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   ...hi?

#not dead ! #just terribly low activity & debating on whether to come back or not #[ OUT OF CHARACTER ] × mori.txt

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@pseudoneiric​ sent in an ask:  “   i   hate   you  .   it   can’t   be   for   no   reason  .   you   must   deserve   it  .   ” (from tsumugi!)  ::  ACCEPTING!

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   with his lips firmly pressed into a hard line, amami felt the sensation of goosebumps cover the skin on his arms. he was sure the hair on the back of his neck was pointed out of reaction to the aggravated volley of words he was receiving. eyebrows had long been slanted down; at first in a mimic of confusion, but now fully in frustration.

   he couldn’t pinpoint exactly the cause of his unease with her. at first, she seemed . . . relatively normal, given the means of their meeting. he couldn’t help but to think perhaps his mysterious nature made her tense, but something about her was returning the favor.

   it would stir the pot too much to say,  ‘ the feeling’s mutual ’  but this was an unpredictable situation in a dangerous game. risking his life over getting a snarky word in would not be wise. instead, he chose to prod cautiously into the issue,  “ why? is it somethin’ i’ve done? ”

   was it his amicable disposition conflicting with the enigmatic choice of words he spoke? he had a feeling it would throw anybody off of his true intentions; information so widely coveted at a time like this. 

   it was no doubt that seeds of distrust had been planted and cultivated.

#[ personals - do NOT interact with this thread - you will be blocked. ] #[ i hope killing game verse is alright !! lmk if anything needs to be changed <3 ] #[ MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE ] × inbox #[ VERSE 002 ] × killing game #[ TSUMUGI SHIROGANE ] × pseudoneiric

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ICONIC  THINGS  GLaDOS  FROM  PORTAL  HAS  SAID .

“   we’ve   both   said   a   lot   of   things   you’re   going   to   regret  .   ” “   i   think   we   can   put   our   differences   behind   us  …   you   monster  .   ” “   it’s   been   a   long   time  .   ” “   how   have   you   been  ?   ” “   this   will   be   our   only   chance   to   talk  .   ” “   you   are   a   horrible   person  .   ” “   i’ll   give   you   credit :   i   guess   you   are   listening   to   me  .   ” “   remember   before ,   when   i   was   talking   about   smelly   garbage   standing   around   being   useless  ?   that   was   a   metaphor  .   i   was   actually   talking   about   you  .   ” “   did   you   know   that   people   with   guilty   consciences   are   more   easily   startled   by   loud   nois—   *blasts   airhorn*   ” “   nobody   but   you   is   that   pointlessly   cruel  .   ” “   i   made   it   all   up  .   ” “   i   am   very   pleased   you   made   it   through   my   final   challenge ,   where   i  …   pretended   i   was   going   to   murder   you  .   ” “   i   know   you’re   there  .   i   can   sense   you  .   ” “   you   haven’t   escaped ,   you   know  .   ” “   you’re   not   even   going   the   right   way  .   ” “   uh - oh  .   somebody   cut   the   cake  .   i   told   them   to   wait   for   you ,   but   they   did   it   anyway  .   ” “   didn’t   we   have   some   fun ,   though  ?   ” “   you   really   shouldn’t   be   here  .   this   isn’t   safe   for   you  .   ” “   it’s   not   too   late   for   you   to   turn   back  .   ” “   okay  .   i   am   going   to   kill   you   now  .   ” “   someday ,   we’ll   remember   this   and   laugh  .   and   laugh  .   and   laugh  .   ” “   you’re   not   a   good   person  .   you   know   that ,   right  ?   ” “   this   is   your   fault  .   it   didn’t   have   to   be   like   this  .   ” “   i’m   not   kidding  .   turn   back ,   or   i   will   kill   you  .   ” “   i’m   going   to   kill   you ,   and   all   the   cake   is   gone  .   ” “   you   don’t   even   care ,   do   you  ?   ” “   despite   your   violent   behaviour ,   the   only   thing   you’ve   broken   so   far   is   my   heart  .   ” “   maybe   you   should   marry   that   thing   if   you   love   it   so   much  .   do   you   want   to   marry   it  ?   …   WELL   I   WON’T   LET   YOU  .   how   does   that   feel  ?   ” “   i’ll   tell   you   what   that   thing   isn’t :   it   isn’t   yours  .   so   leave   it   alone  .   ” “   have   i   ever   lied   to   you  ?   …   i   mean ,   in   this   room  .   ” “   killing   you   and   giving   you   good   advice   aren’t   mutually   exclusive  .   ” “   nice   job   breaking   it ,   hero  .   ” “   this   isn’t   brave  .   it’s   murder  .   what   did   i   ever   do   to   you  ?   ” “   i   honestly ,   TRULY   didn’t   think   you’d   fall   for   that  .   ” “   you’re   about   to   become   the   immediate   past   president   of   the   being   alive   club  .   ” “   i   hate   you   so   much  .   ” “   look ,   even   if   you   think   we’re   enemies ,   we’re   enemies   with   a   common   interest :   revenge  .   ” “   i   thought   you   were   my   greatest   enemy ,   when   all   along ,   you   were   my   best   friend  .   ” “   under   the   circumstances ,   i’ve   been   shockingly   nice  .   ” “   i   used   to   want   you   dead   but   now   i   only   want   you   gone  .   ” “   you’ve   got   your   short ,   sad   life   left  .   ” “   goodbye ,   my   only   friend  …   oh  —   did   you   think   i   meant   you  ?   that   would   be   funny   if   it   weren’t   so   sad  .   well ,   you   have   been   replaced  .   i   don’t   need   anyone   now  .   ” “   when   i   delete   you   maybe   i’ll   stop   feeling   so   bad  .   ” “   go   make   some   new   disaster  .   ” “   you’re   someone   else’s   problem  .   ” “   i’m   brilliant  .   i’m   not   bragging ,   it’s   an   objective   fact  .   ” “   i   hate   you  .   it   can’t   be   for   no   reason  .   you   must   deserve   it  .   ” “   i   don’t   suppose   you   ever   stopped   whining   long   enough   to   reflect   on   your   own   shortcomings  .   ”

