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diversity loss this trans man is just as much of an emotionally unavailable avoidantly attached brick as any cis guy

[clownereye]

hey bro can i open up ur rib cage and rummage around in there until im up to my elbows in blood and then hold ur heart in my hands? no bro i promise it wont look gay i swear.

#about oc: leif #at this point i need a stupid side blog for that guy

[clownereye]

sometimes i think of yusuf, at the beginning. poet son of a merchant boy in borrowed armour, skull cracked open on a rock. how long until he returns home again? How does he return, estranged, to those Ithica-like Tunisian shores? Can his father still recognize his covered face?

yusuf al-kaysani, the son, the poet, the not-soldier, made and unmade each night in the looms of his mother's memory, mindbody woven and unwoven by something infinite and nameless.

sometimes i think about "di genova" vs. "al-kaysani". a land versus a bloodline. How they lose both, and then the names, too. immortal odysseus, ogygia-bound, longing to see the smoke that rises from his homeland, longing for death, kept in the soft-tender company of his murderer.

(really, you were founded on the bloody rock of holy ground. really, sometimes there is no return from war. at least not from this. not from the way he touches you.)

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im gonna letmy snake make a tumblr post hold on

#about oc: wander

[clownereye]

Can someone tell me where these feminine trans guys with massive tits who wear push-up bras and skimpy outfits that I keep seeing transphobes complain about are? I’d love to see massive tboy boobs.

#literally me

[clownereye]

[names my sons cain and abel] alright. get to it

[clownereye]

not gonna say it again

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Went outside and saw a bat flying around. Then i saw a toad in the yard. Straight up like a witch’s brew out there . Stay safe

#me when i hang out with elimsie

[clownereye]

Ever the gentleman

#this hurts my heart and soul #slash positive #oh man.... i work with elderly people and this one looks so. Real #i've got this couple that has been married for 70 (seventy) years now and #he's had dementia for 10 now and she moved into our care home with him so she can continue being with him #despite her not needing any help with anything ever #and she's the only person he recognizes. and talks about being married to her with such pride. #this is exactly what this cozy piece of art feels like op. it's just like watching that couple of 70+ years #beautiful #joenicky #the old guard

[clownereye]

my bitch wife took my mortality in the divorce and now I am cursed to walk the earth a shambling husk forever trapped in the gray nothingness between the beauty of life and the release of death 👎👎👎👎

#about oc: leif

[clownereye]

there's no greater betrayal than finally starting to read a book you've had sitting for months on your shelf or your desk or your nightstand and then finding out it's bad. like. i gave you a fucking home.

#palace of shadows #the plot was promising but fucking hell was the writing boring #how do u make House Horror boring

[clownereye]

my favorite part of House of Leaves was the moment a character referred to a book as a "house of leaves [pages]" and i closed the book and stared really hard at the cover and finally realized why it was about half an inch shorter than the actual pages. it's because it's. because it's b. it's bigger on the inside th

#thanks for hitting Me with this realisation op #having a good one on this public transport rn

[clownereye]

happy yuri night everybody

[clownereye]

I need to be put in my place (the morgue)

#ah shit ok #about oc: leif

[clownereye]

#the number of unnatural deaths in my family is higher than the natural one #and that is excluding the ones that my great-grandmas family that were bc of #u know. us being polish in poland in the 30s and 40s #anyway the number of my Close Relatives dying by Murder is . greater than 1 #i'll never die tho

[clownereye]

You have to careful about masturbating to your imagination cause god doesn’t know about imagination so he will assume you are jacking off to whatever is around you like dust, a dead bug, birds nest. And if you jerk off to a poisonous bug (or if god assumes you have) then you do go to hell

[clownereye]

Awkward Nicky my beloved <3

A little tribute to this iconic interview clip from Demi Lovato X

For the @theartguard prompt march/April "word play" 😊

#eooughhghgeuhh #<- sound of me crying #so comfy.... #the old guard