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i accidentally logged into the wrong account again. hiiii

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squints. you guys know im not here anymore right. like i have just learned i have some new followers - why?? im not here!!

#did i have a talk tag. i dont remember

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^-^ okkkk im confusedhost archive now ! bye waves at u

#u know my new blog name dont worru about it

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ok!!! new blog is @eyelessfog

#lycan lore

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I’m not running or anytnig i just hate everything ive done w this blog so i’m just redoing it

what if i remade 👀 <- said as i literally start remaking rn

#i'll post what my new blog is later #when its done & all that

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what if i remade 👀 <- said as i literally start remaking rn

#lycan lore #^-^ im keeping all my sideblogs but the main is gonna be remade

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hearing hades from hadestown’s voice for the first time is like “it cant be thatt deep.” to “OH. ITS DEEPER ACTUALLY.”

#lycan lore

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well what if SHES bald bisexual and pushing fifty. what then.

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i just found 12 bricks

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“But oh, baby, you taste like poison,”

#idk what the caption is referencing. i made it up on the spot #luriart #phos #lotl #phosphophillyte #hnk #umumumum.... something something about how sometimes people leave bad tastes on your tongue #ummmm this one is a joke about how phos leaves a bad taste on. ppl's tongues in general but the poisonous one is cinnabar #like ok ! who do u want this 2 be about ! is it literal or metaphorical? did they explore each others mouths or !! <- joke #land of the lustrous #houseki no kuni

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“Anger is like water,”

That’s not the comparison you’ve heard

“Anger is like fire,”

everyone else says

“Smoking, growing, roaring hot,”

“Fire.”

But to me, anger is like water

It’s always there, never dead

Just calm.

And like a stone throw,

it ripples.

And another rock

another stone

a bigger wave

and then it crashes,

and it breaks,

and there’s a flood over the dam

leaking out of my eyes,

tears down my cheeks

tsunami in my eyes

whip on my tongue

You think i look pathetic

because you have always connected water with weak

fire with rage

But my water is pulling back

back

back

and you will turn away because my water is gone and all you have is dry land

and all of me will consume you at once

#lycan lore #ummmmm crying & anger & ummm. burning & stuff intrigues me. i forgot what my anger felt like for a while #LITERALLY DONT EVEN WORRY THO BAHAHAH #this was like. a couple minutes bit of anger i just like. 'oh yeah thats what thats like!!' #im suuper exagerating. i like being poetic ^-^

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land of the lustrous is interesting. I don’t believe I’ve ever come across something that invokes and requests such hatred for characters. It starts similarly to any other - there are antagonists, and there are protagonists and there are ones you are obviously meant to hate because they are the villains, and ones you are obviously meant to hate because they are mean. And there are ones you are obviously supposed to love because they are the good guys and ones you are obviously supposed to love because they are nice.

And then it builds.

It’s not just everyone becoming more complicated. But some of it is. It’s not loving because they are good, it’s loving because they are good despite everything they want, everything they wish for. The hate will always seem superficial though, won’t it? With villains you can never connect to, just beings that grab and break and never give their reasons?

And then you learn.

These beings above aren’t doing it for much. They don’t even care for the gems at all. The pain of everything that happens on the earth seems so small to them because they don’t care - they never have. The gems are just inconsequential little tools that he got attached to, and are simply the lunarians’ to pull away. They aren’t beings, no, no, just a way to apply punishment to him. All of it for him.

When it’s put like that, no wonder they hate him. But he loved them, and he protected them, and he did his best. He was not - is not perfect. How could he be?

And then they hate him. And to the reader, it makes no sense? Certainly they could not hate him for his existence [but they do. Of course they do. They have been through too much that they can consider his fault]. And it feels unfair. So we hate them because we could never hate him. And they notice how no one else is really on their side. Because they - just like us - are on his side.

And then he cares too much - again. And they hate him for it and they break him for it and they ask him to pray. And that’s just too much, isn’t it? Everyone is filled with hate after that, aren’t they? For people they loved, trusted? And everyone breaks everyone else, and they’re sorry, and none of it matters because they want it all broken. They want a world shattered at their feet.

[It hurts though, I think. That in the end, they were the one left broken. Perhaps they deserved it, starting and ending everything they did. But everything they brought together - everything they wanted - rewarded with only agony, for centuries.]

#lycan lore #tbh im only thinking about lotl bc im thinking about kristph gavin #help.

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"Ah...Amaterasu. Origin of all that is good and mother to us all."

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love klavier gavin. hes capcom’s very own blorbo. his brother commited murder, and then his best friend commited murder and then his brother committed murder again. hes also famous and everyone everywhere loves him and he sings songs about murder apparently.

#lycan lore #hes everyone's one traumatized but op oc

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playin minecraft & making mushroom houses ^-^

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btw ive decided 2 think about the fact that only 2 lotl characters r physically capable of crying. like they were a little weird about cinnabar in the anime but i think its p cool. being a gem is just. in general terrible for your mental health.

u cant touch anyone else u cant cry u live forever u are continuously targeted by aliens that dont actually care about u at all & r just using u to get @ ur sensei. like

#lycan lore

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i love when characters r divorced & hate each other

#<- about lotl #friend of an irl knows lotl and i was like ok !! my main ship is cinnabar & phos!! #& i was like ya! i dont think they love each other anymore but they DID. and yhey were like ‘oh yeah!! like they went different ways and bro #ke up but still love each other ^-^’ #and im like. thats the most boring way 2 think about it. they literally shatter each other in pieces #lycan lore