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I have gotten to a point where when I find out that a man is an "emotional wreck" so to speak, which means, if the man has no emotional boundaries, for himself or towards others, if he is emotionally manipulative, if he is emotional immature, if he struggles to have self-control with his emotions, the way that my pussy shrivels up and gets dry like a barren wasteland, is crazy

The truth is, I don't really need to be in a partnership, and my mother was right about that. Especially after I cheated, because that's not something that I normally do. The person I'm currently with, is not my boyfriend so that's why I kind of still do certain things on the low, but it is wrong, because he is only dealing with me, and in his mind, I am only dealing with him as well. The truth also is, I asked him to be my boyfriend before I went back to my ex, and he basically wasn't in a position to say yes because he doesn't feel like a boyfriend. He doesn't feel like he could be a boyfriend because nobody's ever made him a boyfriend. Not only did his fear in that moment stop him from us progressing forward, which I am not upset about, because I don't work on his timing, but I am upset about the fear because not only did it stop us from progressing forward, it let me know that your fears are enough to dictate how you move about me. Even though you're here in the current moment, and you're enjoying the time that you spend with me to the point where you have moved on from the person that you were once with, you can't see yourself being my boyfriend, MY boyfriend, because of previous people in your past. I don't fault you for that at all. But what I do think, is that you should definitely take yourself out of the dating game and what he really should have done was freshly go work on himself after letting this other girl lead him on for 4 years or about. The same way how I needed to take a break from the triggers and the traumas I just newly gained, he needed to take a break from the traumas and triggers that he's been sustaining for more than like 3 years now. I don't think this is a time that you should be dating, and I think the real reason that I am moving in a sneaky manner is because, especially since the first person that I have loved, men who are not confident enough in themselves to not have their fears always dictate what they do and how they move especially when it comes to whatever gender they are interested in pursuing, they will make you suffer.

A lot of people are not going to understand what I mean by that. In the past, I was okay with being hidden, because I didn't feel like I amounted too much and that's why I understand where the mindset is for a lot of these people they don't feel like they amount too much but I have to admit to myself that other than the fact that I chose somebody who also wanted to stay hidden and hide his own business, I didn't have any business trying to be outside and date anymore either. But in that first time that I loved someone, we spent a lot of time hiding the love that we shared. And it wasn't just because of the fact that I didn't want people to know I was with him, he also didn't want people knowing that I was with him and he had gotten around. Plus he had been cheated on, and he just had a lot of fear going on. I wasn't believed on certain occasions because of his fear. I was doubted a lot because of his fear. He didn't really think I'd like him for him because of his fears. He didn't really open up to me a communicate with me when he got scared, because of those same fears. There was so much distance between me and him for two people who loved each other because his fears refused to let him open up to me in the ways that it was necessary, he would open up to me in some places, and sometimes the door was a bit more closed than open. I grieve that love because it never had a full chance to bloom and to at least try to reach its true potential, all because that man was too scared to just tell me that he loved me

This one that I'm with is not scared to tell me that I mean a lot to him and I do appreciate that but it's more than just that, you can tell me that you trust me but then your words and your actions have to match. You can't say that you trust that I really like you for you but then every minute you're trying to figure out what you need to do to keep me here to keep me interested in you. I've been trying to tell you from the start that I like you for you. And ever since I started to like you more and more, you keep trying to find ways to change who you are to keep me around and the more it happens I have to be honest, the more I'm starting to get turned off by this person. I looked on the Instagram post that said these are five things you need to do to keep your person. The first one was you need to be a whole person, you need to make changes and decisions based on your life first before the other person. If you are not a whole person, you're going to spend time being desperate and chasing your significant others love, which is going to repel them. That's exactly what's happening to me. That's exactly what's always happened to me. I start liking these men, and it's like the more they realize I really do like them for them, they start panicking and trying to do things to impress me, not realizing I was already impressed

