramble, anyone can answer too!

🪐- Most chaotic group?

🌎- Any demon/angel/god alters?

🌙- Who is the oldest?

🌓- What type of system are you?

🌗- (For traumagenic systems only) Are you diagnosed? If yes, was getting one difficult? If not, do you want one & why or why not?

🌕- What is your system dynamic (ex, family, friends, complete strangers, etc)

🌻- What's a normal day for you as a system?

🌸- How do you keep track of your system? (Members, switches, etc)

🥀- Any childhood things that should've tipped you off to being a system?

💐- Do you like being a system?

🐚- Do you know any systems IRL?

🍄- Do you prefer in-system dating or out-of-system dating?

🍁- What's the most annoying thing about being a system?

🎍- How bad is your amnesia?

🌿- Best quote from an alter?

🌳- Do alters have separate accounts for games or do you all share an account?

#:) #wanna bring this account back to life sooo #hit me with it - Mono