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i would love to at least know if your  reasons for doing this are based 100% on actuality bc it feels like there's a lot of bullshit lol

id still hate it but it wouldn't be as maddening (all the more reason not to let me know, I know!) if it was at least factual truth 

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Unpopular opinion: I hate Christmas music.

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“[she is] encouraged not to deal with herself as physically and emotionally real, even though altered and traumatized… . [W]e are allowed no psychic time or space to examine what our true feelings are, to make them our own. With quick cosmetic reassurance, we are told that our feelings are not important, our appearance is all, the sum total of self.” Audre Lorde, The Cancer Journals

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AND if i had the energy and knew how to get some evidence i would not be afraid to get the law involved but as it is itll stir up trouble and not accomplish anything except putting at risk the 1 person i for some sstupid reason still give a shit about and probly triggering an escalation even more

i mean... cops are fucked but at least they're *supposed* to follow some semblance of consistent rules lol

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kiss my ass 

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honestly what standards do you even apply to yourselves since you're so fucking concerned lmao

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also fuck you stupid ass bitch fuck hypocrite abusive sadist freaks find someone to at least be helpful with your harassment on god damn waste of time and misery shithead cock cunt fuck motherfuckers

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Photo by Alexander McDonnell. Styled by me. Makeup by Mugopus.

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its so funny what people do and don't consider a sign that someone could be dangerous, isn't it. even committing acts of violence isn't enough for some, but create or consume it oh no now that's a real sicko. idc what the violence is, committing violence is a huge indicator of future violence in a way that other interactions with violence are not 

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you ever sit and REALLY think about how we just. call sperm whales that

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hm. i guess my arguments about not objectifying people fall short under this view, that seeing people as people means nothing about how else i view or act towards them. the fact that trash stories involving fully developed characters are so much more engrossing than with just faceless originals spat out for the purpose of the acts themselves, for example, is that not "better"? is it... worse...?? (to me if i find myself consuming content that isn't with those types of characters though, it's not even close to 'fun and sexy' and is basically 1 of the reasons i think the milder stuff like on here maybe isn't as fine and cool as ive argued, certainly not for me personally)

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porsonally imo. re dehumanization and cruelty, as many of you have seen fictional depictions on my blog for example... what is the draw, for me? lately i have been thinking how i feel quite cold and sickly to think of victimhood, esp sexual. in a compassionate, empathetic way, that is. imo ive been reinforcing that instead of breaking it down, with that trash. with it being within those bounds ive even found it humorous... like a shocking joke but way worse i don't want to Have Feelings that aren't generally numb about it, but i dont want to hurt myself any more or 'benefit' (take advantage of? at very least not be helping?) from the misery of others. why would you not want to kill your sensitivity to something like that?

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what’s the mood for tonight

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Isn’t it weird how you can actually feel the pain in your chest and stomach when something really hurts your feelings