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[chancewon]

he's grown a steady distaste for the luxuries the capitol took for granted ----- centralized heating &* cooling ; real sugar &* perfectly soft bread ; running water that left the smell of roses on the skin. IT WAS HARD TO STOMACH , the way everyone here ate &* danced &* laughed at the suffering outside of the walls of the capitol. he can't blame them , though --- no matter how hard he tries , he knows that this world of theirs is so perfectly calculated to prosper on ignorance. SNOW WAS NOT IGNORANT , THOUGH. no , he was a game master in all aspects. even now , peeta knows he's making moves on the board. it feels like the baker boy's never got the right pieces to even consider a proper countermove. it had been like that during their tours , too. when he offered money or talked freely about love ---- he didn't know the cost each time ; he just moved forward. what's the cost now ? WHAT DOESN'T HE KNOW ?

❛ school ? NO. they only ever talked about the war or coal mining [...] nothing particularly useful to a baker. my family ? ❜ a pause ; it's a complicated topic. the mother who laid hands on him -- the brothers who didn't volunteer for him -- the dad who stood by &* never stood up for him. DOES HE MISS THEM ? ❛ yeah , everyone misses their family. ❜ because at the end of the day , peeta's underbelly is as soft as capitol bread at its core. tongue wets lips as he shifts in his seat , hands rubbing together absently as elbows press into knees. ❛ i didn't spend much time in the seam [...] mom didn't let me out of the bakery much , 'cept for school. ❜

he knows what he's asking. DO YOU MISS FAMILIARITY ? KATNISS ? never had much of a home , but he did have family. chosen family , anyway. snow already knows his answers ; he doesn't ask questions to know ---- he asks questions to see if you'll lie. so he answers , honest &* warm. ❛ i miss the people. haymitch. madge. the everdeens ---- all three of them. ❜

MUCH OF HIS PATIENCE from the FAILURE of the 75th games had returned. he was willing to show mercy, so long as there was control. a CONTROL that only he knew the game of. and the Captiols aquisition of 1/2 of the MOST LOVED couple in all of panem had been by sheer luck, but in the end now NEEDED to be their greatest weapon of all.

peeta mellark had been a reminder of THE PAST, a subject not many knew of, NOR would ever. the boy with the bread mimicked a long lost girl, one with a guitar, a song, and a CAPTIVATING energy which held the attention of EVERY CITIZEN who was watching.....peeta was indispensable at this very moment, he was either going to become part of the GREATER solution, or he was going to REBEL. right now he needed some convincing; his attachment to katniss everdeen HAD to be eradicated, but in due time.

' it's always the little things that remind us of home. ' he spoke at first; the GENTLE FORMALITY of his tone almost soothing. ' do you miss it, mr. mellark ? district twelve, the school, the seam, your family ? '

#snowreignd #✘ verse : left behind #woof bro

[chancewon]

he's been in the capitol for [ . . . ] how long has it been now ? time's been fuzzy since he was ' rescued. ' every breath was monitored ; every word he said listened in on. he's never been so paranoid. BUT ALL OF THIS HAD TO MEAN SOMETHING ---------- he had to get back to katniss one way or another. &* for now , he was safe. held under lock &* key with no wiggle room , but he was fed &* bathed &* trusted. THAT MEANT SOMETHING.

as he's walking now , being led to the main office of one president snow , he's highly aware of the armed peacekeepers at his sides , just a step behind him. he keeps his hands perfectly still at his sides , careful &* quiet as always. then at once , he's sat before the man himself , blue eyes inquisitive as he regards @snowreignd. ❛ is it always so warm in the mansion ? ❜ he muses after a beat , uncomfortable under snow's gaze , but unwilling to be the mouse in a trap. ❛ i'm used to the heat in the bakery ---- from the ovens [ . . . ] but this heat is centralized . EXPENSIVE. ❜

#before they started starving him u know knasf #snowreignd #✘ verse : left behind

[chancewon]

likey for a starter thnx

#⊰ starter call ⋮ people who would miss me

[chancewon]

peeta + “that’s my wife!”

