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The God's Justice

#Quilge opie #bleach #tybw #tw blood

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young Yhwach

#HELLO #yhwach #bleach #this is so good #tybw

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"people in real life: hey man how's it going" is a killer phrase. instantly neutralizes whatever insane discourse you find online. gonna start using that from now on

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アニメージュ1996年7月号 - アニメムック・アニメ雑誌取扱古本屋「アニエッグ古書店」

#Slayers #Lina Inverse

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he could be sooo tequila sunset

#tango i like this so much #khr #xanxus

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Astarion's Ascension - Traditional art (pencils, gold acrylic, PS edit). Sketch here.

You had demons to kill within you screaming With a gun loaded with guilt You opened their eyes [...] Bleed well, the soul you're about to sell For passion deranged [...] Bleed well, the heart you're about to fail For reasons insane Kill and tell Baby, we're bleeding well In hell [...] I heard you weeping And on those words, a church was built To keep the pain in

#not very happy with this but whatever. I can move on to my next wip #as soon as I feel better and got free time #my art #astarion #ascended astarion #ascension ritual #bg3 #ivy's bg 3 era #traditional art #hey blr what the fuk are you doing to my text

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Bold of me to assume I'd be in any condition to finish my wip today after yesterday I almost passed out from burnout.

It's been like this the whole month so the piece is not so great either. If I say I'll wait and just work on it after I feel better then I'll wait forever because it just doesn't get better.

Working on it is frustrating but if I don't, I can only... lay down like a vegetable and go insane or get back to work.

#ivy shitpost #what if i just die already #i don't want to ofc. i want to live better but since i am not allowed to....

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I love how Astarion quotes The Tell-Tale Heart every once in a while. It's a rarer line, and initially I thought it was out of place (Neil is very well versed in theater, so I assumed it was a riff from him), but since reading an analysis of the work I think it was pretty purposeful.

The piece is all about fear and paranoia, things we know Astarion is plagued by despite how he might act. Similarly, the narrator of the story also tries to convince the reader that they are not as troubled as they seem. In the end, the narrator is consumed by the beating of the heart of the old man he killed and dismembered, the sound growing louder and louder until in a fit of rage he reveals the body to the police to absolve himself from the persistent beating.

Except the police never heard the heart beat, because it wasn't the old man's heart at all. The narrator was consumed by the sound of his own heart beating more and more rapidly in his chest from fear. He was the owner of the thing that forced him to reveal his true nature, he is the owner of the tell-tale heart.

And what happens with Astarion after you romance him? He realizes over time that, while he tried to deny his feelings and was initially only interested in manipulating you for his own means, he actually has grown to care for you. You have done something to his heart that hasn't happened in centuries, you have made it feel as if it has started beating again.

Therefore, his tell-tale heart leads him to admit his transgressions, which were committed out of fear and paranoia for his safety.

So the line is actually very, very apt. His confession during Act 2 is his own version of "Villains! Dissemble no more! I admit the deed! Tear up the planks! Here, here! It is the beating of his hideous heart!" Except, of course, it is his own heart that he is unearthing for us (and it's not so hideous, after all).

#astarion #bg3 #interesting #i love that line even more now

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#cat

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I would have rather went to sleep since I got a long week ahead but my brain decided now, at 1:30 a.m. out of all time, to fixate on the new added scene in Bleach. Manga and novel spoilers ahead!

Yhwach took in all his godly centuries life, the pain, the suffering, the fear of death of all the people whose souls he absorbed or returned to him. Along with everything that made their soul, their knowledge and history, their kindness, their anger, everything, good and bad and in between. While being an entity of its own, the son of a divine being, thanks to his intimate connection and condition for living, he can also be considered a mass of souls. Although different than that of arrancars! Anyway, what still seemed to prevail from his intake of humanity, was their fear of death and the negative aspects of death. I can imagine becoming unbearable to ignore the tormented souls, all those feelings and knowledge that become part of his being. Its natural he wanted to do something about it. He wanted to help, he wanted to break the cycle. And he knew there was a time when fear of death didn't existed, because everything was one. And he knew the shinigami had something to do with the separation. And he knew he had the power to do something about it.

Yet how was he treated when he went to the shinigami? Ichibe might have said the truth in that the Soul King was the one to separate the worlds, because he had the power to do it. But what Ichibe then showed Yhwach, the part that Yhwach didn't knew until then, was not part of the Soul King's plan. Separating the world in 3, and life and death is one thing. Being chopped and stripped of everything and reduced to a mindless piece of meat to serve as the linchpin and have some shinigami(s) rule the worlds as they want while pretending they follow the will of god was most likely not part of the plan. How can they pretend to follow the will of god when they themselves stripped him of the power to express his will and sealed him? It is an outrageous farce! And they know not everyone would agree with such a state of the world, nor accept such thing as their god, so they hide it. Some that found out the truth became known as Bleach's villains but who can truly blame them?

There are 2 options. To bow their head and ignore or accept such farce only so the worlds will continue as their are. Because there must have been a reason to divide the worlds in the first place (despite the coup by the shinigami), the damage was done, and there is almost no one that could replace the Soul King, which is unfortunately needed to sustain the worlds.

And second option, to rebel. Either as Aizen, to try and become Soul King, a god with will and voice and everything. Or as Yhwach, to reset the worlds completely, erase the farce with everything. If you ask me, Aizen acted for himself, Yhwach acted for the people. Yhwach truly wanted peace for their souls, peace as a world without these conflicts between the 3 worlds, necessary conflicts to maintain the balance, conflicts born of the current situation like with Aizen, and so on.

Anyway, back to the scene with Ichibe and Yhwach... to be treated so condescending, to have his eyes sealed because his power to see past his lies and manipulation was inconvenient and be told to go live in modesty.... I would probably go rabid with rage! Yhwach held himself so well, going as far as expressing relief that his eyes were sealed so he wouldn't have to endure this any longer.

If having the power to do something about it, why should he accept the humiliation to himself? To his father? To his people? Why should he ignore the cries of the souls that return to him? Why would he cease to exist and leave them behind just so he wouldn't feel them anymore? Why in the knowing of truth would he allow this farce to continue and leave shinigami to rule the worlds as they please?

What is the value of courage of living in a world like that? Despite all...

Isn't this the message of the series? I have mixed feelings about it but I'll leave that for another post, along with a 3rd option I thought of.

#bleach thoughts #to live in a lie or to die in the truth. which is more important? #tybw spoilers #cfyow spoilers #yhwach #i still have additional thoughts but...so tired sigh

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why do i end up sitting straight up in my sleep. ignore how many blankets I use.

#the way i had to look twice to notice is not about layers of the Earth

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#wish someone would just give me a number at this point

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Sharing this here too

I do not usually make posts like this but recently I have seen a lot of content on Instagram, Twitter and I think tiktok too misunderstanding the meaning of intrusive thoughts, which may cause people experiencing them to be upset.

I have tried to shortly explain the difference of impulsive and intrusive and hope it will help people to understand and use the words correctly.

Reblogs are very much appreciated!

#important #i get intrusive thoughts #they are terrifying #and sometimes make me feel sick viscerally #please dont say your impulsive thoughts are intrusive #<- kept tags because same #and they are always about hurting myself #so i also get scared my hand might slip #i drop everything and just stay still until it passes

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OP turned off reblogs

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Changing my belief system from "this is the hill I'll die on" to "this is the hill I'll kill you on" has done absolute wonders for me 10/10 do recommend

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#went with cheerful but so many others fit just as well #poll