#[ ROADTRIP GAMES ] × memes #[ GRABBY HANDS . . . #i promise i will get to starters / replies later but rn my ama.mi muse said no <3 ] #long post /

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   and now that i’m back … this is a starter call - please like this post if you’d like a starter from me! specify muse / verse if applicable, as always

   additionally, if we already have a thread that you’d like to continue, please ask me via DMs or inbox! i want to know which threads i can continue tracking, and which ones i can drop ^^

#[ rbin this again! ill get on these later tonight ] #[ OUT OF CHARACTER ] × mori.txt

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   and now that i’m back . . . this is a starter call - please like this post if you’d like a starter from me! specify muse / verse if applicable, as always

   additionally, if we already have a thread that you’d like to continue, please ask me via DMs or inbox! i want to know which threads i can continue tracking, and which ones i can drop ^^

#[ WOO WOO let's go !!!!!!!!!! so excited to rp again :D ] #[ OUT OF CHARACTER ] × mori.txt

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   hi again! july is usually the busiest time of the year for me, so i took a pause from working on my ama.mi & kii.bo blogs to focus on art.fight, apologies for my absence! i’m back now though, and plan to be unless something pops up ^^

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   hey, sorry i’ve not been on a whole lot. i need to work on so many art refs & on top of that, a lot of stuff has hit me hard. i’m not going into detail but i’ve lost sleep over it & it’s honestly mentally taxing

#[ i'll be fine but i just gotta do what i gotta do yknow. ] #[ OUT OF CHARACTER ] × mori.txt

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   no fucking way

#[ holy shit they really did nag.ito koma.eda on the nintendo switch. son of a bitch they really did it. ] #[ OUT OF CHARACTER ] × mori.txt #e3 spoilers // #danganronpa spoilers //

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   never fully grasped my need to see ama.mi in different outfits until now. everybody say thank you spike chunsoft