#he really do be throwin em #/ violence #/ horror #/ knife #/ machete #✘ the jabberjay / self #✘ the mockingbird / katniss #▐ * ⊰ relationship ⋮ real or not real

[chancewon]

' so katniss , i got offered a job at this pizza place -- '

#im here im just so worn out bc me & my friend have been hanging out for like ... 3 weeks #i am out of spoons asndfkn #but im lurking & sending stuff #⊰ ooc ⋮ have a little hope

[chancewon]

#I CARE I CARE I CARE #✘ the jabberjay / self #✘ the mockingbird / katniss #▐ * ⊰ relationship ⋮ real or not real

[chancewon]

~District 12~

thought I'd have a go at drawing the book versions of the main crew

(I disagree with a lot of things in the films, but making Peeta a short king was *chef's kiss*)

#look @ them #✘ the jabberjay / self #✘ the mockingbird / katniss #✘ the soldier / gale #✘ the mentor / haymitch #✘ the diamond / effie

[chancewon]

so suzanne collins just dropped this absolute BOMB of a passage — and many more, might i add — and we let her get away with it???????????

#shut the fuck up #▐ * ⊰ relationship ⋮ real or not real #⊰ study ⋮ real or not real

[chancewon]

No but YOU don't understand. Peeta, who's never been anyone's priority being Katniss’ first choice in all three books is something very important to me.

In The Hunger Games, when Peeta's name was called in the reaping, no one volunteered for him including his older brother who is not only old enough to participate but also a better wrestler than him. Even in the arena, Haymitch chose to keep Katniss alive over him. And the only person who prioritised him was Katniss herself. She chose to keep him alive when he was dying. She chose to die with him by eating the poisonous berries. She chose to go as far as defying the Capitol and President Snow to protect him.

In Catching Fire, once again, we heard his family would mourn if he died but they'll eventually move on. Other victors only keep him alive to form an alliance with Katniss. And Peeta still got captured by the Capitol in the end. But Katniss’ first priority was keeping Peeta alive. She made a pact with Haymitch to protect him. She was ready to kill Finnick or anyone on the spot if they dared to hurt him. She clawed Haymitch for not rescuing him over her. She became suicidal when he was captured.

In Mockingjay, Peeta lost his family. Then President Coin and other rebels didn't want to keep him (and other captured tributes) alive. And the only person who was visibly devastated over his capturing and hijacking was Katniss, again. And in the end, she finally chose him over Gale. And ultimately chose to be with him for the rest of her life. She gave him the family he lost and he became the family she lost.

“No one really needs me,” he says, and there's no self pity in his voice. It's true his family doesn't need him. They will mourn him, as will a handful of friends. But they will get on. Even Haymitch, with the help of a lot of white liquor, will get on. I realise only one person will be damaged beyond repair if Peeta dies. Me.

“I do,” I say. “I need you.”

— Catching Fire

#ugly crying in the club #⊰ study ⋮ real or not real

[chancewon]

temporarily putting peeta & finnick back on my multi until i can wrangle some fucking inspiration.

#solos are so hard i dont understand how you bitches do it #⊰ ooc ⋮ have a little hope

[chancewon]

he can't blame her for not watching the games . he'd have preferred not to , but in the end , learning how to win over the crowd had certainly helped him . it had always come naturally to him ------- talking to people ; charming them ; getting them to buy pastries &* bread they really couldn't afford to splurge on in twelve .

❛ the entirety of panem definitely saw me naked , but at least i didn't die of an infection like a complete idiot . &* it gave me &* katniss some time to push the whole lovers thing . ❜ he gives a soft ' thank you ' before taking his cup , then the milk . pouring enough milk to nearly overflow his cup , he smiles wryly . ❛ it's not silly , by the way . DID IT WORK ? ❜ he muses curiously . ❛ haymitch had us watch so many games to prepare for the quell [...] anyone who was still alive &* able to be reaped , we watched their game . ❜ he'd seen hers . watched her break . definitely not his favorite .

she's   quiet   while   moving   about   the   small   kitchen.   it's   almost   on   autopilot   that   she   makes   their   tea,   having   done   so   more   times   than   she   could   count   over   the   years   -   it's   soothing,   in   a   way.   a   hum   escapes   as   she   gently   nudges   first   a   cup   of   tea   and   then   a   small   bottle   of   milk   in   his   direction.         ❛❛   i   never   went   out   of   my   way   to   watch   the   games,   ❜❜         annie   admits   with   a   drum   of   her   fingers   against   the   top   of   the   counter   before   she   sets   about   making   her   own   tea.   

