clown-demon

[clown-demon]

((I have a long ass day tomorrow at work. I have a few things to do with this blog, mainly make starter calls and ask banners for the remaining muses. Namely for Bailey, Viper, and Fross.

I probably won't get to that til Sunday. Gonna head to bed now. Nini!

#Ti speaks

[clown-demon]

"I know, Dove. It makes me so happy I gave you the will to live~. It makes me feel special, that I was the only one who could do that to you~." He nuzzled his cheek against Dazai's cheek. His hand going back to rubbing against Dazai's spine.

"You're cute too, you know that, right~?"

"I wouldn't have minded that until I met you." He practically purred, caressing Nikolai's cheeks as the other kissed over his brow. "Baby, you're making me feel all sorts of fuzzy." He giggled, amused that they were acting like a couple of love struck teenagers...

"Can you rub my back?"

#kitxkatrp #I don't wanna live a day without you; I just wanna be the one that makes you happy / NikoZai #Hey put on a happy face; Then everything will be okay / Nikolai #Take it back to the start; I've had a change of heart / ADA V.

[clown-demon]

"That makes me joyful to hear~. It did bother me, and it scared me. Because you're already handicapped. When you don't eat, it only weakens you more.. and there's also the fact that if you starve like that, you can really just end up dying from it or seriously ill.." He's seen Fyodor hardly eat a thing, and suffer from it.. He was so terrified the same would happen to Dazai...

He brushed his lips over the other's brow. "I am glad you care about yourself now.. I care about myself too now, because of you~. I care about the thing my husband cares about most now~."

Oh. His cheeks were still rosy as he traced a pattern on Nikolai's chest. "I started caring because...I cared about how you felt and I could tell that it bothered and scared you. So I wanted to fix it so you wouldn't feel that way anymore." He admitted softly, peeking up to gaze into the other's eyes.

#kitxkatrp #I don't wanna live a day without you; I just wanna be the one that makes you happy / NikoZai #Hey put on a happy face; Then everything will be okay / Nikolai #Take it back to the start; I've had a change of heart / ADA V.

[clown-demon]

((Btw I will be moving the threads from the other blogs to here. I'll probably do that Sunday.

#Ti speaks

[clown-demon]

teehee

#Ships: NikoZai #((I love this one so much

[clown-demon]

"Embarrassing~? I find it something to be proud of~. You ate so very little when I first met you. You were severely underweight. And now you're a healthy weight for a man of your height~. Some people when they're like that, never gain weight, nor can they ever eat. So it tickles me pink that I helped on that and you're healthier now~. It means you'll live longer with me~."

He whined a little and buried his face against him. "When you say it like that, it's super embarrassing." He mumbled, cheeks erupting in flames. He was happy that he was more comfortable to cuddle now. It was something he had been paranoid about in the beginning of their relationship when he had been that skinny....

#kitxkatrp #I don't wanna live a day without you; I just wanna be the one that makes you happy / NikoZai #Hey put on a happy face; Then everything will be okay / Nikolai #Take it back to the start; I've had a change of heart / ADA V.

[clown-demon]

Blog Update

((So I took some people's advice and am just gonna run two multi muse blogs.. This one and @mayhemmuses. The latter is on the back burner and won't be super active. It's be on permanent low activity.

This blog will have the following muses added other than the BSD cast, but they'll all exist within the BSD verse cuz I said so:

Ernisoph

Blackmint

Florence

Ketsueki

Fross

Bailey

Viper (Major WIP)

#Ti speaks

[clown-demon]

It felt so good to be greeted like that. He smiled into the kiss and closed his eyes for a moment, relaxing against Fyodor's chest before looking up at him.

"Miss me?" He teased with mischief in his eyes.

@kitxkatrp

"Yeah, I did. Joel is sick, so the Nikolai and Dazai are keeping the kids home while they recover. So I have nothing to keep my mind off of you while you're gone," Fyodor replied, his finger playing with a few strands of the ginger hair.

#kitxkatrp #Half God ; Half Devil / Fyodor #Take it back to the start ; I've had a change of heart / ADA V.

[clown-demon]

@kitxkatrp

He's blushing. He can't help it. His tummy is that one embarrassing weak spot. But he knew Nikolai loved it so much...

He reached down to pet Nikolai's hair. "Is it a comfortable enough pillow for you, my love?" He asked, smiling in a pleased manner.

Nikolai nuzzled his face into Dazai's belly and gave it another kiss. He pressed his cheek against it as he lounged, laying between the other's legs and resting his head on Dazai's stomach.

"It's very comfortable~. It's the best pillow~," he cooed softly.

#kitxkatrp #I don't wanna live a day without you; I just wanna be the one that makes you happy / NikoZai #Hey put on a happy face; Then everything will be okay / Nikolai #Take it back to the start; I've had a change of heart / ADA V.

[clown-demon]

"There would be no stopping me from cuddling you, even if you're very sick~. I do not care if I get sick, as long as I get to comfort you and show you my love~."

He nuzzled against Dazai and closed his eyes for a moment. "I like to cuddle you, I get to feel you against me, I get to feel your warmth too, your heartbeat, your breath, your skin against mine and to feel the fact you've gained some weight and have some fat too~. I loved you when you were skinny, and I would forever cuddle you if you were boney, but now there's just a magic thing to cuddling you when you have some meat~."

"The only time I might hesitate to cuddle you is if I was violently sick. And that's mostly for me trying not to get you just as sick purposes." He reassured, leaning into the kiss. "I love to cuddle you. It's more than just your warmth. I get to feel your heartbeat...your breathing, your hair tickling my face, all of it. I love it."

