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14 | 02 | 2020  |  Good Morning and a wonderful happy valentine’s day to you - for us being in love.
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and that’s what a miracle is: a parting of the mists, a shift in perception, a return to love.   I want the experience of love. I don’t know what would bring that to me. I leave the results of this situation in your hands. I trust your will. may your will be done. amen.
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Knowing who you are and why you came here -- that you are a child of God, and that you came here to heal and be healed -- is more important than knowing what you want to do. What you want to do is not the important question. The question to ask is, "When I do anything, how should I do it"? And the answer is, "Kindly.”
We have a very hard time when it comes to love. Love feels like a void that threatens to overwhelm us, and that’s because, in a certain sense, it is and it does. It overwhelms our small self, our lonely sense of separateness. Since that sense of separateness is who we think we are, we feel like we’ll die without it. What’s dying is the frightened mind, so the love inside us can get a chance to breathe.  
When we choose to love, or to allow our minds to be one with God, then life is peaceful. When we turn away from love, the pain sets in. And whether we love, or close our hearts to love, is a mental choice we make, every moment of every day.
Those who do are usually people who somewhere along the line, either from parents or lovers, were told verbally or nonverbally, “You’re wonderful and beautiful.” Love is to people what water is to plants.
Instead of, “Dear God, please let us fall in love, or please give me this job,” we say, “Dear God, my desire, my priority is inner peace. I want the experience of love. I don’t know what would bring that to me. I leave the results of this situation in your hands. I trust your will. May your will be done. Amen.
Another miraculous transformation is the shift from a sales mentality to a service mentality. When we're motivated by the desire to sell, we're only looking out for ourselves.  When we're motivated by the desire to serve, we're looking out for others.  Since in the realm of consciousness, we only get to keep what we give away, a service mentality is a far more abundant attitude.  
the brain is like a bio-computer that manufactures whatever we feed into it with our thoughts. The thought system is the journey to a pure heart can be highly disorienting.  For years, we may have worked for power, money or prestige.  Now all of a sudden we've learned that these are just the values of a dying world.
Give all your gifts away in service to the world. If you want to paint, don't wait for a grant, paint a wall in your town that looks drab and uninviting. You never know who is going to see that wall. Whatever it is you want to do, give it away in service to your community.  
... the miraculous power of love to create a context in which people naturally blossom into their highest potential.  Neither nagging, trying to get people to change, criticizing or fixing can do that.
Our fear is free-floating. We’re afraid this isn’t the right relationship or we’re afraid it is. We’re afraid they won’t like us or we’re afraid they will. We’re afraid of failure or we’re afraid of success. We’re afraid of dying young or we’re afraid of growing old. We’re more afraid of life than we are of death.
We experience it as kindness, giving, mercy, compassion, peace, joy, acceptance, non-judgment, joining, and intimacy.
Many of us know in our hearts that we never really grew up. The problem isn’t that we’re lost or apathetic, narcissistic or materialistic. The problem is we’re terrified.  
And that’s what a miracle is: a parting of the mists, a shift in perception, a return to love.  
―      Marianne Williamson,            A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles"  
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09 | 02 | 2020  |  a happy day Late Evening Reading - for us being in love.
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the truth, on the other hand, sits quietly in the corner. It is not self-conscious. It knows what it is and does not need to convince self or others. the truth is secure.
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Lies are loud. They have to be. They know they are wrong & their self-consciousness won’t let them stay quiet. They must perpetually assert themselves lest others discover their fallacious nature. The truth, on the other hand, sits quietly in the corner. It is not self-conscious. It knows what it is and does not need to convince self or others. The truth is secure.
When I first realized I was doing this, I was embarrassed. It uncovered a fear of mine: I wanted people to get to know the *real* me as soon as possible, lest they think I’m too vanilla and leave. I’m so cool and unique, don’t go ! A fear of being misunderstood, and consequently, a fear of abandonment. In a weird way, it’s its own sort of insecurity. And then I heard a quiet voice: Slow down, earlyback. Give people time to get to know you. To discover others is a bloody gift. It’s one of the things I enjoy most about relationships. People are meant to be unraveled — beautifully and reverently unraveled. Give other people that gift.
