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11/03/24

It's okay, J. You'll be fine. In fact, you'll be more than fine.

You've always been good, you always showed up for yourself, you've always stayed strong and true to yourself, you never let the toughness of your situations change you or make you a hard person.

You're kind, funny, generous, and you love the people you love with the biggest heart.

You think you're alone but remember the people who stayed and/or came into your life in your darkest times. They stayed for you, they showed up, they loved you even if it's seasonal. You're more than you think you deserve. You have more than you think you have. So don't worry about being alone.

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“Whatever is worrying you right now, forget about it. Take a deep breath, stay positive and know that things will get better.”

— Unknown

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“Let them judge you. Let them misunderstand you. Let them gossip about you. Their opinions aren’t your problems. You stay kind, committed to love and free in your authenticity. No matter what they do or say, don’t you doubt your worth or the beauty of your truth. Just keep shining like you always do.”

— Scott Stabile

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“If they don’t like what you’re bringing to the table let them eat alone. Simple as that.”

— Unknown

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“Learn to trust the journey even when you do not understand it.”

— Unknown

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“Instead of saying ‘I’m damaged, I’m broken, I have trust issues’ say ‘I’m healing, I’m rediscovering myself, I’m starting over.’”

— Horatio Jones

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“Healing is a choice. It is not an easy one because it takes work to turn around your habits. But keep making the choice and shifts will happen.”

— Yehuda Berg

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27/10/23

It's easy to see what people have going but not what it took to get them there.

Be patient, J. Everything works out in the end. It always does and always will.

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30/07/23

Milestones:

1. Getting excited house shopping with someone (for the 3rd time, bless me).

2. Finally bought myself a gold necklace instead of always having someone buy it for me!

3. Sticking to new habits and building new routines heh. I would not have expected that 31 year old me would be eating oats every morning!!

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23/07/23

It's just amazing - all these new experiences.

The sight of him went from pain to anxiety to me just being full on nauseated.

How does the sight of one person even make you feel so disgusted to the point you wanna throw up.

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“You had to be that person to become this one.”

— Rupi Kaur

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23/04/23

"You're hurting so much you can't even breathe"

- True Beauty, ep 6

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31/03/22

It's been slightly past a year now.

Definitely in a better place - everything hurts less, occasional triggers still happens. Sometimes they leave me tearing, sometimes I only choke on my voice. Still doing pretty ok I'd say.

These days, the memories I'd like to forget and store so deep away seem to find their way into my mind. It's weird tho, I don't feel much about it. Still in that "I remember this but wow did it even happen" state. So so strange.

Just trusting it's part and parcel of recovery. I'll be ok. I know I'll be.

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“Give yourself some credit. You’ve come pretty far.”

— Unknown

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“Stay close to anything that makes you glad you are alive.”

— Hafiz

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“It eventually gets better, without any sort of explanation; you just wake up one morning and you’re not as upset anymore.”

— Unknown

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“The life in front of you is far more important than the life behind you.”

— Joel Osteen