❛❛   they   always   brought   back   memories   and   -   well,   i   thought   that   if   i   didn't   see   them;   maybe   i   could   forget.   ❜❜         her   own   chuckle   escapes   her   as   she   glances   downward   for   a   moment.         ❛❛   silly,   i   know.   ❜❜         then   she   peeks   upwards,   a   corner   of   her   mouth   lifting   just   slightly.         ❛❛   but   since   you   weren't   walking   around   naked,   i   guess   i   didn't   miss   much   of   a   show.   ❜❜         

#soulwaned #✘ verse : the flowers are blooming again

[chancewon]

THG/TBOSAS MASTERLIST. If you are an independent canon/original roleplay blog from the THE HUNGER GAMES franchise and would like to be added to the masterlist, REBLOG THIS POST. Single and multi-muse blogs are welcome. INCLUDE the following TAGS: # character name # state whether your muse is canon or oc # if you are a oc, add your characters' home (e.g. district one) # if you are a sideblog, mention your main blog

#peeeeta #canon bb

[chancewon]

❛ i always wonder if she's scared i'm going to snap . ❜ he fidgets with his hands as his smile fades to rest . ❛ i can't blame her for it ------ but i guess it makes the most sense ; she doesn't want to set me off by talking too much . ❜ a quiet hum escapes the baker as he finds a seat at the little dining room table . annie &* jo were the only people who knew what he really want through in the capitol . saw the agony &* heard the screams . AN EXMPLE WAS MADE OF HIM , to ward them off from going against snow's wishes themselves . jo had been stubborn as ever , &* so she was starved &* beaten &* shaved . he's never dared to ask annie what she did to remain beautiful &* healthy . &* he won't ; who's to judge her for staying alive ?

❛ --------------- i don't think katniss would care if you saw me naked , ❜ he snorts at the idea , fondness coming back to his expression . ❛ it's not like she &* i are together . we just live together . &* besides that , believe me , she's always done everything in her power to not see me naked . ❜ a small laugh escapes him . ❛ did you watch our game ? when cato stabbed me in the leg &* i had to hide in the mud for days -------- &* katniss found me , but couldn't bring herself to undress me so she could get to the wound ? ❜ he snickers to himself . ❛ then all the victors kept playing pranks on her before the quell ----- jo undressed in front of her to make her squirm . KAT DOESN'T HANDLE NUDITY WELL . hence why running into me naked in the middle of the night once was a fiasco . ❜

it's sweet, annie thinks, watching him smile and laugh. it's a wonder he does after the capital, it's a wonder any of them are able to given their histories. ❛❛ sometimes it can be hard to find the right things to say. i remember coming out of the arena and after - ❜❜ the tips of fingers dance across the top of the counter, up and down and back again - just movement. ❛❛ no one knew what to say but it's the little things that can mean the most. ❜❜

her own fond expression is given and her eyes even roll as she turns back to their tea, adjusting the pot some over the small flame. ❛❛ i wasn't, but i suppose it's good to know i'll never risk running into you naked in the middle of the night - katniss probably wouldn't appreciate it either. ❜❜

#i like the theory that annie was given finnick's treatment as her punishment in the capitol #hence why shes in pristine condition physically #soulwaned #✘ verse : the flowers are blooming again

[chancewon]

he can't argue there --------- kids certainly weren't valued in the capitol , unless they were pure capitol bred . even district one was district . the way they said that word in the capitol was like some curse word only for hushed voices . of course a district twelve baby was nothing to uproot the fabric of the games for . can't blame the baker for trying to make them care about something .