#kitxkatrp #I don't wanna live a day without you; I just wanna be the one that makes you happy / NikoZai #Hey put on a happy face; Then everything will be okay / Nikolai #Take it back to the start; I've had a change of heart / ADA V.

[clown-demon]

"That is true~. So you'd still cuddle me even if it's really hot out~?" Nikolai blinked a few times at him and giggled, he's just being silly. "I am glad it being hot out won't bother you enough that you wouldn't cuddle me~. I always wanna cuddle you~. You bring me so much happiness when we cuddle~." He kisses his cheek.

"We have fans and air conditioning for a reason, my love. We can just make our room freezing so I can cuddle with you all I want." He spoke simply, not even seeming fazed. "Besides, my buddy runs naturally cold, even in the summer. Unless it's literally over 37 degrees celsius, I don't think we'll have a problem. And if it does get that hot, then I can just sit in front of a fan and cuddle you there."

#kitxkatrp #I don't wanna live a day without you; I just wanna be the one that makes you happy / NikoZai #Hey put on a happy face; Then everything will be okay / Nikolai #Take it back to the start; I've had a change of heart / ADA V.

[clown-demon]

"Let's just sit here and cuddle~. I love to cuddle you, it's one of my favorite things to do with you. Honestly, anything that is with you is my favorite, but I have a weakness to just snuggling with you~."

He kept Dazai close, his hand traveling down his back and gently rubbing up and down his spine. "I am warm~. But I have a feeling you won't like it as much during the Summer..." That's one thing he was scared of, that Dazai wouldn't want to cuddle as much when it was hot now, due to how warm he was naturally..

His smile was soft and genuine. "Even though I'm in pain right now, I just want to cuddle you silly." He giggled a bit, closing his eyes and nuzzling the hand petting his hair.

"You're warm..." He whispered, burying his face against Nikolai's chest.

#kitxkatrp #I don't wanna live a day without you; I just wanna be the one that makes you happy / NikoZai #Hey put on a happy face; Then everything will be okay / Nikolai #Take it back to the start; I've had a change of heart / ADA V.

[clown-demon]

Nikolai smiled softly, his cheeks darkening as Dazai spoke of how he dreamed of him. "It's nice.. because I was made fun of for my eyes... People called me a freak due to them.. But it makes me so happy you love them so much~."

He fluttered his eyelashes at him and giggled softly. A hand coming up to brush over Dazai's hair. "I love to look at you too.. You're so beautiful, I can get lost just staring at you~." And he did so at work, a lot... And Kunikida would yell at him to free him from his Dazai trances and get back to work...

"Good...you can close them if your head hurts, but even if just for a minute...I want to gaze into your beautiful eyes." He spoke softly, staring at Nikolai like he was the most amazing thing in the universe.

"I dream about it sometimes...just looking at you...taking in everything about you...those dreams are so calming."

#kitxkatrp #I don't wanna live a day without you; I just wanna be the one that makes you happy / NikoZai #Hey put on a happy face; Then everything will be okay / Nikolai #Take it back to the start; I've had a change of heart / ADA V.

[clown-demon]

"I'll always give you such things~. I'll always love you, and I'll always be kind to you~. You gave me your heart, and I gave you mine.. I'll never bring harm to you or your heart~," he cooed softly, wrapping his arms around Dazai and hugging him close.

He made a happy noise at the touch of his hair. "I won't, my Love~. I also won't put on my mask for now~."

Butt wiggle.

"You give me all the love and kindness that I need. I just need to be held by you. I don't need anything else." He closed his eyes, returning those kisses and running his fingers through Nikolai's hair.

"Don't put your hair up today?"

#kitxkatrp #I don't wanna live a day without you; I just wanna be the one that makes you happy / NikoZai #Hey put on a happy face; Then everything will be okay / Nikolai #Take it back to the start; I've had a change of heart / ADA V.

[clown-demon]

"I'm always thinking about you, my Love Dove~." He pressed his lips back against Dazai's, kissing him sweetly. His eyelids lowered and he sighed happily.

"I love you too, I love you so much, more than anything else~. I love everything about you too~." He pressed another kiss below Dazai's eye.

"You deserve nothing but love and kindness~."

"I dunno. Whenever we're not touching, all I can think about is you." He teased a little, pecking his lips. "I love you...I love everything about you...I want to spend the day curled up in your arms." He nuzzled his nose.

"Thank you for being so kind to me."

#kitxkatrp #I don't wanna live a day without you; I just wanna be the one that makes you happy / NikoZai #Hey put on a happy face; Then everything will be okay / Nikolai #Take it back to the start; I've had a change of heart / ADA V.

[clown-demon]

Nikolai's cheeks flushed a bit when Dazai called him the most beautiful man. "I don't know Dove.. I would say that title goes to you~," he replied, reaching a finger out to tap Dazai's nose. "You're the prettiest~. Beyond words you're so pretty~."

Dazai slipped into Nikolai's arms and grabbed the blanket, wrapping it around the both of them. "You know," he breathed out quietly, reaching out to gently caress Nikolai's cheek. "You are the most beautiful man alive."

#kitxkatrp

[clown-demon]

((Just debating on running two multi muse blogs.. Ones I wanna focus on, and the others more on a back burner..

Idk.. Work has been so exhausting, I still want to RP my babs, but searching for people to follow is very tiresome, and I keep forgetting to check on them cuz I come home from work late and tired.. I also wanna add some others that would be attention hogs and have their own blogs.. but running so many blogs would be too much.

I don't want to drive anyone insane by my switcharoo.. but -plops.- Idk.. it just seems atm that would be so much easier...

#Ti speaks #I am babbling atm but.. #sighhhhs