#[ thank u spike chunsoft for this DELICIOUS food #my boy <3 he is. So Good. thank u for giving us alt outfits for the whole cast actually AIYEEE ] #[ OUT OF CHARACTER ] × mori.txt #e3 spoilers //

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[ SAVEDGAMES ]

          「 Are you speaking literally or metaphorically? Just to clarify. 」 She had a fairy sure assumption that he was speaking metaphorically, but she couldn’t be too sure.

   he wasn’t too sure himself; he was never quite the same after some of his more gravely serious adventures. that being said, he was still amami rantarou, wasn’t he? the same person who loved the thrill of adventure, whose composure was always calm?

   it took a few moments to gather his thoughts, to speak at long last,  “ . . . i don’t know. ”  another pause.  “ sorry, that’s probably not the answer you’re looking for. i wish i could tell you more, but sometimes even i’m not sure what the true meaning is. ”

   that was more a front than anything - he knew deep down that there was reason behind his words, though he had a hard time articulating in a way that would make complete sense. it was somewhat . . . how his mind worked.

#[ no worries at all!! ] #[ TRAVEL LOG ] × interactions #[ KIRUMI TOJO ] × savedgames #[ VERSE 001 ] × hpa

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[ ENGIMONO​ ]

       GOOD LUCK COMES TO THOSE WHO DON’T WAIT ON ITS FAVOUR !

     ❝  i’m … ah, not sure what they  expected.  if hope’s peak is going to admit the  ‘ ultimate adventurer ’,  they’re gonna have to give you some leeway. they can’t expect you to stay holed up at the school for three years —- it wouldn’t exactly do your  talent  any justice.  ❞   casually did shoulders pull themselves upwards in a noncommittal shrug, a silent admission of his  ignorance  towards the  inane  logic and hope’s peak’s apparent disapproval of amami’s journeys. to impose such restrictions on someone who regularly practiced a nomadic lifestyle seemed  counterintuitive  but apparently,  no  one  was granted leniency in regards to the school’s curriculum.   ❝  besides, i’m sure you’ve  learned  a lot on your travels too. a classroom has its  perks  but it doesn’t have much over a trip around the world or the  skills  you pick up along the way. that sounds like a  dream.  ❞

     fingers absentmindedly traced the edge of his shoe on the seat cushion while he spoke, eyes alight with  admiration  and the underlying  temptation  to inquire about the other’s latest adventure. fantastical narratives were conjured from starry-eyed  awe  and against his better judgement, expectations had already begun to take shape —- ready for the other student’s  validation  or   refutation;  either was welcome. for the time being, exhaustion eluded him and  unbridled  captivation succeeded in keeping it at bay. 

     ❝  so, uh, where are you planning on going  next  ?  ❞  no sooner had the question been given a voice than another joined it in the same breath. admittedly,  curiosity  had gotten the better of him and it was too late to hold his tongue.  ❝ how do you even  decide ? ❞

   a small sigh left his lips. he knew the excuse was rather perplexing when not given the full context. hope’s peak WANTED to foster all kinds of talents and would have gladly let him nurture his, though his adventures were often dangerous. he frequently found himself seemingly not heeding any warnings and diving straight into dicey territory just for any information regarding what he was looking for. sure, he knew what he was doing and wouldn’t have done so if he wasn’t absolutely sure of his abilities, though it seemed hope’s peak didn’t want to take that gamble yet.

   and the last thing he wanted to do was burden naegi with that, so he let the topic carry on to something else.

   “ i throw a dart at a map and roll with it, ”  amami chuckled, playing around with that idea. after a few moments for the joke to catch, he continued,  “ i guess it’s based on many factors - for example, have i already gone there? if so, why would i want to go back? - stuff like that, y’know. ”

   he couldn’t exactly give away his process, not even for the main reason he had, but because it could be a jumbled mess in trying to explain it . . . and he didn’t want to become predictable. he wanted to remain cloaked in a thin veil of mystery, as literary as that may seem.

