[Nyx / 23 / bi / pan / ace]. they/them and she/her in order of preference. shameless kirumi tojo and sayaka maizono apologist. also have OSDD and autism.
i've spent a while with this document because after a therapy session, i felt it was a good idea to come out with exactly the ways in which orion abused and hurt me and others. they've been doing it for years, silencing those who spoke out against them and getting others, including their other victims, including me, to do the same.
maybe i'll be silenced as well, maybe i deserved it for what i did in their name. but i've made up my mind that i have to try. if i can save even one person from them, then whatever people do to me back will be worth it.
The secret to the full game in Twilight Syndrome Murder Case was originally Japanese wordplay. Instead of just "Down five", it said "ごかいした", which can be read two different ways. If read as "誤解した", it means "you misunderstood". However, if read "五回下", it means "go down five times".
*ごかいした, 誤解した, and 五回下, can all be read as "gokaishita", which is why it can be confusing to interpret the meaning.
Everyone has the potential to fall victim to being indoctrinated into a cult. Anyone can be sexually assaulted. Anyone can become a victim of an abusive relationship. Yes, even if you're intelligent and strong willed. Yes, even if you think you're tough and "don't take shit from anyone".
If you've never found yourself as the victim of a cult, or sexual assault, or abuse, the only thing separating you from people who have been victimized by cults / sexual assault / abuse is circumstance. That's it. Sheer luck. Luck over what family you were born into. Luck over who you were surrounded by when you were emotionally compromised or in any way vulnerable. Ect.
You are not better than people who have been victimized. They didn't do anything wrong to ask to be victimized. Anyone can be victimized by these situations given the perfect storm of circumstances. You are not better than people who have been victimized by cults / sexual assault / abuse.
You need to understand that if you are lucky enough to have never been victimized by cults / sexual assault / abuse, it's very little to do with how smart or strong you are or you doing all the "right" things. Someone can be smart and strong and do all the right things and still find themselves a victim given the perfect storm of bad circumstances.
The sooner this can be understood, the sooner we can do away with victim blaming culture. And the sooner we can do away with victim blaming culture the sooner atrocities like cults, sexual assault, and abuse can stop being so prolific. Victim blaming culture allows these atrocities to thrive. And they will continue to thrive until we shift the blame to where it rightfully belongs.
theres this horrid assumption in the fashion industry that the only people on the planet that want to wear cool boots and shoes are women and that the only women that want to wear these cool as fuck boots and shoes have really small feet. they dont make cool shoes for those like me who were born with larger feet and its so annoying and makes shoe shopping a gigantic pain. i can theoretically find cool shoes but it requires an enormous amount of effort especially when the styles i want to wear just dont exist in "mens" sizes. anyway we need to make bigger shoes end of rant