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Apirin, Ibuprofen tylenol

800 mg should do for ibuprofen

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Need to find some meds thag i can od on

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Killing myself this month i hope

Maybe april ifbtheres some stuff i want to get over with

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Im sk pathetic

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Nevermidn i fuess. Just had to say allt hat to him

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Lol hi i have a new zest for life

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The fact that i have to write a suicide note is tje owrst part. Well maybe that my tombstone will have my desdnsme is worse

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All this suffering for nothing. Years of this for nothing.

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Apparently he wont even come in march so whatever. Nothing to look forward to anymore. Ill OD on the pain killers

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when will i realize that my life isnt and is never gonna be some sort of hurt/comfort fanfic where everything im me magically heals when i meet my special person. nothing will heal me- no person, meds, therapy, treatment, nothing. im going to be like this forever.

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[ID text — The desire to be sicker, to prove that you are sick, itself is indicative of sickness. A well person does not desire to be sick]

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Or maybe end of april

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I want to hold on until march at least idk

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I got at least 4 more weeks. Unless im able to get spare pain killers in case i pussy out lol

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I domt care about anything anymore amd kts starting to show

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I fucningbage my mom i fucning hate her. Im always playinf the victim? I AM THE FUXNING VICRIM. THIS CLULSVE BEEN OREVENTED. Somekne coukdve stopped this. nobody fuxking cares wnough to help me.

I want tk kill msyelf wveey waking mkment of my life. But “i dont try to get better” whats rhe fucning point. Ive tried. Little me tried. He reied so hard. He tried to get attenrion no maytwe the fucking cost. I was so young.

It doesnt matter. Ive tried to stay alive becahae i wanted to be remembered. I wont. The world will forget me im nothing special. Im lower than dirt and treated such