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[divinelyvile]

BTD and TPOF community beware.

Hello, everyone! I start this off to say to NOT send these users any hate or threats, to simply block and continue to make our community safer. Cw for Underage NSFW -- Recently, a very good friend of mine accepted a commission from @//b0urbonstreet - of their oc. At the time, my friend was UNAWARE of this oc's age, as they trusted the commissioner let alone the community we're all in. It was later revealed by a 3rd source that this character is underage, which also violated the Artist's ToS. This was openly admitted in B0urbon's Carrd & images they've posted on twitter of this character having relationships with The Announcer/Fox who is 40+:

Both B0urbon and @//amm0sexual (Their wife) created NSFW art including this minor and another on their twitter. Here is the 2nd minor and blurred nsfw of said characters as well as blatant disregard of Gato's "no minor" wishes:

This is also not the first time they've drawn underage characters in nsfw situations with BTD/TPOF characters, mainly Ren Hana:

Now, the Artist B0urbon commissioned was quickly made aware of this and a 3rd party source went to a moderator in the Patreon server belonging to GatoBob - where they were promptly banned. Unfortunately, some anon's did come through to them with disgust. B0urbon is currently lying about Mika ever being a minor, but is also defending their and their wife's actions; which conflicts the carrd's info and a previous post they made (see above, 2nd image.)

They have since (both B0urbon and Amm0) edited their carrds's to remove Mika and Myra's ages to protect themselves. GatoBob herself has denounced this situation by a public announcement in her patreon server:

In general, this behavior is unacceptable, disgusting, and not welcome in our community! Remember: We're sexualizing adults, not children. This post is to spread awareness of these two, not to cause bullying or hate. Please stay safe out there! Tumblr's: @//b0urbonstreet & @//amm0sexual Twitters: https://twitter.com/B0URBONSTREET & https://twitter.com/AMM0SEXUAL

[divinelyvile]

"I hate my work, but I'm in control

I'm fearless now, but it cost my soul"

[divinelyvile]

This is a really good apology imo

I'd like to apologize for the permanent closure of my Patreon discord server and for the change in plans for sound design in my upcoming YKMET:Strade game.

TLDR version: I have found that running a discord community is too much work and stress to carry along with game development and running my store. Running a server is a full time job that I am not fit for and do not have the resources for.

Unfortunately, Barbatus has decided to cut ties with me and the project, and will no longer be providing the music/sound design for YKMET. I'm very sorry for the loss of quality the game will suffer without his work. Please do not bother him about this, he is fully within his rights to decide what projects he contributes to and who he associates with. I will do my best to purchase fitting royalty free music and sounds for the game.

I will continue to work on the game.

Long version, if you need more details:

What happened in the server:

For a long time, lots of people have disagreed with how I handled disputes. I often took a long time to decide, or let both sides talk at length about their feelings. This led to a lot of discomfort.

As the community within the server grew, more disputes took place. People became upset that moderation was not keeping up with the growth, and also upset with moderators for not meeting expectations.

Recently, the server erupted into a large fight about how much negativity and venting was taking place. I failed to stop the negativity because I was obsessed with helping people with their problems. I realize now that my tendency to try and fix everything for everyone was completely out of control. It was egotistical.

At the same time, the fight was making me extremely stressed. I have a diagnosed anxiety disorder that makes adrenaline flood my system during an anxiety attack. It can get to the point where I suffer from the effects like a poisoning.

I was absolutely not in the correct frame of mind to be trying to trying to fix the situation, or even to be talking to anyone. 

A couple of people sent me very long 7 paragraph messages privately on Patreon, very angry at how I have been mishandling the situation and the server. While they were generally correct, I took it personally and got really defensive.

I freaked out and replied very poorly. I was emotional and unprofessional.

My replies were screen capped and used on twitter to make a callout post, then circulated around, kind of just exacerbating the situation as much as possible.

This is around the time that Barbatus told me that he no longer wishes to be part of the project or associate with me.

From that point on, things were mostly calm, until the full deletion of the server- 9:00am MSTJanuary 25 2024.

