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[chubbyian]

I don't like anyone except sometimes you

And now you're sounding like a hurt puppy

You look ugly when you cry

But I'm the one you think to call

How do you feel lucky and appalled at the same time?

#backburner #Spotify

[chubbyian]

"Oh, why can't you for once Disregard the world and run to what you know is real? Take a chance with me"

[chubbyian]

In the midst of the crowds, you're still the one that I find.

"In the midst of the crowds, I don't see nobody but you"

[chubbyian]

A person who has a pure heart doesn't lose anyone, people lose that person. We say that even at our best, absolute best we will never be good enough for the wrong people, in the same way even at our absolute worst we will still be enough with the right people.

[chubbyian]

[chubbyian]

 Yes, we all know that we can't always have the one we love, that sometimes, our feelings can't be reciprocated and that it's inevitable to experience unrequited love. People often say that what we need to do is just move on. They tell you:

"You'll find someone better. Give it a rest."

"He likes someone else; you don't have any chance at all."

"You deserve more than just being an option help yourself and move on." 

They're right in fact, often, they are. But deep inside, there's something that tells you it’s not going to be easy- it's not easy to forget.

Someone who gave you so much to remember, someone who made you feel things you thought would never resurface. And what they don't understand is that it's unbearable, the excruciating pain of loving someone who can never love you back is beyond compare.

The way you think about him -his green eyes, wavy hair, and the glint of joy in his smile, his contagious laugh, and his lousy dad jokes. You would love so much to memorize it for as long as you want, but you can't.

The way you would love to do anything just to make him happy- be the reason for the rainbows in his life, but you know someone else has to do it for him instead. The way your heart beats uncontrollably when he's around- how he affects you in ways no one else can, and how it's frustrating to know that he actually cares a bit less about you and your existence.

Or how it breaks your heart when he seems broken inside-when you fail to see that joyful glint in his eyes because he has lots of melancholic thought he tries hard to hide.

How you wish to be standing in the shoes of the girl he likes, so you would be able to shower him with all the love he deserves.

And how you would want to do everything so he can tum his eyes on you, to make him see that it's you, that you're the one who can make him happy and feet loved, not anyone else who fails to see the goodness in his heart.

Unrequited love is like experiencing; you know you need to steep but you can’t, the same way you want to forget and move on but still, you love. Those who have someone to love and reciprocate the love they give are among the luckiest people in the world. It’s not everyday that you get to meet the love of your life or just the one who can walk beside you and make you realize you don't need to be alone, roaming this earth.

[chubbyian]

At this point, she's given up on relationships. Maybe not forever, but for awhile. She's been trying to find love for so long, but what she actually found was she wasn't ready for love and she doesn't know when she will be ready again. It's not that she's scared of commitment, she's just scared of wasting more time being loyal to someone who isn't worth it.

It's not that she's afraid of trust, she's just afraid of investing herself in someone who can't be honest with her. It's not that she's frightened of attachment, she's just frightened of getting so close to someone that she won't be able to leave if she needs to.

While she's been hurt by a lot of people, she knows it's also her fault for not being able to be alone, it's her fault for catching feelings so easily, and it's her fault for not properly giving herself time to process everything she's been thru. She just figured it's time to give her heart a break. She would rather be single and lonely than to be miserable with someone who's supposed to make her happy.

She would rather wait until something real comes along than to get back with someone who always makes her feel like something's wrong with her. She would rather find herself in the meantime than to find herself in another mistake. So if you're a guy who wants to be with her right now, sorry but she's closed off. She'd rather be heartless than heartbroken.

[chubbyian]

There’s somebody out there who’s looking for you Someday he’ll find you I swear that its true He’s gonna kiss you and you’ll feel the world stand still There’s somebody out there who will

Tossing and turning and dreaming at night About finding him and praying and hoping you might ‘Cause you deserve someone who knows how to treat you right

[chubbyian]

[chubbyian]

I deserve a healthy love

The kind of love that makes me feel wanted

They do not keep me around just for their entertainment

The healthy love that pays attention, that cares about the little things as attentive and listens

They do not feel me as a chore or a burden

A healthy love that asks about my day, how I am really doing and isn’t expecting me to say I’m doing good, rather hoping I reply with details that long paragraphs and go on with the voice messages

I deserve the kind of healthy love that does not make me feel that I am too much, my independent persona doesn’t intimidate or overwhelm, or they also love the things I love about myself.

