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If a worker who isn't the owner says ANYTHING similar to "I'm not really supposed to do this but-" and then does something that helps you, under no circumstances inform the business, including through reviews. You tell them that the worker was polite, professional, the very model of customer service and why you like to go there. You do not breathe a word of the rulebreaking.

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Based on one of the funniest scenes from @prince-liest’s fanfic series 666: Live on Air!

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laios in ep 15

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Moon's colors also change in the much brighter area where he lives with Sun?

yes!! his scales become way more vivid and you can see the little differences clearly, like the ombre fade of his tail and the pearly shades of his facial fins and esca bauble. i'm excited to write Y/N encountering this🥰

for contrast:

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Demon Slayer, but Nezuko looking a bit unhinged.

I should do a series of this. Lol.

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funnier in my head? maybe.

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I had a dream last night that I was watching a new mini season of mp100 where Reigen takes the kids (now all in high school) on a roadtrip/camping expedition that goes horribly wrong- Mob isn't there bc he's at a body improvement boot camp.

Anyways a lot happened but these were the two frames I really wanted to have not been a dream.

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Yes master.

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he’ll be happywhen im happy

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I didnt likeit rgat much but Ithink its growing on me a little 🙂‍↕️

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workplace misconduct yaoi 🩷

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RITSU!!

I just picked some colors with my eyes closed and did a color pallete

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Not sure if this is allowed, but i absolutely adore your work, “The Cuckoo’s Egg” on AO3!! Very interesting to read, and realistic too, and i’m also just in love with how descriptive your writing is! Not mention the way you write dissociation and the struggles that come with having DID/OSDD, its so good. If i may ask, how do you view Mob and Shigeo’s (???%) relationship in the work, or just overall?

omg of course! it’s allowed!! thank you for enjoying my fic 😭 !!!

It’s still a WIP, obviously. Even though I haven’t updated it in uhhhhhh A While lol. I’ve written out bits of later chapters that go a bit more into it. Not so explicitly but basically their relationship is like this:

Shigeo is entropy, a spark that ignites as easily as it dissipates, a self-state that coagulates around a specific moment of emotion and burns through it. His existence is meant to be paradoxical, passing between observable and non-observable- like dark matter. He is emotional and volatile, highly reactive with like zero actual coping skills. Being denied feeling anything for so long, when he is essentially feeling incarnate, makes him extremely sensitive to perceived slights specifically from Mob. Because Mob was the one to deny him everything, and his entire world was reduced down to Mob. He feels one thing at a time, even if they’re fleeting sensations, and follows them with a single-minded intensity. He fronts for a specific purpose and steps back when he’s done with it, only truly defined as being whatever Mob is not. So getting along is like a catch-22, in a sense, at least until Shigeo’s gut-reaction to Mob stops being negative :’|

Mob is a framework, a rigid concept. He’s supposed to be rationality, reason, and “normalcy”. Because this is his nature, he’s diametrically opposed to Shigeo. They butt heads constantly, keep walls up and don’t communicate well outside of arguing and finger-pointing. However this is meant to be a temporary state, because during the time of the fic is when Shigeo is processing things, which can be very emotionally difficult because you look back on a lot of things you thought were fine and have to understand that it was very fucked up. Not only that, but Shigeo is an isolated case- insofar as he’s aware- and lacks the language to explain what he went through/ is going through. They do love each other, but that can make it hurt even more when someone you love makes you suffer a lot, so there’s a deep bitterness between them.

Note that when I write Shigeo oftentimes his identities are blended, and they’re not completely separate distinct alters unless it’s deep in the headspace. I keep it pretty vague because identity confusion and ambiguity is a main pillar of what the fic is about.

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😦 i mean wow... You really put all my theories into words huh holy cow

Thinking about ???%/Shigeo as a character today and losing my mind. Like he's so funny to joke about but also he's SUCH an interesting character (especially from a plural angle, ESPECIALLY when you're a system yourself) and he makes me want to explode. Imagine forming to protect a little kid and deciding you love him so so much and you'll always be there for him, and you love his little brother, and you love his best friend, even though the world doesn't love you very much. But you take it anyway because you have those three and your little family so you're happy. And you have powers and they're a part of you and the other kid and it's fine until it very suddenly Isn't, and nobody's explaining why, just that you need to Stop Having Them. And the kid just decides, okay, I'm sorry, I'll be normal. And you get no explanation. You just have to be suppressed that little bit more. You form because he can't handle being suppressed yet he suppresses you. And then one day it all blows up and you make a mistake trying to protect your little brother and suddenly everyone hates you. Everyone thinks every little thing you've ever done is proof you're a monster and you always would've turned out like this, and you have no idea what they're talking about. You made a mistake trying to save your brother. But because you look scary and act different, even though you've always been there suddenly you existing is dangerous. Because you made a mistake, you are now Irredeemable.