Please don't mistake this event as 'what caused the server deletion' however. As I have told others, it was merely a drop in a bucket that was already overflowing. Just another symptom of something that needed to change a long time ago.

My person feelings about the situation:

I realize now that it was a mistake to leave the server open after its initial purpose [ beta testing for TPOF ] had been fulfilled. I've struggled before on the internet for years to find a peaceful balance with how much of myself I personally share online. Several years ago, I realized that I had been using the internet to fill a void created by my own deep loneliness, engaging in parasocial relationships with my followers.

I thought I had learned my lesson then, but the pleasant and delightful community in my beta testing server filled me with delusions that "I could handle it this time". I was wrong, of course.

I loved that server. I loved talking with everyone, hearing about their lives, and sharing mine. But that love wasn't healthy. Even in the joyful best of times, I was constantly surrounded by praise and attention, borderline worship. This is not healthy.

I let my addiction to that attention lead us all further and further into the dangers of parasocial relationships. I knew that perfection was expected of me, and instead of getting out of that situation I said 'I can be perfect for them'. Of course I couldn't. I was being delusional, as I have done many times before in toxic relationships from my past.

My work's popularity has grown to a size where I can no longer safely put myself emotionally out there. My real self needs to live in the real world now. It's time to sever my last personal tie on the internet and only post for my work.

What is going to change going forward:

I will no longer be hosting a discord server, nor will I be using my social media accounts for anything but work [ that's already pretty much the case, so people who weren't in the server honestly probably won't notice much difference ]

Final thoughts:

I've heard people say "I really like how you actually interact with your community" and I'm very sorry to have to stop. 

I also just want to profusely and deeply apologize for my failures. I'm sorry for leaving the server open after beta testing and creating this ticking time bomb. I'm sorry for the way I handled disputes and how afraid I always was to 'take sides'. I'm sorry for my behaviour during the server meltdown. I'm embarrassed and ashamed. I'm sorry for creating this thing that people came to love so fiercely, and then taking it away. I'm sorry for putting all of you who suffered into this position and exposing you to this toxicity.

I will continue with my work on YKMET:Strade. I will pour my freed up time and energy into my work, where it should have been in the first place. And I will find more time for myself as well, with hobbies and a life outside this all.

I hope the community will continue to find peace and joy with each other. Please care for each other and give each other grace.

[divinelyvile]

I'd like to apologize for the permanent closure of my Patreon discord server and for the change in plans for sound design in my upcoming YKMET:Strade game.

TLDR version: I have found that running a discord community is too much work and stress to carry along with game development and running my store. Running a server is a full time job that I am not fit for and do not have the resources for.

Unfortunately, Barbatus has decided to cut ties with me and the project, and will no longer be providing the music/sound design for YKMET. I'm very sorry for the loss of quality the game will suffer without his work. Please do not bother him about this, he is fully within his rights to decide what projects he contributes to and who he associates with. I will do my best to purchase fitting royalty free music and sounds for the game.

I will continue to work on the game.

Long version, if you need more details:

What happened in the server:

For a long time, lots of people have disagreed with how I handled disputes. I often took a long time to decide, or let both sides talk at length about their feelings. This led to a lot of discomfort.

As the community within the server grew, more disputes took place. People became upset that moderation was not keeping up with the growth, and also upset with moderators for not meeting expectations.

Recently, the server erupted into a large fight about how much negativity and venting was taking place. I failed to stop the negativity because I was obsessed with helping people with their problems. I realize now that my tendency to try and fix everything for everyone was completely out of control. It was egotistical.

At the same time, the fight was making me extremely stressed. I have a diagnosed anxiety disorder that makes adrenaline flood my system during an anxiety attack. It can get to the point where I suffer from the effects like a poisoning.

I was absolutely not in the correct frame of mind to be trying to trying to fix the situation, or even to be talking to anyone. 

A couple of people sent me very long 7 paragraph messages privately on Patreon, very angry at how I have been mishandling the situation and the server. While they were generally correct, I took it personally and got really defensive.

I freaked out and replied very poorly. I was emotional and unprofessional.