Embarrassment soon led to freedom. Because that’s the encouraging thing about fear — it can always be conquered.
So now I show up how I want to show up and let others draw their own conclusions. It’s an odd, yet contented feeling. Sitting with the potential of being misunderstood by sojourners who pass in and out of my life. Expectant for those who stay and uncover who I am. Not everyone has to be “right” about me. Few will. Others’ premature or false conclusions of me don’t have to align with the reality of who I am. And I’m learning to be okay with that.
Read this from here ( posted, because its align with our current relationship circumstances - Tell Me What You’re All About And I’ll Show You Your Insecurity.
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08 | 02 | 2020  |  a happy day Afternoon Reading and Music - for us being in love.
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when an individual trusts another sufficiently to expose the true self--the deepest fears, the hidden desires - a powerful intimacy is born.
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“How do you know if you can really trust someone?" she finally ask. Noah raises his eyebrows and takes a sip of his drink. Then he looks into her eyes and the expression in his is so earnest she feel like he's answering from a deeply personal place. "If you need to ask that question, then you probably already know the answer," he says.”
When an individual trusts another sufficiently to expose the true self--the deepest fears, the hidden desires - a powerful intimacy is born.
And sometimes the people who seem the most accomplished and together are the ones you can hurt the most.
Perhaps he will be the one who will finally enable you to experience true love. Not the storybook version. The real kind, which sustains through phases of dark, until the return to light.
Communication is a vital component of a healthy partnership. It is a necessary foundational aspect of a romantic relationship, as well as a therapeutic one. Yet self-preservation must trump the blind trust of one’s spouse. Particularly when one’s spouse has proved untrustworthy in the past.
These moments, as unique to each individual as strands of DNA, can at their best cause the sensation of a catapult into the shimmer of stars. At the opposite extreme, they can feel like a descent into quicksand.
  ―      Sarah Pekkanen,            An Anonymous Girl    
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07 | 02 | 2020  |  a happy day Late Afternoon Reading - for us being in love.
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Love is real. It’s an eternal creation and nothing can destroy it. anything that isn’t love is an illusion. remember this, and you’ll be at.
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Love is real. It’s an eternal creation and nothing can destroy it. Anything that isn’t love is an illusion. Remember this, and you’ll be at.
you dig deep enough into your mind, and deep enough into mine, the picture is the same: at the bottom of it all, what we are is love.
In order to escape the illusion and find inner peace, remember that only love in a situation is real. “Love in your mind produces love in your life. This is the meaning of Heaven.”  the love you’ve given is real, and the love you have received is real. Nothing else exists. 
The cultivation of mental rest, or surrender, is like eating healthy food. It doesn’t give us an immediate rush, but over time it provides a lot more energy.   
She remember spending years of her life so upset about all of the life choices she felt she had available that she never moved. She was paralyzed by all the possibilities. she couldn't figure out which road would lead her to the fulfillment of her potential, this glorious, neurotic myth that lay always just in front of whatever she could manifest now. So she was always too scared to move, and fear of course is the great betrayer of herself. The difference between those people living their potential and those who don't is not the amount of potential itself, but the amount of permission they give themselves to live in the present.
  ―      Marianne Williamson,            A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles”      
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06 | 02 | 2020  |  a happy day Late Night Reading - for us being in love.
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Our self-perception determines our behavior. If we think we’re small, limited, inadequate creatures, then we tend to behave that way, and the energy we radiate reflects those thoughts no matter what we do.
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  Love in your mind produces love in your life. This is the meaning of heaven. Fear in your mind produces fear in your life. This is the meaning of hell.  
The difference between a friendship and a romance is illustrated in the image of a long-stemmed rose.  The stem is the friendship, the blossom is the romance.  Because the ego is sensation-oriented, our focus automatically goes to the blossom, but all the nourishment which the blossom needs in order to live reaches it through the stem.  The stem might look boring in comparison, but if you take the blossom off the stem, it will not last for long.