a genuine , gentle smile curves his lips at the idea of johanna of all people with a kid . ❛ I'D TRUST YOU WITH MY KID . i mean , axe's are weirdly weighted &* you balance those just fine . ❜ a tease , while also a compliment ; gotta love a charmer . unlike finnick , he means it . ❛ i used to feed the squirrel's around twelve bread . burnt bread , but still --------- kept them fat so katniss could shoot them &* trade them later . DON'T TELL HER I SAID THAT . she'd hate to know i was helping her . ❜ an amused little grin tugs at his lips . ❛ we had pigs , though . closest to a pet that i had . ❜

❛ SEEMS LIKE JUST ANOTHER EXAMPLE OF THE CAPITOL BEING SHITTY TO ME, ❜ johanna shrugs, ❛ they'll only care until the thing is old enough to be in a games of their own, and then it'll be just like the rest of us. see who makes it out last. ❜

the uproar had been a bit surprising. not because of the capitol people in charge, but because of the sudden deafening sound that had taken hold of the stage before they managed to cut the feed and cut the tributes' display short. other than when the people who lived in the posh lives and got a thrill from watching the district kids tear themselves to bits, it was the first time she remembers seeing genuine shock and emotion cross their faces. not just disappointment when one of their favorites bites the dust, but actually seem to finally have a reason to want the games to be over as much as any of them. of fucking course it was all because of the tiny leech like parasite that took hold in katniss' body, but if it had worked, she's not sure she'd be that mad about it either.

she leans back against her arms as he speaks, letting the words flow through her mind without ever really considering them. sure, she could pop out a kid if she wanted, give the capitol someone else to fawn over and carry on the legacy that no one would have to worry about, but even before the shit show of this year she never pictured it. unlike, apparently, the victors from twelve, the whole white picket fence and prison life that anyone with kids seemed to lead wasn't for her. she doesn't even know the first thing about them.

❛ can you even imagine me with a kid? ❜ she scoffs, but unlike most times, the bite in her words isn't as harsh as it normally would be, even as she rolls her eyes to the sky. ❛ if someone handed me one, i'd probably drop it. not exactly a big fan of them, at any age. besides, the whole crying and constant feeding and staying awake just to tend to their every need and whim? if i wanted that responsibility, i would get a pet. ❜

#axewon #✘ verse : the flowers are blooming again #peeta whispering helplessly : im trying to relate to her

[chancewon]

MY BESTIE IS IN TOWN FOR 2 WEEKS SO I WONT BE AROUND MUCH IF AT ALL ! but i'll be back. don't u worry.

#⊰ ooc ⋮ have a little hope

[chancewon]

THE TRIPS TO THE CAPITOL are always a little unnerving to the baker . he knows very well that the mad scientists that worked for snow on the muttations are long gone with snow himself , but he's not sure his nerves will ever settle around needles &* white coats . especially considering he usually goes alone , always saying he wants to handle it alone . prove he can handle himself . so , to admit to her that it was indeed a triggering situation ? he's not exactly racing to do that . nor is he eager to bring katniss with him on any of those trips ----- god knows she didn't need to be exposed to the horrors of his mind any more than normal . SHE'S BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH .

❛ it gives me hope . ❜ he settles on starting there , eyes focused on his work instead of paying her any real attention visually . ❛ i know no one there is trying to hurt me anymore --------------- same facilities ; different doctors . &* i know they want to help me . the good outweighs the bad , if i can just push through . ❜ a long pause , his gaze looking out of the window as his hands still for a moment . ❛ you don't have to worry . it's not like they're strapping me down or anything -------- i'm [...] it's by choice . &* it's helping . i can actually sleep some . ❜