My replies were screen capped and used on twitter to make a callout post, then circulated around, kind of just exacerbating the situation as much as possible.

This is around the time that Barbatus told me that he no longer wishes to be part of the project or associate with me.

From that point on, things were mostly calm, until the full deletion of the server- 9:00am MSTJanuary 25 2024.

Please don't mistake this event as 'what caused the server deletion' however. As I have told others, it was merely a drop in a bucket that was already overflowing. Just another symptom of something that needed to change a long time ago.

My person feelings about the situation:

I realize now that it was a mistake to leave the server open after its initial purpose [ beta testing for TPOF ] had been fulfilled. I've struggled before on the internet for years to find a peaceful balance with how much of myself I personally share online. Several years ago, I realized that I had been using the internet to fill a void created by my own deep loneliness, engaging in parasocial relationships with my followers.

I thought I had learned my lesson then, but the pleasant and delightful community in my beta testing server filled me with delusions that "I could handle it this time". I was wrong, of course.

I loved that server. I loved talking with everyone, hearing about their lives, and sharing mine. But that love wasn't healthy. Even in the joyful best of times, I was constantly surrounded by praise and attention, borderline worship. This is not healthy.

I let my addiction to that attention lead us all further and further into the dangers of parasocial relationships. I knew that perfection was expected of me, and instead of getting out of that situation I said 'I can be perfect for them'. Of course I couldn't. I was being delusional, as I have done many times before in toxic relationships from my past.

My work's popularity has grown to a size where I can no longer safely put myself emotionally out there. My real self needs to live in the real world now. It's time to sever my last personal tie on the internet and only post for my work.

What is going to change going forward:

I will no longer be hosting a discord server, nor will I be using my social media accounts for anything but work [ that's already pretty much the case, so people who weren't in the server honestly probably won't notice much difference ]

Final thoughts:

I've heard people say "I really like how you actually interact with your community" and I'm very sorry to have to stop. 

I also just want to profusely and deeply apologize for my failures. I'm sorry for leaving the server open after beta testing and creating this ticking time bomb. I'm sorry for the way I handled disputes and how afraid I always was to 'take sides'. I'm sorry for my behaviour during the server meltdown. I'm embarrassed and ashamed. I'm sorry for creating this thing that people came to love so fiercely, and then taking it away. I'm sorry for putting all of you who suffered into this position and exposing you to this toxicity.

I will continue with my work on YKMET:Strade. I will pour my freed up time and energy into my work, where it should have been in the first place. And I will find more time for myself as well, with hobbies and a life outside this all.

I hope the community will continue to find peace and joy with each other. Please care for each other and give each other grace.

[divinelyvile]

Hello. I’m sorry for begging again but my situation is pretty dire.

Recently, I’ve been diagnosed with chronic kidney disease, stage 4. It came out of nowhere and was caught by sheer luck on an unrelated test. Stage four means my kidneys are shriveled up and almost dead - currently at only 17% working condition. When it drops to 10%, which is stage 5 (prognosis is within a year) I will require a kidney transplant and/or dialysis. You can not live without it, and prognosis for dialysis/kidney transplant patients are 10 to 20 years. I’m very young and I really would like to continue having a peaceful life and work on my art. I’ve had many hardships before - I’ve fundraised to get money for rent because of a homophobic attack I’ve suffered, I’ve fundraised to escape my country, all within 2-3 years. I’m really grateful for all the help I’ve gotten and I believe in people’s kindness.

Please, if you’re able, share or pitch in to my gfm campaign made by my fiancé. Link in the reblog.

My comms are also still open if you’d like to help in that way and get some art.

[divinelyvile]

BTD and TPOF community beware.