Our self-perception determines our behavior. If we think we’re small, limited, inadequate creatures, then we tend to behave that way, and the energy we radiate reflects those thoughts no matter what we do. If we think we’re magnificent creatures with an infinite abundance of love and power to give, then we tend to behave that way. Once again, the energy around us reflects our state of awareness.
When we attach value to things that aren’t love—the money, the car, the house, the prestige—we are loving things that can’t love us back. We are searching for meaning in the meaningless.
Forgiveness is a full time job, and sometimes very difficult. Few of us always succeed, yet making the effort is our most noble calling. It is the world’s only real chance to begin again.  
It takes courage
to endure the sharp pains of self discovery rather than choose to take the dull pain of unconsciousness that would last the rest of our lives.  
It’s easy to forgive people who have never done anything to make us angry. People who do make us angry, however, are our most important teachers. They indicate the limits to our capacity for forgiveness.
―      Marianne Williamson,            Return to Love    
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05 | 02 | 2020  |  a happy day Late Night Music - for us being in love.
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05 | 02 | 2020  |  a happy day Late Evening Music - for us being in love.
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“there is, inside all our heads, the ego’s rabid attack dog. It is purely vicious toward others and toward ourselves as well. learning to control that dog, and ultimately to end its life, is the process and purpose of enlightened relationships.”
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“His focus was formidable, it stilled the earth and stopped time. It made her feel... But that was it. That was all. Red's focus simply made her feel.”
“Red,' she whispered. 'You don't always have to be okay.' She leaned closer and pressed a kiss to his cheek. He was still for a moment. But then he looked at her, and smiled, and murmured, "I know. But I am okay, with you.”
He loved Chloe. He loved Chloe like a blank canvas and a finished piece and all the exhilarating, painful, stop-and-start moments in between.
You think this is a big deal because, no offense, you've had a lot of people in your life who claimed to care about you but didn't act like it. That's not me. I can cook, and right now, you can't. So I'm doing it for you because that's how people should behave; they should fill in each other's gaps. Don't think about it too hard.
Talia Hibbert,            Get a Life, Chloe Brown  
“Love is a hero’s journey, and the hero’s journey is a noble but difficult path.”
“Love heals the body. Look at any woman on the day after she was made love to by a man she adores, and who adores her too. A man’s body might register a difference, but a woman’s body literally transforms in ways a man’s does not seem to do. Woman is filled with some voluptuous spirit. Both men and women walk a little bit above the sidewalk on days that follow our better nights.
If our emotional stability is based on what other people do or do not do, then we have no stability. If our emotional stability is based on love that is changeless and unalterable, then we attain the stability of God.”
“We all make mistakes, we all have fears, and we all have weaknesses. Behind all that is our essential self. When our essential self has made contact with another, the light is dazzling and would fill the universe. The challenge of enchantment is to remain faithful to that light, to believe in it when it is not so apparent. Then that light becomes an incandescent glow and it wraps itself around everything.”
“There is, inside all our heads, the ego’s rabid attack dog. It is purely vicious toward others and toward ourselves as well. Learning to control that dog, and ultimately to end its life, is the process and purpose of enlightened relationships.”  
―      Marianne Williamson,            Enchanted Love: The Mystical Power Of Intimate Relationships    
Love interrupts the past and opens the future to new probabilities. No matter who you are, no matter how young or old you are, in the present, all things are possible. Happiness is the choice I make today. It does not rest on my circumstances, but on my frame of mind. I smile more often, give praise more often, give thanks more often, and am glad more often. For such is my choice today.
And the more open your heart, the more miracles you’ll receive. For miracles occur naturally as expressions of love. When you choose to love, you choose to work miracles. Miracles occur in response to every problem, yet it is my faith and compassion that bring them forth.
―      Marianne Williamson,            A Year of Miracles: Daily Devotions and Reflections    
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04 | 02 | 2020  |  a happy day Dinner Night Music - for us being in love.
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Happy Valentine - Like an invigorating flash of energy in a bottle. What do you love about ? An invigorating scent. An unforgettable smell.
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“the future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.” — eleanor roosevelt
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“You’re late.” “And you’re fucking gorgeous.”  
