cranegirlfriend

[cranegirlfriend]

i feel like my younger sister thinks she has the experiences of an eldest daughter. just bc you’re tina and i’m louise does not mean that i don’t bear the weight of our family!!

[cranegirlfriend]

not embarrassed of my genuine earnestness as much as i’m embarrassed of the times i have feigned obsession in order to feel something

[cranegirlfriend]

thinking about when a man was freaked out by all the love playlists i was making when we had been on two dates but i was actually just taking a gummy and fantasizing abt a life completely separate from the one i was in every night

[cranegirlfriend]

wait being medicated has changed my life so significantly i forgot i used to think about things that happened and scream from horror and embarrassment like on a regular basis

[cranegirlfriend]

i feel like i’m having a good mental health day because i saw blood and thought it was icky instead of the only thing that makes sense

[cranegirlfriend]

my bf and i have been together two years and i’m so deep in love like i feel like we’ve had this resurgence the last couple of months where i’m just like holy shit we’re going to be this in love forever. but also i had a really bad night ln and i feel the beginning far away footsteps of my eating disorder and it feels scary that he’s never seen that.

[cranegirlfriend]

my ex reblogging something that says “you will look for me in another person. i promise” like yeah bro i am constantly terrified i am missing the early signs of emotional abuse bc i missed them with you. if someone likes a song you like, i’m scared that’s the song men who yell at me love like i rly am constantly looking for you. over my fucking shoulder.

[cranegirlfriend]

never forget when i ubered away from a boy’s house bc i realized i was in love with another boy and the second boy had to drive me back to my car at the first guys house the next day

[cranegirlfriend]

have to convince myself i’m endearing and lovable otherwise i’m definitely the worst.

[cranegirlfriend]

pls don’t watch my stories if we’ve slept together. i can’t stop thinking abt how embarrassed i am that u exist and also i get sad ur gonna die bc we had period sex

[cranegirlfriend]

need to quit my job where my managers are annoying and gaslighty and live in a field

[cranegirlfriend]

cringing so hard at the latter days of my alcoholism

[cranegirlfriend]

tonight he grabbed my face while he played sweet child of mine and it was so cute i’m in love

[cranegirlfriend]

my cats name is joan of arc but i think it’s so funny to call her jonifer jason leigh

[cranegirlfriend]

circumstances have caused me to flee my home with my boyfriend and cats and i cannot believe how supportive he’s been. he packed all of our essentials and everything for the cats and loaded it into the car and unloaded it. i can’t believe how supported and loved i feel. it’s unfathomable and warm and in the wake of the scariest thing that’s ever happened to me i’ve never felt safer.

[cranegirlfriend]

me literally abt to google how to not let it ruin your day that your boyfriend is w his friend and didn’t want to come home immediately when you called and instead would be home in 20 min.

[cranegirlfriend]

what does it mean if i have a dream that my mom has a party for all the boys i’ve dated and their families and the boy i maybe loved the most before my current bf gave me a beautiful bracelet with purple and green accents and a big heart and somehow it plays a slideshow of our best moments together. even though the things i saw on video never actually happened. and then i had a really bad frustrating time with my roommate at an amusement park but we saw the place my ex lived and he shared one room with his parents and siblings. and then i found my boyfriend flirting with a bunch of young girls and i almost fought an 18 year old that looked 13