   “ so, if you had to pick where you want to go, how would you make that decision? and what’s the place? what would you pack? ”  he was attempting to explain his thought process by having naegi work for it,  “ what would you do once you’re there? and all of these things can be changed on a dime - there’s method to the madness, sure, but it gets complicated. ”

#[ like that one spiderman meme w miles morales looking up & imitating peter b parker ] #[ TRAVEL LOG ] × interactions #[ MAKOTO NAEGI ] × engimono #[ VERSE 001 ] × hpa

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   i’ve been a little no muse head empty as of late, but replies will be coming soon ;w;   hopefully my muse picks back up aiyeee

#[ i've been. working on getting refs done . . . new profile assests for af . . . helping out there where i can it's #it's a lot but i like doing it! just takes up my time away from other things i enjoy ] #[ OUT OF CHARACTER ] × mori.txt

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pseudoneiric​:

there’s no way that amami could stop travelling. it’s his mission, his motivation, his meaning in life. if not just because of the restlessness in his blood, for his sisters too. saihara would never try and stand in the way of that. they don’t understand it — they’ve always been an only child, have never had many strong ties to family for as long as they can remember… but that doesn’t stop them from listening. amami had once told them that they would never understand how he feels. maybe that’s true. but maybe that’s better. at least this way, they can look at amami with objective eyes. can value him for what he is instead of what he isn’t.

still, saihara watches as his classmate packs the last of his bags, stands with hands on his hips as he assesses the luggage. to saihara, it seems like way too little for a trip this long, but what do they know? all they know is that their heart feels like it’s hollowing itself out of their chest. watching him, knowing that soon, he’ll be gone and all that will be left of him would be his lingering scent in the room and the shirt he’d lent saihara.

amami had placed his hand on saihara’s cheek, as if sensing that something’s amiss. and without even thinking, saihara’s leaning into the touch, letting their eyelashes hit gently against the other’s hand. their lips touch his palm — insistent, afraid. they want to say so many things. they want to ask if he’ll miss them. to beg him to take them with him. to break down crying for how much they wish he could just stay home. but they don’t say any of those things, don’t do anything but kiss him with all the love they’re bottling up in their heart. they finally look over at amami, their words warm and soft against his palm. “…promise me you’ll stay safe. please.”

   saihara’s composure had no less made him feel guilty about leaving them so suddenly. nothing lasts forever, and he had to get a move on, but that look in their eyes and their lips against his palm was dangerous. a lump had formed in the back of his throat and a pit at his stomach. if only his circumstance was different, he would have stayed by their side for as long as they needed him.

   a half-lidded look glazed over amami’s eyes, heavy from a sleepless night and the sudden guilt of leaving them. he moved his other hand to their opposite cheek, rubbing circles on the skin with his thumb, both comforting them and himself. he wanted to cradle them against his chest, pull them into an embrace, but he knew the touch would have made him want to truly stay.

   instead, he moved one of his hands under saihara’s chin, tilting it upward to pressure them to make eye contact with him. not even the lights above had caught on his eyes; a dull look only being granted. any semblance of a lighthearted attitude was gone - they were too observational for that mask to be worn around them at this moment.

   “ hey - you don’t have to worry about me, ”  he halfheartedly chided them,  “ i’ll be fine. you’ve gotta take care of yourself, too, you hear me? ”

   against his better judgement, a chaste kiss was placed on the space between their eyes. as he expected, a longing sensation to linger arose, one that he had to push down. it won in the end however; with a shaky exhale, he closed his eyes and rest his forehead against their’s. if only, for a few moments.

#[ wehehehe this is lovely :) thank you ^^ ] #[ TRAVEL LOG ] × interactions #[ SHUICHI SAIHARA ] × pseudoneiric #[ MY DEAR - THERE ARE SECRETS HERE; I WILL CARRY THEM HOME ] × pseudoneiric -- amasai #[ VERSE ??? ] × unknown / no verse specified #long post //

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[ ROSKAAROTTA​ ]

“ y’very welcome, bud. ” she commented as she took out one chip, biting into it before she tilted her head at his question, before nodding to confirm her title before she cleared her throat

“ honestly, i sort of mastered most the american classics to the basics and beyond … but i gotta pick one dish i loved it’s … shawarma. i don’t know the feelin’ of carvin’ out beef from a good one is always nice and it’s perfect for sharin’… i gotta brush up on my skills around the globe but hey maybe stayin’ here i can do better ? ” honestly, she had others lined up in mind for what was her favorite dish, but that one did peak its head in her mind.