I seen something else that said like sometimes some of y'all like the men y'all pick women who don't help you grow and then you're mad at her but that's a different conversation lol. And I really appreciate the fact that she brought that to the light cuz I don't know how to talk about the fact that a lot of times I will settle for men in the moment because I'm just trying to get what I want in that moment whether it's sex or attention or some affection or a little bit of romance. But the truth is a lot of these men don't live up to my standards, and I don't have my standards high enough for somebody of structure and value to want to live up to because, I don't live up to my own standards. So I'm not really looking at somebody to have all the things that I need to have all the time, especially not in the moment. But what I do expect is to be met with understanding patience and compassion, because I do that. If you're somebody that comes with a lot of BS and excuses, and you don't want to take accountability for how you make people feel, you going to have a hard time dealing with me. And you're never going to feel like I am as understanding or patient or compassionate as I truly am, but that's because you always feel the need to put yourself in the slot of well feel bad for me, or I was at a disposition where I couldn't, and sometimes it's all right if you can't but you just got to communicate that. I fall short in that area too, but the difference is, especially whether I'm hit with the truth or I come to the realization myself I'm somebody that likes to realize what I've done and take accountability for the areas I've put myself in. If that's not you, I don't want you around me for real

When I didn't text for about like 10 hours or so and the man freaked out and then had this weird ass comment about random people like I just got so turned off by it cuz I'm just like there's no reason you should be hitting my phone more than three times if I am missing, and also coming at a certain demographic of people just because I'm missing. It like I'm sorry to say it but like it comes off like desperation like he's desperate to be loved and I don't want somebody desperate to be loved. The truth is I am starting to get turned off and seeing his dick don't even excite me no more

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Central Park ; Photographer. Cityxodyssey (instagram)

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Spiciness is happening from all angles rn 🥴🤭🤫😳 I'm very interested to see how things are going to play out

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The underswell of the titty is one of the softest things known to man. I be feeling on mine for no reason (no horny tho)

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He was right, we are indeed wicked

Lmao I'm howling, chillllll

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This man has fallen asleep with my titty in his palm and fingers on my nipples and...

My 😺 won't stop pulsing

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I hate when I see a couple on Instagram or something and and one person page is full of their partner and the other person page is full of like whatever they got going on business-wise but like you never see their partner at all Like why are you not showing off ya shawty, why you hiding your mans, be happily in love, what's going on

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I'mma move out the way

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LMAOOOO Toni said don't let the literature and education fool you, I was outside with the rest of them 😭😭😭 I'm hollering

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Bro there's this one guy who will not leave me alone I am trying to understand what I did to continuously get this unwarranted attention fr

So check me, I'm sick right, so I decide I'm going to like post a bunch of stuff on Instagram ask people random questions and see what comes out of it cuz that's what I like to do when I'm bored, I like to interview the masses cuz I love perspective

From when I first started putting up these poles he was answering, and continued watching my story until at least three to five in the morning, not to mention it's 3:00 a.m. And my SoundCloud keeps getting notifications because the man is now exploring my SoundCloud damn near the witching hour like, bro. Chill.

He's always sending me random pictures of whatever he's doing and he stopped doing that like every here and there he'll do it and then he'll stop and then he sent me a picture of what he made for breakfast and I'm just sitting there like

I have never once expressed interest in you, to the point where I have definitely deflected when you have tried flirting with me in subtle manners, I've never behaved in a manner that would make you think that I share an interest in you unless there is delusion in the mix not to be rude.

Why do you keep sending me stuff? Like I don't know I get it if a man starts stalking my story, you watching all of my story cuz you think I'm cute that makes sense to me but could you at least have some decorum why every time I turn around you're in my notification somewhere, I'm on SoundCloud you're at my notifications I'm on Instagram you full in my notifications, I go on snapchat you're sending me random pictures of your breakfast like yo stop. And I just think it's crazy cuz it's like if I've never responded if every time you send me stuff and send me pictures at least 85% of the time I just open it and don't say anything back you would think he would like be able to see that I'm not interested

Like screw a hint I've known you for a while if I was interested in you you would know by now I would have made it apparent

And I haven't done that and I've known you for at least a good two three something years now maybe even four, so like stop

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Why you even still texting me? Was not supposed to be blocked? Didn't you say that I never understood you? So why are we talking? ✌🏾✌🏾

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Chocolate kitty 🍫😻

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He wanted me to tell him when I left the house any and every time I left the house, so even if I was going down the block to the corner store, I should have said that. Even if I was going to my backyard to go smoke, I should have said that or if I'm going to go walk around the neighborhood and smoke I need to say that too. If I'm going to go hang out with the homies, I need to say that too. If I'm going to go out somewhere with my mother, I need to say that as well. It got to the point for me where I felt like I was being asked to report my every move every time my foot stepped out the door. If I was telling him of my own volition like hey baby I'm going to go here or hey love I'm going to go over there, very different, but I'm being told I need to tell him when I'm leaving any single time I'm leaving and I couldn't help but feel like that was controlling

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