“What color are your panties?" "Excuse me?" "You heard me." "Why?" "Baby, if I'm going to take you into a room full of people, I'm damn well going to be the only one who knows the color of your panties.
“Can I tell you a dirty secret?” “Yes,” she gasped. “Just hurry.” Derek’s dark laughter increased her arousal, coating her in slick heat. Achingly slow, he sunk two thick fingers inside her. “If I could go back and do one thing differently that first night, I would taste your pussy before I fucked you. I bet it would have been extra sweet.
“He leaned down and his breath feathered across her forehead, then down to her ear where he spoke in a coaxing voice. “I can make you talk, baby. Is that what you want? If you need my hand between your legs, all you have to do is ask me.”  
“Listen to me, baby. From the time we walk in the door to my apartment, you will have less than a minute before I put my cock inside you. No foreplay. No kissing. There won’t be any time, because you’ve got me strung so damn tight I can barely think straight. I need you to keep yourself wet for me on the ride home. Starting now.” Reaching across the car’s console, he yanked her skirt high on her thighs. “Put your hand between your legs, NEV.”
    ―      Tessa Bailey,            Protecting What's His   
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  03 | 02 | 2020  |  a happy day Dinner Night Music - for us being in love.
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compassion is not a relationship between the healer and the wounded. It's a relationship between equals. only when we know our own darkness well can we be present with the darkness of others. compassion becomes real when we recognize our shared humanity.
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The only reason we don't open our hearts and minds to other people is that they trigger confusion in us that we don't feel brave enough or sane enough to deal with. To the degree that we look clearly and compassionately at ourselves, we feel confident and fearless about looking into someone else's eyes. 
The most fundamental aggression to ourselves, the most fundamental harm we can do to ourselves, is to remain ignorant by not having the courage and the respect to look at ourselves honestly and gently.
Compassion is not a relationship between the healer and the wounded. It's a relationship between equals. Only when we know our own darkness well can we be present with the darkness of others. Compassion becomes real when we recognize our shared humanity.
If someone comes along and shoots an arrow into your heart, it’s fruitless to stand there and yell at the person. It would be much better to turn your attention to the fact that there’s an arrow in your heart...
Life is glorious, but life is also wretched. It is both. Appreciating the gloriousness inspires us, encourages us, cheers us up, gives us a bigger perspective, energizes us. We feel connected. But if that's all that's happening, we get arrogant and start to look down on others, and there is a sense of making ourselves a big deal and being really serious about it, wanting it to be like that forever. The gloriousness becomes tinged by craving and addiction. On the other hand, wretchedness--life's painful aspect--softens us up considerably. Knowing pain is a very important ingredient of being there for another person. When you are feeling a lot of grief, you can look right into somebody's eyes because you feel you haven't got anything to lose--you're just there. The wretchedness humbles us and softens us, but if we were only wretched, we would all just go down the tubes. We'd be so depressed, discouraged, and hopeless that we wouldn't have enough energy to eat an apple. Gloriousness and wretchedness need each other. One inspires us, the other softens us. They go together.
To be fully alive, fully human, and completely awake is to be continually thrown out of the nest. To live fully is to be always in no-man's-land, to experience each moment as completely new and fresh. To live is to be willing to die over and over again. 
 ―      Pema Chodron       When Things Fall Apart: Heart Advice for Difficult Times     
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he paused. "Um ... a house with four girls in it ?"
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“We're so lucky to have family like we do."She asked.  "We are. And maybe we can even add to it." He said. Leaning back, she looked at him in surprise. "Did I hear that right ?" He shrugged. "I figure I'm not that old. Might be fun to give the girls a little brother." "Or sister." She shrugged. He paused. "Um ... a house with four girls in it ?" Giggling, she kissed his lips. "Four. Don't forget your Girlfriends." He sighed. "We're going to need more space. And I'm going to need a bigger swear jar.”  
 ―      Melanie Harlow,            Irresistible   
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01 | 02 | 2020  |  a happy day Late Evening Tea Music - for us being in love.
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VW - NKRS - us being in fervent love.
One love, one heart, one destiny.
