doukeshi-kun

[doukeshi-kun]

[ MDNI / 18+ ]

"come back to bed, baby." every contour of muscle on oda's body screams at you to follow his command, to crawl back into bed and snuggle against him for a while longer—it is a saturday, after all. what rush is there in facing the day?

"why's it so hard to say no to you?" you struggle to hold back the smile oda always gives you as you crawl back onto the bed, but you don't lift the covers, instead straddling him so you can rub his back.

his face is half-buried in the pillow as he eyes you over his shoulder, "gonna give me a massage, sweetie?"

"something like that," you mumble shyly as you drag the covers down, exposing the curve of his ass and his thighs, "you look so good right now, i just want to kiss every inch of you."

"hmm, keep going then," his voice deepens as he inhales sharply, intrigued by where this is going.

and kiss every inch of him, you do—his feet, his calves, his thighs, his ass, every scar, dip, and curve, eventually finding yourself straddling him again as you grind your pussy back and forth against his plump ass.

"ah, fuck- pussy feels so warm against me, baby. you like gettin' yourself off like that, huh?" oda remains in the same position as when you two started, though his cock pressing into the mattress, leaking precum onto the sheets, has him feeling a little restless—he's ready to fuck you for real already, and the slick sound of your pussy sliding against his smooth skin has his eyes practically rolling into the back of his head.

"nnnh, god, feels so good," your palms press into his lower back as you anchor yourself, quite literally getting yourself off by humping your boyfriend. you feel utterly lost in the sensation, in the pure lust you feel dripping off of you for oda as you babble on, eyes screwed shut, "i fucking love your ass, god, i love it. . . it's so soft."

you drench your thumb in saliva before sliding it into your boyfriend's hole, catching you both off guard, the ring of muscle squeezing your digit so tightly it almost makes you cum the instant it slips in. "oh fuck, oh my god, your asshole is so fucking tight, so cute, baby."

"nghh, fuck- i was not expecting this," oda half laughs, half moans as you continue curling your thumb inside him, "keep going, babe, feels really fucking good, makes me wanna fuck you even more."

you want to respond, to tell him how sexy he is, how much you love his figure, how handsome and alluring he is—but you're cumming at the simple sound of his voice and the way his ass ripples with each thrust of your hips.

your little whimpers and whines are enough to have oda coming undone, though he keeps a tight grasp on his willpower just long enough to let you finish riding out your orgasm, hips jutting forward as you spasm.

however, it isn't long before he's flipping you over, wrapping your legs around his waist. "you've had your fun, sweetheart. it's time to cum on my cock, now."

#OH #OH this awaken something #UHMMM YES PLEASE????? #odasaku x reader #道化師-reads❃ུ۪

[doukeshi-kun]

I'm your biggest fan btw.

be bigger. be better! be the air conditioner!!!!!!

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[doukeshi-kun]

@evesoup will u carry me in dbd😞🤟

[doukeshi-kun]

what are some things that darling could do that would get stalker!nikolai pissed off and angry, besides jealousy? the thought of his crazy ass being big mad and scary does things to me… 🤭 almost like i want to provoke him out of spite (and oh..oh… his ukranian accent spilling out!)

if you want to get stalker!nikolai to be big mad and scary, just question his ideal about freedom rudely hdhdjsj oh, and if you have someone bullying you or something, yea he will get angry. but if you want to provoke him out of spite, just compare him to any other men lol

he actually did get angry and pissed of at alex, not only because of 'jealousy'.

#me love some serious nikolai #when nikolai gets serious and solemn and all #i get horny whoops #道化師-says❃ུ۪

[doukeshi-kun]

Just read your first chapter of the new fic, and by heavens, pulled right in. The way you strung your words is beyond all forms of what flattery can or thought to even provide for. Not a single adjective could ever encompass the entirety of this magnificence. Your writing is the embodiment of captivating (*^￢^*)

thank you so much! i honestly think my vocabulary is average at best lmao😭 but i really appreciate it! 🥹🫶 it makes me happy about my effort on thesaurus hdjsjsj

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[doukeshi-kun]

hii! I’ve been an avid follower of your works and have generally been lurking on tumblr every once in a while. I used to write bsd fics/fandom fics in general but now I don’t have the time to do so, but your writing makes me feel so inspired sometimes so it makes me stay in tumblr because I genuinely am curious about what you upload next. So every once in a while when I open up tumblr, your account is the first thing I check. I really love ur fics and I hope you’re doing well irl too (〃ω〃)

thank you so much! i really appreciate it 🩶 i hope you do well too and i wish you all the best shall you ever write again! (⁠✯⁠ᴗ⁠✯⁠)

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[doukeshi-kun]

Everytime I see your works I just want to dip my phone into my cup and drink it

such a healthy drink! yeh! (๑¯ω¯๑)