Hello, everyone! I start this off to say to NOT send these users any hate or threats, to simply block and continue to make our community safer. Cw for Underage NSFW -- Recently, a very good friend of mine accepted a commission from @//b0urbonstreet - of their oc. At the time, my friend was UNAWARE of this oc's age, as they trusted the commissioner let alone the community we're all in. It was later revealed by a 3rd source that this character is underage, which also violated the Artist's ToS. This was openly admitted in B0urbon's Carrd & images they've posted on twitter of this character having relationships with The Announcer/Fox who is 40+:

Both B0urbon and @//amm0sexual (Their wife) created NSFW art including this minor and another on their twitter. Here is the 2nd minor and blurred nsfw of said characters as well as blatant disregard of Gato's "no minor" wishes:

This is also not the first time they've drawn underage characters in nsfw situations with BTD/TPOF characters, mainly Ren Hana:

Now, the Artist B0urbon commissioned was quickly made aware of this and a 3rd party source went to a moderator in the Patreon server belonging to GatoBob - where they were promptly banned. Unfortunately, some anon's did come through to them with disgust. B0urbon is currently lying about Mika ever being a minor, but is also defending their and their wife's actions; which conflicts the carrd's info and a previous post they made (see above, 2nd image.)

They have since (both B0urbon and Amm0) edited their carrds's to remove Mika and Myra's ages to protect themselves. GatoBob herself has denounced this situation by a public announcement in her patreon server:

In general, this behavior is unacceptable, disgusting, and not welcome in our community! Remember: We're sexualizing adults, not children. This post is to spread awareness of these two, not to cause bullying or hate. Please stay safe out there! Tumblr's: @//b0urbonstreet & @//amm0sexual Twitters: https://twitter.com/B0URBONSTREET & https://twitter.com/AMM0SEXUAL

[divinelyvile]

Because they keep posting in the main tags...

Reminder that b0urbonstreet and amm0sexual ship their underaged ocs with TPOF/BTD canons and have drawn porn of said underaged ocs (and in b0urbon's case, drawing porn, including fucking VORE, of Love Live characters). B0urbon also went out of their way to commission someone for art of their oc with Fox without telling the artists that their oc was 15 years old.

This is a direct violation of Gatobob's desires as the creator of BTD/TPOF and also really just fuckin despicable. When initially called out b0urbon would have a meltdown that devolved into "well if I'm a creep for drawing child porn, you're all creeps because you like gore/rape in your horror games!" which is a false equivalence that comes up a TON with people like them. There is a distinct difference between enjoying horror content with sexual or gorey elements and drawing a child getting railed by grown men.

Also! Their profile pictures are cropped porn involving these underaged ocs, and they both use Gatobob's works as a means to make money after going against her wishes for the kind of content that the fandom produces by making (arguably kind of shitty) charms and keychains of TPOF characters. Amm0 also managed to fucking whitewash an already white character which while not nearly as bad as the rest of the shit they've is honestly just kind of telling about who they are as a creator.

I do not condone harassment, however the fact these two keep trying to make a platform for themselves in the community after the shit they've done (and the fact some people allow them to IN SPITE OF WHAT THEY'VE DONE or outright support their actions) is disheartening. We shouldn't let the community so willingly host people like this - not even just on the moral ground of the fact that sexualizing kids is bad actually, but because they've both gone against Gato's wishes.

[divinelyvile]

•born in death•

character belongs to @gatobob

[divinelyvile]

he ate my heart

Fox belong to @/gatobob

[divinelyvile]

why he ourple tho.

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does this post make sense??? is it comprehensible???

[divinelyvile]

Twt doesn't give me love me but ik my pookies from Tumblr do 😚💓

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I was going to fix the anatomy and clean it up but considering this was from 2021(?) I don't have the heart to change it.

My old drawings holds a lot of memories for me.

Enjoy sketch of himbo 👏

#five nights at freddy's #fnaf fanart #fnaf movie #fnaf #springtrap #fnafnsfw #speingtrap nsfw #fivenightsatfreddysfanart #fnaf art #fnafart #art #william afton

[divinelyvile]

Twt isnt giving me love but ik my tumblr pookies got me <3

"How can I lose if I'm already chose? Like... If she feeling hot, then I make that bitch froze."

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A bit of old sketches

[divinelyvile]

Twt isnt giving me love but ik my tumblr pookies got me <3

"How can I lose if I'm already chose? Like... If she feeling hot, then I make that bitch froze."