US being in love - since ten years | since seven years | since nine years | since two years - quadro trouble.
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now, your entire life everyone's been telling you what a special snowflake you are - but the truth is, you're just like the rest of us, honey. that means sometimes you're gonna get what you want, sometimes you're not. sometimes you're gonna get it only to find out it's not what you thought it was gonna be. It's all part of the journey.
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Skylar Nixon could be the one woman who was strong enough, sweet enough, forgiving enough to be with me. The thought was both terrifying and beautiful.
I want to be someone that could make her happy.
I stood next to her and looked out. Goddamn it, I could smell her. Mostly it was the varnish remover she’d been using, but there was a hint of something sweet and floral beneath it—I fucking loved that she was girlish and feminine but not afraid to work with her hands.
At least she thought I was a great fuck. Something good always comes from something bad ! The tip of Sebastian’s cock was hitting The Spot, territory uncharted, unknown, unreachable by prior attempted to scale the surrounding heights. 
you’re so amazing and generous and hard and deep and fuck—“Oh God, you’re perfect. don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop ! She yowled.
I loved the way she touched me, like she still couldn’t believe I was there and might disappear at any moment. I even loved that she looked at me with sadness in her eyes sometimes, because I knew it meant that she was struggling with things in her mind but letting her heart win.
Now, your entire life everyone's been telling you what a special snowflake you are - but the truth is, you're just like the rest of us, honey. That means sometimes you're gonna get what you want, sometimes you're not. Sometimes you're gonna get it only to find out it's not what you thought it was gonna be. It's all part of the journey.
    ―      Melanie Harlow,            Some Sort of Happy    
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31 | 01 | 2020  |  a happy day Late Evening Tea Music - for us being in love.
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VW - NKRS - us being in fervent love.
One love, one heart, one destiny.
US being in love - since ten years | since seven years | since nine years | since two years - quadro trouble.
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she felt like two halves of her were splitting apart—one wanted so badly to be granted that second chance at loving someone and allowing herself to be loved, while the other demanded she serve out her life sentence alone in the prison she’d built for herself.
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You don’t have to let go of your past—it will always be part of who you are. But you don’t have to let it shackle you, or prevent you from moving on. She said.
I’m not asking for a promise. I’m asking for a chance. That’s all. A chance.
But love is strange. When you’re looking for it, it knows just where to hide. When you’re not, it jumps out and clobbers you on the head.
Never in my life had I simultaneously wanted to hug someone and hit him with a scone at the same time. 
She felt like two halves of her were splitting apart—one wanted so badly to be granted that second chance at loving someone and allowing herself to be loved, while the other demanded She serve out her life sentence alone in the prison She’d built for herself.
I loved the gravity of him, the power he wielded, the punishing thrust of his hips. I loved the growl in his voice, the sweat on his skin, the roughness of his hands in my hair. I loved that he’d come here for me, that he wanted me in his life, that he was willing to make such drastic changes to have me. She whispered.
―      Melanie Harlow,            After We Fall  
“Any requests?” he asked. “Take off your pants.” He grinned at me over his shoulder. “I meant music.”
I want to taste you all the time, Mia. I want the flavor of you on my tongue every fucking minute of the day. And you know it. You shouldn’t tease me by telling me you’re not wearing panties when I can’t have my mouth on you.
You are a fucking delight, princess. It’s like you know the dirty jokes in my head I’m too scared to make in front of you.
 ―      Melanie Harlow,            Frenched    
You’re right about serious relationships not being all hearts and flowers and orgasms, Jaime. That’s falling in love. Over time, it’s not that anymore. It takes work. It takes trust and sacrifice and faith in something you can’t see. It means sticking the fuck around when you’re scared or tempted or angry. It’s knowing that someone has your back and will be there at the end of your best days and your worst. It’s understanding that you’re part of something bigger than yourself, and fighting for it. I know it’s rare.
It’s a feeling, followed by a choice made in the face of chaos and uncertainty: I don’t know where this road will take me, but I want you by my side on the journey. 
Jaime, there is no secret. There is no magic. There is no way to know what the future holds. The point is that you’re willing to take a chance. 