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[doukeshi-kun]

how many people has nikolai killed, in your opinion? like what is his bodycount 🤔

#道化師-fool❃ུ۪ #bsd nikolai gogol

[doukeshi-kun]

I just saw your account the cherikolya one and realized that you are also doing a kidnapper kolya fic as well!! And because mine is mostly because I got inspired by your stalker au a while back I was wondering if you have any tips specifically for when writing the more darker scenes :3

also you literally made me want to pick up my laptop and start writing again 😭😭

thank you so much! i really appreciate that you're inspired by my fics 🩶🩶🩶

honestly when it comes to writing fics with dark content, i'd just say you gotta be brave lol. fanfiction reddit is typically very helpful tehe

and most importantly, there are still stigmas and judgements around dark-content enjoyers. unfortunately, there is always a risk that you're gonna get nasty comment about your dark fics, even if it's once in a blue moon. just ignore and block them. don't let their opinions block you from writing fics you want

and enjoy writing! :3

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[doukeshi-kun]

bunny fyodor agenda 🐇

[doukeshi-kun]

except nikolai, who do you considere ur fav on bsd??

ayatsuji yukito... i used to like fyodor a lot like he's the number one but now he's kinda lower lolol he's a fascinating character

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[doukeshi-kun]

your newest fic is giving buffalo 66 and im eating it upppp<3

yes! the vibe of the movie is actually what i was inspired by!

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[doukeshi-kun]

i love how your ff titles are always quotes from songs, you’re so witty with it and they fit so well hehe

thank you! it's mainly because i'm very uncreative with fic titles💀

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[doukeshi-kun]

Toji 😈

#BREASTS #BREASTSSSSSS

[doukeshi-kun]

1. 𝐿𝓊𝓍 𝐿𝒾𝒷𝑒𝓇𝓉𝒶𝓈 - A 'Lupus in Fabula' Oneshot

"Light and Liberty." 23 years before the current events. When he's ten years old, Nikolai's ideology slowly begins to take shape and influence the way he views the world.

Starring: Nikolai Gogol

Words: 519

Author's note: This is the first of several oneshots for this AU, each one of them dealing with Nikolai's past instead of the present events.

It was going to rain soon. 

The sun had long disappeared behind the dark wall of clouds inching closer, and the air was heavy and humid. 

Nikolai wiped away the beads of sweat rolling down his forehead, only for new ones to seep through his pores.

His back was damp where he leaned against the tree behind him, but a soft breeze offered temporary relief from the suffocating heat, and Nikolai closed his eyes and imagined soaring high and freely along with the swallows flying in circles above him.

One of Nikolai’s hands found his braid, fidgeting with it. 

By now, the piece of hair had gotten matted, and he ought to cut it off entirely, as any attempt to untangle it was probably going to be futile. 

But he wanted to cherish it for the time being. His sister had braided it for him a while ago, similar to her own hairstyle, so they could match, and for everyone to know that they were two of a kind.

Nevertheless, their symbolized bond couldn’t withstand the influence that their parents had had on her. 

She used to be the one spending hours lying on her back in the unmowed grass of the backyard, watching the birds and listening to their songs, sharing her enthusiasm with her little brother. 

But not long ago, her priorities had taken a sharp turn, and Nikolai was left alone behind the imposing tree, day by day watching the shape of his sister’s silhouette gradually fade away where it had left behind an imprint in the tall grass.

Instead of imagining how it must feel to be one with the wind, to not be bound by gravity, she'd begun to obediently focus on what, according to their parents, really mattered in life.

As if overnight, her schedule was packed with more extracurriculars than Nikolai could keep track of, and the sole evidence that she was at home, was a ‘do not disturb’ sign on her door, which she only removed when going to sleep. 

Nikolai failed to comprehend how she was able to smile and humbly accept the praise she was showered with whenever her hard work had paid off again, like a dog that successfully performed the tricks he’d learned, eager to receive a treat from its master, only to do it all over again.

He had a feeling that, if he didn’t make sure to put up a lot of resistance, they were going to want to condition him just like his sister, and he’d end up being a well-trained pet like her, slowly forgetting what filled his life with meaning and adapting their ideas of a fulfilled life. One that his family could be proud of. 

A ‘take a picture of it, frame it, and put it on the mantel’ kind of life.

Nikolai could feel his chest tighten as he spiraled deep into these thoughts. His skin felt sticky, and the humid air made it hard to breathe.

He looked up to the swallows above him, feeling as though their frantic chirping was meant to be a message just for him. 

#awh this is actually sad :(( #it's very beautiful hio🥺💕 #道化師-reads❃ུ۪ #nikolai gogol x reader

[doukeshi-kun]

[doukeshi-kun]

toji stink man