“ … how about you ? you’re into big meals for all or small meals for one ? ”

   her penchant for rambling on about various dishes was no less from what he expected. students at hope’s peak were extraordinary, their talents becoming their lifestyle, and every waking moment was spent to nurture them.

   still, he felt somewhat lost as she did so. while his cooking skills were decent, he was no prodigy in the kitchen such as molly. nevertheless, he nodded like he understood.

   “ i guess it depends on the situation, yeah? ”  he answered, leaning his cheek on his palm. he was used to both options - having to fend for himself on his adventures, and having to take care of several other siblings.  “ do you have a preference? ”

#[ aiyeee this one also got buried ARGHHH my bad !! ] #[ TRAVEL LOG ] × interactions #[ MOLLY BERENICE ] × roskaarotta #[ VERSE 001 ] × hpa

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[ PLAYFULLIAR​ ]

He let out a relieved sigh when he heard Amami’s head hit the mattress. Good. The world would be a much more boring place if he had gotten into some kind of accident due to exhaustion.

“Hm?” Ouma tilted his head. “Nah… You don’t say much of anything. Full of secrets.” It was both alluring and frustrating. He couldn’t be tricked, and it was hard to figure out his thoughts on even the most mundane things.

And- just like that? He was actually caught off guard by Amami’s answer. He expected ‘on one condition’ or ‘maybe’, but not yes. “Wow.” He smiled, trying to hide his shock. “Really? It’s that easy?”

   in the back of his mind, the burden of worrying over another clawed at him. though he wasn’t one to immediately deny friendship altogether, he was a little more hesitant than most at serious bonds. but it was truly nothing personal, or against ouma. his past had shaped his current beliefs more than he would have liked to admit.

   “ aren’t we all full of secrets, though? ”  with a shift, amami’s head was turned to lock his eyes onto the profile of ouma’s face. his perceived characterization that had been covered by a thick veil had only heightened his words; only amplifying the question’s intentions.

   a brow raised at ouma’s shock. what, did he think amami would refuse the offer? if he had been the type to become so easily bothered, he would have been somewhat offended at the notion. but he wasn’t, so he didn’t harbor any hard feelings against the reaction.

   “ hm? what do you mean,  ‘ easy ’ ?  ”

#[ ARGHHHH i'm so sorry this reply is late #got absolutely buried in my activity feed -_- ] #[ TRAVEL LOG ] × interactions #[ KOKICHI OUMA ] × playfulliar #[ VERSE 001 ] × hpa

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[ CHOOSCRS​ ]

“ I  AM  A  LEADER,    AFTER  ALL.      Everything follows when I leave.    What is it that makes you suspect I’m not up to task ?    I’m meant to be talked about.    Are you saying you’ve never contributed to those whispers ? ”

   contributed? no, not physically. millions of thoughts had gathered in his mind, jumbled and tangled in a web to parse through and decode. it was only in amami’s mind that ouma’s name and intentions had entertained itself.

   but he couldn’t deny the words that had dripped from the others’ lips. while he wasn’t one for such gossip, it was simply hard to NOT pay attention to someone as so intriguing as them. after all, amami loved a good challenge; decoding the words of a liar sure made the gears turn.

   “ a mere fly on the wall; somehow, someway, those whispers loop back around. i figured you’d pick up on them - but is it enough? ”

#[ TRAVEL LOG ] × interactions #[ KOKICHI OUMA ] × chooscrs #[ VERSE ??? ] × unknown / no verse specified

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   lesson learned: when you put two windows side by side, tumblr deletes your replies. good to know!

#[ pls. i just wanted to stream will the dvd logo hit the corner for my friends. pls. ] #[ OUT OF CHARACTER ] × mori.txt