[chubbyian]

I'll catch a flight, go to the moon Lay on the floor of your living room And talk about the things that make you cry I'll sell my soul, sell my guitar Sleep in the back of a beat-up car Boy, just tell me what I have to do I'll do anything for you

#anything4u

[chubbyian]

To You

I am certain that this heart of mine became stronger through time. I have kept it secured but open at the same time. I am still hoping and believing that one day, you will find me. I became tired of searching; but instead, I started praying. I constantly prayed that the next man that would have my heart would be the one that God sent. I focused on myself and improved my weaknesses. I worked harder to see a better version of myself each day. I removed all the worries and doubts. I started to have positive thoughts that there will be a time that someone would prove to me that love is not all about the hurt and pain. I pray that you would show me how beautiful love is, because all I can feel is joy whenever you are near.   A love without doubts, without fear, without confusion, without worries. This is the kind of love that I would desire to have from you. You may think that I am a hopeless romantic. You may see me as a woman who has always been in-love with the idea of love. But right now, all I long for is your sincerity. If that moment comes and I see that you are genuine and true,   I would freely give my heart a chance to love you.  The moment that I see your efforts, even though it’s uncomfortable for you, it’s a clear sign that I would let my heart feel again. I have risked the waiting game for a long time. I tried to control my feelings whenever someone gives me attention. I try so hard to hold back and hide my emotions. But with you, I believe that everything would turn out just fine.  I won’t fear to fall for you, because from the very start, you have assured me of your love. You were not just consistent with your words, but with your actions. I can see it through your eyes. You love me, even without saying it. I can feel it, and it makes me fall for you even more.

[chubbyian]

“Putangina mo! (Fuck you!) "Bakit ako? (Why me?) "Eh, Putangina niya!” (Eh, Fuck him!)

-That Thing Called Tadhana (2015)

[chubbyian]

One day, you’ll remember the girl who loved you so much that she forgot to love herself. You’ll remember her when you wake up, when you eat, when you’re about to sleep. She will be your greatest nightmare. You will be the one crying, and she will be the one happy with someone else.

One day, you’ll regret losing her. You lost the girl who did everything for you. You lost the girl who was always there for you when no one else is.You lost the girl who stayed by your side even if you threw harsh words to her. You lost the girl who tried to understand you when she needed you and you were not there.

One day, you’ll realize that she was the one for you. The girl who stood by your side even if you don’t appreciate her. One day, you’ll realize that the girl you screwed up and left for another girl, was the girl who kept on fighting and defending you when she hears gossips about you.

One day, you’ll see her happy and contented with the life she have when you left her. She will thank you for letting her go and for making her realize she is worth of something so much better, that there is someone out there who is willing to do everything for her. She will look into your eyes with no feelings for you at all.

One day, when you see her, you will feel like you’ve been stabbed in your heart a millions times for giving up on her. And when that day comes, no matter what you do, no matter what you say to her, it will not make sense because she was already done spending years of her life trying to make you love her as she loved you. But you didn’t.

#ctto

[chubbyian]

Let them go.

Isa sa mga steps para maging masaya ay ang pagbitiw sa mga bagay, tao o pagkakataon na maaaring makasakit sa ‘yo. Bitiw na sa mga taong toxic, iwas na sa mga taong hinihila ka lang pababa, umalis ka na sa buhay ng mga taong hindi makabubuti sa ‘yo.

At sa pagbitiw mo sa kanila ay ang pagkapit mo sa Kanya, sa mga taong binigay Niya, sa mga bagay na niregalo Niya.

Pakinggan mo ang sarili mo. Ipahinga mo ang puso mo. Ngumiti ka. PIliin mo ang maging masaya. :) Hanggang sa ma-train ang utak mo na makita ang liwanag sa gitna ng dilim, ang araw sa likod ng mga ulap, ang pahinga sa lahat ng pagkapagod.

Masayang maging masaya.

[chubbyian]

One day, you’ll remember the girl who loved you so much that she forgot to love herself. You’ll remember her when you wake up, when you eat, when you’re about to sleep. She will be your greatest nightmare. You will be the one crying, and she will be the one happy with someone else. One day, you’ll regret losing her. You lost the girl who did everything for you. You lost the girl who was always there for you when no one else is.You lost the girl who stayed by your side even if you threw harsh words to her. You lost the girl who tried to understand you when she needed you and you were not there. One day, you’ll realize that she was the one for you. The girl who stood by your side even if you don’t appreciate her. One day, you’ll realize that the girl you screwed up and left for another girl, was the girl who kept on fighting and defending you when she hears gossips about you. One day, you’ll see her happy and contented with the life she have when you left her. She will thank you for letting her go and for making her realize she is worth of something so much better, that there is someone out there who is willing to do everything for her. She will look into your eyes with no feelings for you at all. One day, when you see her, you will feel like you’ve been stabbed in your heart a millions times for giving up on her. And when that day comes, no matter what you do, no matter what you say to her, it will not make sense because she was already done spending years of her life trying to make you love her as she loved you. But you didn’t. #ctto

[chubbyian]

They say you don’t get over someone until you find someone or something better. As humans, we don’t deal well with emptiness. Any empty space must be filled. Immediately. The pain of emptiness is too strong. It compels the victim to fill that place. A single moment with that empty spot causes excruciating pain. That’s why we run from distraction to distraction and from attachment to attachment.

Yasmin Mogahed (via thelovejournals)