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Op has said that it's not just his account that got suspended but many other people around him as well

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someone said we had more fun in childhood because we didnt have any past memories to linger on and it has stuck with me ever since

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Kids these days don't know what the fuck a liminal space is anymore but they use it to describe fucking EVERYTHING.

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Nasty little guy PNGs, part 2.

(1. Wooden dog, 2. Steiff hippo, 3. Ceramic sun sculpture, 4. Dog sculpture by Kouichi Maekawa, 5. Relief from 4th-3rd c. BCE, 6. Grace Drayton dog, 7. Guardian dog, 8. Jellycat turtle plushie, 9. Fish sculpture by Stig Lindberg)

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The fact that this man manages to be more evasive than NEIL ABRAM JOSTEN even in his own POV is amazing. Truly astonishing levels of avoidance going on here

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me : oh lookey another one guys *picks up a half smoked cigarette off the ground *

the group of unimaginably beautiful women who follow me around every where and refuse to leave me alone: great find handsome❤

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Volcano Eruptions seen from Space photos: NASA

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Go hit the gym!

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I love how the perfect court kind of haunts the narrative in aftg. How it exists in varying capacities as something tangible in numbers inked on skin and as an abstract concept that varies between persons.

Because what is the perfect court?

A childhood dream of sorts between Riko and Kevin. A chance for two lost boys to be something great, an opportunity to not be alone. And besides, what young athlete doesn't grow up wanting to go pro, to be the best? Innocent at first, until it isn't.

It's a calculated experiment by Tetsuji. A way to prove he's worth his family name, to contribute to the Moriyama empire. A way to earn his place, his keep. To be something. The creation of exy isn't enough, he needs to make invaluable assets — and using children seen as threats and throwaways to the family is the perfect use of resources.

And maybe any shred of recognition or basic respect Tetsuji gets for this, Riko yearns for. The Perfect Court becomes an obsession as he spirals deeper into desperation and rage the more he realizes it will never be enough. It becomes a source of power he can hold over people.

The Perfect Court isn't about talent. It’s about potential.

The potential of Kevin that led to the Moriyamas having Kayleigh murdered, the potential of a 10-year-old Nathaniel that was being evaluated, the potential of a 14-year-old Jean Moreau to be worth the debt his parents owed. Even the potential for Riko to be molded by his uncle into something useful to the family.

Four yakuza assets turned into exy stars solely for their potential as children with no rights to their lives or futures.

However, Andrew and Neil are proof that Kevin still believes in the childish dream of the perfect court in some way. That to him, it will always be about the game.

Kevin sought Andrew out because of the goalie's talent, not as part of some backwards deal. And how fitting it is that Andrew denies the Ravens. That whatever autonomy Andrew gained, he keeps with the decision.

Because the perfect court was never about talent, it was about control, power and prestige.

And Kevin also rediscovers Neil by chance based on skill. Neil who spent his childhood on the run obsessing over the perfect court. Neil who was angry at and jealous of Kevin despite everything. Neil who wondered if he would've been good enough if his mother didn't run with him.

Kevin somehow ends up on a team with the two unmarked numbers of the perfect court (that is, unmarked until Riko exercises what power he has over Neil). Three acts of defiance against the perfect court that lingers throughout each of their stories.

Because what happens if Andrew said yes to the Ravens? What happens if Mary never ran with Nathaniel? What happens if Kevin stayed?

Everything can be traced back to some variation of the perfect court concept, no matter how you see it. It all leads to Riko's own downfall.

And that's without taking Jean into account.

Jean fully believes in the perfect court as a measure of talent, and it's because it means he has value at least somewhere after being stripped of everything else. His life was used to pay a debt and the number on his face means he has worth.

And as he tries to find his footing to survive in a world without Riko and outside of the Nest's cruelty, the idea of the perfect court grounds him in some twisted way. Because for so long, his value was placed solely on his playing ability.

The Perfect Court is a dream, an experiment, a fallacy, a gilded cage, a ghost lingering in the doorway whispering 'you are worth something'

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im not a very patriotic woman but i nonetheless whole-heartedly support every drive-through employee’s constitutional right to be blazed out of their fuckin gourd

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it’s just me and my irrelevant blog against the world

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he's so silly I can't omg