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[dyingformyself2]

Been a great day so far

Have only had a coffee and piece of avocado toast with an egg on it today

Dirty chai: 400-500 cal (probably overestimated tbh)

Multi grain Bread 50 cal

1/3 avocado ~80 cal

1 egg ~80 cal

190 cal Sargento snack pack

Chicken ramen with spinach & zucchini

Idk total but ik its close to 1k

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for someone obsessed with losing weight i really suck at it.

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Okay so I just finished my meals for the day :3 might have coffee or tea later but that’s it

It rlly feels like I ate soooo much but it’s because I loaded up on zucchini so I feel full without feeling too guilty

Today I’ve had

Bacon 360 cal

Zucchini 150 cal

Single maple donut 200

Fruit jelly 200 cal

Skinny dirty chai 150 cal

Almond butter biscuit 190 cal

Almond milk 150 cal

Total 1,260

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two servings of bacon (160 cal) + a whole zucchini (40-60 cal)

200-210 cal for a whole meal is 🤌🏼

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🕯️NO BINGES IN MAY🕯️

🕯️NO BINGES IN MAY🕯️

🕯️NO BINGES IN MAY🕯️

🕯️NO BINGES IN MAY🕯️

🕯️NO BINGES IN MAY🕯️

🕯️NO BINGES IN MAY🕯️

🕯️NO BINGES IN MAY🕯️

🕯️NO BINGES IN MAY🕯️

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Starting my day off with green tea & ACV just makes my entire day better

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Wearing myself out so I’m too tired to cook dinner ✨

Feel so good waking up empty

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In case anyone else is here, I have something to say to you. If you've gotten off track, especially severely off track, please read! It's gonna be ok. Whether you gained a couple lbs or 10 or even more, that isn't going to stop you. All it can do is slow you down. You are stronger than you know, and it'll be ok. Just do your best, take it slow (or jump straight in if that's how you work) and you'll get back in time. I know how much it sucks to relose weight you've already lost, especially a significant amount, but it's possible and the only way to make progress is to start. So start!

[dyingformyself2]

If youre not watching the calories

Then the calories sure will watch you.

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My go to safe food rn is zucchini cooked with bacon

1-2 pieces with zucchini is literally like 150 calories depending on the bacon

The one I have rn is 90 cal for 2 pieces

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I gained 5 lbs in the 6 weeks I was semi-inactive bc I gave in to my binge eating

BUT

October-Jan, I gained 30 lbs so I’m proud of the way that even though I was going too far, it wasn’t like it was over the holidays

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Two dirty chais today with extra ice

Guessing about 3 cups of milk? So somewhere around 309 calories for that

3 shots of espresso

2 pumps of chai syrup at 50-75 calories each

So 400-500 for my drinks

+ 250 for noodle pack

650-750 total possibly 850

Will end my day with grilled zucchini and chocolate yogurt so I’ll stay under 1k cal for the day

Green tea now to help curb my appetite

[dyingformyself2]

Ended my day yesterday with a large low cal dirty chai & half of a zucchini 🤌🏼 may have gone over in the am but I stayed below my maintenance at the end of the day so it wasn’t too horrible

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Rough estimate of my donuts for accountability

2 mini kolaches ~400/500 cal

1.5 blueberry donut ~400 cal

Chocolate milk 450 cal

Sausage roll with egg and cheese ~500 cal?

Total 1750-1850 cal

Already waaaay over my preferred intake for the day :(

I still have 1 mini kolache, 1 sausage roll, & 1/2 blueberry donut left ☹️

Might just feed them to my dog tbh

ETA: I gave them to my mom instead

[dyingformyself2]

I just binged on donuts somebody pls take my mouth away from me :((((