I want you I want you I want you. I couldn't stop thinking it, couldn't stop fucking her, couldn't bear the thoughts that she didn't want me, didn't want this, more than she wanted to protect myself. I was inside her. And I didn't want to leave.
 ―      Melanie Harlow,            Man Candy    
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US being in love - since ten years | since seven years | since nine years | since two years - quadro trouble.
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29 | 01 | 2020  |  a happy day Good Afternoon Lunch Music - for us being in love.
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VW - NKRS - us being in fervent love.
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She breathed in the smell of Paris – a smell distinctively different from the air of Edinburgh or London, composed of coffee and cigarette smoke mingled with top notes of French perfume and a pungent undercurrent of drains.
I think the biggest mistake she made was not to see that the imperfect reality was worth so much more than the perfect dream.
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She breathed in the smell of Paris – a smell distinctively different from the air of Edinburgh or London, composed of coffee and cigarette smoke mingled with top notes of French perfume and a pungent undercurrent of drains.
you have a choice. You can either let the pain overwhelm you, defining your life from that point on – perhaps even ending it or, at best, consigning you to a living death – or you can find a way to bear it, to carry it with you and still go on living.
Mend your marriage with veins of the purest gold and remake it, better and stronger than before. Because, you see, Kendra, I fell in love with your father all over again. Caroline was right: our love was worth mending. In the end, we made the scars part of the beauty of our marriage.
That something which is unique has its own beauty that can never be destroyed; that it’s always worth mending, even when it’s broken; and that the fractures and the scars become part of the beauty too, making the piece even more remarkable, even more precious.
So, is it wrong to dream, to want the things we don’t have?’ ‘No, my darling, never give up your dreams. But just make sure they don’t distract you too much from the good things that there are in your day-to-day life, even if that life is by no means perfect. Because there always are good things.
The love that you have for your children, that is the only pure and simple kind. It’s overwhelming, instinctive, absolute. But it sits alongside the love that you have for your partner, which is another kind of love entirely. That’s anything but simple; it’s far more complicated; and yet it’s the love that we choose, so it should really be the easiest one of all.
 ―      Fiona Valpy,            Sea of Memories    
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28 | 01 | 2020  |  a happy day Late Evening Tea Music - for us being in love.
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28 | 01 | 2020  |  a happy day Good Afternoon Tea Music - for us being in love.
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VW - NKRS - us being in fervent love.
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US being in love - since ten years | since seven years | since nine years | since two years - quadro trouble.
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my husband does whatever he wishes to do. I am sometimes allowed to help, though. If he decides to cut off your feet, I will, of course, offer him my assistance.
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“My wife." "By what name is she called, Kincaid?" "Mine.”   
You wouldn't let him do it, would you, Jamie?" Jamie's expression was very serene. She stared at Andrew when she spoke to her husband. "With your permission, I would like to answer him." "You have it," Alec replied. "Andrew," she called out in a voice as cold and clear as a frigid winter morning, "my husband does whatever he wishes to do. I am sometimes allowed to help, though. If he decides to cut off your feet, I will, of course, offer him my assistance.”    
―      Julie Garwood,            The Bride    
“Do you have any affections for me?" she asked boldly, as was her way, jutting her chin, and damn if she was not staring him down.
"No." She flinched. "What I feel for you is beyond affection. At the crest of each dawn I think of being inside you. I write and you crowd my thoughts. I sleep and you are the last person I think of, and damn me if when I wake, you are not the first person I fucking look for. I think that borders on obsession wife, not mere affection.”
“I only know that you are dangerous, and I regret staying in that closet with you.”  
“He skimmed his fingers over her cheek almost tentative in his exploration. Then he pressed a kiss to the corner of her lips. It was light, tender, sweet, and soothing. Emotions clogged her throat and a craving for something more surged through her. "I find I do not want to release you." Her heart kicked into a furious rhythm. "Then don't.”  
    ―      Stacy Reid,            Wicked in His Arms    
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26 | 01 | 2020  |  a happy day Late Evening Tea Music - for us being in love.
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VW - NKRS - us being in fervent love.
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