[divinelyvile]

Playing for Keeps (Strade/MC/Tate Frost ficlet)

Don't perceive me I just wanna be smashed between two great sets of man titties and fat bellies.

Strade belongs too @gatobob

Tate Frost belongs to @bileshroom

my love for fat hairy men with great tits belongs to ME.

Contains: AFAB reader, gender neutral pronouns, Strade, Tate Frost, Dub-Con, Double Penetration, implied/mentioned drunk sex

How did you end up in this situation?

You gave a small squeak as the two men closed in, glaring daggers at each other.

"Sorry, *sugar*" the larger man grabbed your arm, pulling you against him. The pet name was directed at the other man though, who had a stiff smile on his face. "I saw them first. You'll have to go find another little bunny to eat."

The shorter man stepped closer, and you swallowed, your face growing bright red. His hand rested on your thigh, giving it a harsh squeeze as he met the taller mans gaze evenly.

"My apologies, *freund*, but I think I'm still gonna take them from you. Maybe *you* should find someone else to have fun with."

You should be wrestling your way out, you should be crying for help. But all you can think of is the two soft chests and chubby bellies rubbing against you as the two men get in eachothers faces.... with you stuck between.

One hand squeezes your thigh again while the other moves to your chest. You can't help it.

You let your face fall forward into the shorter mans chest as you let out a pathetic moan. A moan that makes both of them stop and look down at you.

The larger one with longer hair looks bemused, while the shorter man's face splits into a wide grin and he laughs.

"Look at that! I think they like us both... tell you what... Maybe, for their sake... we can all have a little fun out here." He rubs at the front of his crotch to bring his point home.

The larger man lets out a low whistle, then digs out a few playing cards.

"fine, but we're gonna play for who gets first pick of holes." As they both stepped back, you fell to the ground, knees shaking, breath trembling.

"Go on, Schatz. Undress while me and my new buddy figure out who's using what." The shorter man growled with a german accent.

"Sit tight, little rabbit, I'll be stuffing your cunt with my cock soon enough."

.

.

.

.

.

You definitely should have ran the moment they stepped away from you.

But god you were pent up, it'd been ages since you had sex, and the moment two big sexy men expressed interest in you it was all over."

Cards hadn't gone well. The larger man, who you learned to be called Tate, was a sore loser. So the other man, Strade, offered another solution.

Tate had easily lifted your naked body up, pressed against him with your legs spread for both of them to have access.

You should have protested, said there was no way. But here you were, squirming and panting in an old alley way as two incredibly thick cocks pushed their way inside you. It hurt, it made your body revolt in the most gut wrenching way possible.

You wanted more, a fuck drunk smile on your stupid face as they built up a rhythm, absolutely ruining your hole.

"I think they like my cock more." Tate grunted, "listen to those pretty moans."

"You can believe whatever you want, *Buddy*" Strade grinned, hair falling in front of his face as he began to thumb your clit.

You were pathetic. You were such a whore. It was humiliating and dehumanizing. You couldn't get enough.

One hand curled into Tates wild mane of hair while the other rested on Strades chest, trying to find balance as the two men sloppily held you up.

You didn't know if you had cum or not, all you knew was that it was hot continuous pleasure that shook you too your core and made you beg for more, pleading for them not to stop.

And when they came, messily filling your insides up, making you feel like you were about to pop. You hung limp in Tates grip as they both pulled out, Tate giving a few more thrusts with his softening cock before letting the mix of both mens cum and your fluids slop out of you, hitting the ground with a gross splattering noise.

"So. We never decided." Tate panted, leaning in to nibble your ear. "Who's taking them home?"

Strade hummed, tucking his cock back into his pants, before snapping his fingers.

"tell you what Buddy, I like you. I got a good stash of beer at home, lets go hang out there... and see how many drinks it takes for them to start slobbering over our cocks."

Tate chuckled, setting you down on shaking legs.

"Sounds good to me, I could go for a warm mouth right now. Especially when its been warmed up by a case of beer..."

[divinelyvile]

Twt isnt giving me love but ik my tumblr pookies got me <3

"How can I lose if I'm already chose? Like... If she feeling hot, then I make that bitch froze."