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"I can't swim"

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Literally went from:

“Why would I ever trust the word of an Oathbreaker?”

“It’s unwise to trust a Sharran”

To:

“Why hello, Lover, that sounded more debonaire in my head, I admit”

“I am yours, my Heart”

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Aaaand I’m finally in Act 3 (fucking finally) with my Oathbreaker Paladin Durge run. I can only wish I’m talented enough of a writer to write a fic for these two I swear-

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I thinking about my durge x shadowheart modern au too much. Just a gothic couple trope running away from their abusive families to travel across the country 😭

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #shadowheart #dark urge #durge #shadowheart x durge #bg3 fanart #shadowheart x tav #well it's more like punk x goth thing whatever

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Sometimes love is not enough to break an evil curse

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #shadowheart #dark urge #durge #shadowheart x durge #bg3 fanart #shadowheart x tav #i love their dynamic so much

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Durge: You are the love of my life and I would do anything within reason to make you happy.

Shadowheart: I would be happy if you ate, stayed hydrated and got a reasonable amount of sleep.

Durge: I said within reason, Shadowheart. How about I murder that guy?

Shadowheart: So murder is in reason but proper self care isn't?

Durge: Well, duh. What kind of question is that?

#shadowheart x durge

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My honor mode run with my durge, Abel, took a very depressing and dark turn. And I have a lot of thoughts about it. It's a longer read and gets sappy at the end haha but I'm so emotional about this I needed to write it down !! 😭

major TW for death and suicide

Abel lost against Orin (I am SO pissed at myself for losing since I usually get her within 2 rounds on tactician. I was not ready for her legendary action haha) and because of that, Bhaal will cause Abel to go mad as soon as the tadpole is gone. Abel knows this - everyone at camp does. But they don't know yet what he plans to do about it.

Abel is romanced to Shadowheart. They are adorable. Abel has this golden retriever energy about him that has been such a light for SH. They forged a strong bond right away as neither remembers their past so they became each others confidant and advocate even before romantic feelings started to bud up (which didn't take long - it was pretty much love at first sight for Abel). Abel is a resist durge and has been fighting back his urges fiercely since day 1. He has such a soft heart and struggles a lot with carrying the burden of his past atrocities. He never wants to harm an innocent again. But Bhaal will control him, corrupt him, and will turn him back into a killing machine. He cannot let that happen. He cannot see harm come to SH or any of his friends nor could he live with them seeing him at his worst like that. He knows what he needs to do as soon as a the brain falls - he needs to kill himself.

Sleepless night after sleepless night was spent thinking of any way he could evade Bhaal. He even went to Withers who unsurprisingly didn't have anything useful to say. Realizing that this is his only path, he accepts his fate and commits the little time he has left to saving the city and his friends. And commits to being himself as much as he can not letting his plans cast a shadow over the precious little time he has with everyone. Savoring every second with the family he found not even a couple months ago.

The night before the confrontation with the brain, Abel tells Shadowheart of his plans. Shock, anger, despair, then grief for a future they once hoped for that cannot be. Shadowheart pushed back at first asking Abel if there is any other way and frantically racking her mind for alternatives. But she too came to the same realization as Abel. He then tells her everything he needs to: his gratitude to her for supporting him in his fight against the urges, sticking by his side even after that one night in the shadow lands when he tried to kill her, loving him despite his scars and past, and making him the happiest he has been his whole life even if it is was only a short while. He tells her to continue living in the light. To promise him that she will live long and well. And to get that cottage outside of the city she has been pining for.

That night was spent with each other. And when morning came, they steeled themselves for the battle ahead and what follows. Ready because they still have each other. And that's all that matters now.

A year after the defeat of the brain and Shadowheart brings flowers to the memorial the city erected in honor of Abel. And only a 20 minute walk from Shadowheart's cottage which was made possible by Wyll's influence in the city. As she lays the flowers down at the foot of the memorial she smiles and remembers the first time he gave her flowers - her favorite night orchids. Back then when darkness was all she knew, Abel was the spark of life, love, and hope that she had gone without for so long. The spark she needed to dispel herself the dogmatic darkness that plagued her. Her life is her own now and it is full of light, love, and hope. She is fulfilling her promise to him and prays that his spirit may know that and be at peace.

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Okay that's all haha. I'm no writer so thanks for suffering through that if you have read this far. I just needed to write this because I was SO close to just ending my honor mode run then and there after Abel lost because I was so disheartened. I cried haha. Taking the bad outcome of the fight and finding a beautiful yet tragic story in it is what is keeping me going. Might delete later idk.

Now let's see if I even make it to the brain! lmao

#shadowheart x durge

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so i just finished my post-patch 5 shadowheart origin run and….?

this screencap + the below make me think SH went back to calling herself jenevelle.

at least in this very specific origin run where i obliterated the grove, turned from shar, but did not save her parents (and kissed minthara but romanced lae’zel, who returned to the astral sea.)

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Durge x Astarion this, Durge x Gortash that. But WHERE are my fellow Durge x Shadowheart truthers at? They are both groomed by their respective gods to be their play thing, lost their memories/identity, and are actively in an internal battle between nature vs nurture. You can go with the ultimate bhaalspawn x dark justiciar bad bitch romance route or the wholesome redemption story where the two break out of their cults through the power of love.

Like c'mon, even their names are both so extra. Shadowheart?? The Dark Urge?? Please, they're made for each other. I love my two silly amnesiacs, they are like that photo of the 90s goth couple at the club

#bg3 #my roman empire #shadowheart x durge

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Shadowheart & Gortash: Dark hair, HORRIFIC childhood trauma, chosen to the arch-nemesis of Durge’s god(s), snarky and sarcastic but sweet to the one they care about, goth..

My Dark Urge: I need you😳😳🥴……

#bg3 #shadowheart x durge #durgetash

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SHADOWHEART NATION, BING BONG IS CANON

#shadowheart #bg3

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durge/astarion this, durge/gortash that, where is my durge/shadowheart. Where are my bitches with memory issues.

#bg3 #shadowheart x durge

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ahdkdk sorry for the inactivity, have a shitton of doodles