❛❛ YEAH, he is. we've experienced it first hand, ❜❜ the femme replied with a faint laugh and a playful eyeroll at haymitch's expense. she was glad that he still had those clear memories at least, especially on harder days. it'd take time to fill in the gaps in his memory when it came to her and she knew there was a chance they'd never be fully restored, but katniss would never give up. she'd do anything she had to do in order to help the boy she loved. ❛❛ i know you're not. you're still peeta, even if it doesn't feel like it sometimes with that loud head of yours. ❜❜ it was a joke, meant to lighten the atmosphere and she hoped it had. ONCE they'd settled in the kitchen, the two fell into a familiar rhythm. prior to now, he'd always worked solo in the kitchen. then, over time, she'd started joining him as an attempt to get close and comfortable again, and it had become a new routine for them. she could see @peetabled instantly relax as they cooked and smiled to herself before hearing his next words. she tensed slightly at the mention of medication, but quickly recovered. it was a touchy subject, as the lingering effects of his hijacking weren't fully known. ❛❛ well, that sounds like a good thing ❜❜ she responded softly, happy that he wanted to share that information with her. ❛❛  i mean, we've been trying to find something helpful for months. ❜❜ she chewed on her lesser lip. ❛❛ — how do you feel about it, though ? ❜❜ the last thing she wanted was for peeta to be put in another triggering situation.

#oddswon #✘ verse : the flowers are blooming again

[chancewon]

IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE HE'S BEEN BACK IN THE VICTOR'S VILLAGE OF 12 ; it was strange to think of how much time had passed since his reaping . chosen at 16. turned 17 in the quarter quell , &* 18 since the war passed . he was almost 19 years old now . certainly no longer a child , though it's been even longer since he felt like one of those . he can't recall a time that he felt his youth -------- maybe before school started ? when it was easy to just run free in 12 &* not have any responsibility . before he learned the real atrocities their world faced . his home was never a respite , &* he'd certainly had no lake to run off to like katniss &* gale did . if anything , though school was morbid &* mostly useless for someone who would never become a coal miner , it gave him somewhere to go that wasn't baking under the cruel eye &* tongue of his mother .

but , in his time now , he spends most of it working on the scrapbook of herbs he &* katniss were assembling . visits doctors in the capitol for therapy &* some treatments they're trying on him to ease his anxiety &* ptsd &* the remaining fractures of his memories . comes to four to sit by the ocean . ( one of his good memories of katniss comes from the quell -------- when she'd kissed him &* meant it next to the water . ) visits annie while he's here . he likes her ; his mind is at ease when she's near . maybe because he doesn't feel like the time bomb people look at him to be next to her . they were both shattered people thanks to the capitol .

❛ she's told me a lot . i mean , she has , over the last year or so . not all at once -------- honestly , it's hard to hold conversation with katniss ; ALWAYS HAS BEEN . she's not much of a [...] conversationalist . ❜ a fond little smile touches his lips as he laughs a bit . even if he wasn't with katniss romantically anymore ( or ever , honestly ) , it's clear he adores her , even as a friend . brick wall to talk to or not . ❛ little things that i've forgotten about myself , mostly . favorite color , favorite animal , whether i wear socks to bed or sleep naked ----- ❜ wry smile , head shakes . ❛ orange , mockingbirds , yes , &* once ----- if you were wondering . ❜

busying   herself   with   making   tea   was   easy   enough.   it   was   routine   by   now,   she   didn't   need   to   really   think   about   it   as   she   moved   about   the   small   kitchen   area.   cupboard   open   here,   drawer   there   -   no   second   guesses.      ❛❛   it's   good   that   you   trust   her,   ❜❜      annie   mentions   as   she   gathers   two   mugs   from   the   cabinet,   both   clearly   well   used   if   the   faded   color   is   anything   to   go   by.      ❛❛   katniss   is   ...   she's   one   of   the   good   ones.   of   course   you   trust   her,   it's   very   easy   to.   ❜❜      annie   gives a small hum as she leans her hip against the counter, head tilting some when she looks back to him.      ❛❛   what else has she said?  ❜❜                            

#the 'once' ended with katniss coming in and having a panic attack #soulwaned #✘ verse : the flowers are blooming again #& no i didnt write 2 extra paragraphs just to establish hes older now ansdjfk