That would fuck ANY kid up. But like, think about it. Shigeo had no one except Tsumobi and Mob and Mob's family. And suddenly he has no one. Mob represses him so deeply. He makes one mistake and suddenly he's not allowed to talk to anyone, suddenly he's completely alone and isolated. He has to share a brain with someone who despises him. He has the trauma of the accident AND the trauma of suddenly losing everyone he loves on top of it. He literally had no one for years. No wonder he's so fucking cynical. All of the shit about "I don't trust anyone" in the manga? Yeah, of course he doesn't. The rug was pulled out from under him so fast. In his eyes everyone just hated him for no reason, because he existed, and everyone would hurt him for existing, so he could only trust himself. Yeah, no wonder he's so selfish, he has no one else there at ALL. It's just...holyyyy hell.

And the thing is if you actually look the little things point to him yearning for connection so desperately. He's still so aggressively protective of his family (even though he lost them a long time ago, they're Mob's now, they don't even know he's there. Don't get me started on that from a plural view. I won't shut up and will probably pour my heart out.), and just ...world domination arc. When he's so upset about losing his family. We know he doesn't trust Reigen. Yet he's running to Reigen for some sort of comfort because he's scared and doesn't want his family to die and wants someone to tell him everything's fine. And Reigen DOES and he believes him. He believes him and immediately passes out. The guy who doesn't trust anyone wants to be loved so so bad and wants to believe Reigen more than anything. He really clearly WANTS to be able to trust Reigen. But he can't. More on this later.

And also thinking about why the build up in confession arc broke him like that is just fucking sad, man. Everyone was telling them to change. Shigeo's been told to change and it meant "be normal". Mob isn't even the one who actually likes Tsumobi like that. Shigeo's being completely repressed and Mob wants to live without him completely. Everyone wants to live without him now that they've used his powers to get this nice perfect life (in his eyes, at least.) Everyone's just trying to forget he ever existed so they can be happy without him, when Shigeo never GOT to heal. He never got to move on. He never got to process any of the god awful shit that happened to him. Everyone's telling him, change. Be normal. Be normal so Tsumobi will like you. And Shigeo's so fucking stressed out of his mind because lying about who he is didn't even help Mob make friends, it didn't make him popular, it didn't make anyone like him, it just made them both miserable. He doesn't want to be stuck like this. Of course he's freaking out. We see in his encounter with the body improvement club that being told to go back to normal sets him off HARD. It's clearly a sensitive subject. "Normal" means "Don't exist" to Shigeo. Do you see why this fucked me up as a system yet. Oh my god.

And his breakdown is just...painfully understandable. Like, actually think about it for a second. Shigeo has never been shown forgiveness or compassion or any amount of understanding for his mistakes. He never was taught to mature or see any nuance. He fucked up, so he doesn't deserve any second chance. Nobody ever taught him compassion. He has such a completely black and white view of the world. If someone did something bad once, they are forever The Bad Thing. If someone was kind to him once, they are forever Good and Perfect. Teru was a threat once, so he is now Always A Threat. Reigen was a liar before so he is Always A Liar. Ritsu was sweet and kind as a kid so he is always His Innocent Little Brother. And Tsumobi accepted him as a kid, so now she's the only person who could ever possibly accept him. Teru sees Shigeo at his most terrifying, when he's actively hunting him down, and in the manga looks at him with fucking hearts in his eyes. Ritsu might not be all perfect, but he's trying so hard and understanding no, Shigeo isn't just a scary part of Mob. Shigeo isn't Evil. But because neither of their acceptance is perfect, and because they aren't from Tsumobi, he can't see it's even there. And also, another thing, his response to people acting outside of his perception of him is to get them away. It scares him. Teru isn't acting how he expected? Attack maim. Ritsu isn't afraid of him anymore? Teleport him away so he doesn't have to confront the change. Reigen acts different? Throw shit at him until he hates him.

It's just so...fuck man. Of course he's like that. He's immature and selfish because nobody taught him not to be. Nobody helped this kid when he needed it and this is the result. He thinks he's an irredeemable monster so he acts like one when he's told to just be himself. He doesn't see change as being realistic. He's been treated the same no matter what he does so he assumes this is how the world naturally is. He's just a bitter mentally ill kid who nobody gave any reason to believe that maybe the world is nice sometimes.

Another thing: I think he really really wants Reigen to care about him. Him going "I can't listen to him" is so intense with the context of the fact he immediately passes out to rest and let Mob take care of it once Reigen says his parents are safe. Reigen can convince him like nobody else can. He cares about him and wants to believe him and that's terrifying! He hates him and resents him and wants him to be proud of him and wants nothing to do with him and it's confusing and he just wants something that is (supposedly) guaranteed. He wants Reigen to care so badly and it feels impossible. Why would he ever care? He just wants to use him. The only way to bring Shigeo back from his breakdown was to show him that people can be kind without wanting something back in return. Reigen saying "you don't need me anymore" was the only real way to help him, to show him that he's not doing this for himself, but because he cares about his student(s). Because he cares about BOTH of them. He cares about every version he's seen and interacted with, not because of his powers but because they were them. He had to let go of them to truly help them here, so Shigeo wouldn't have any lingering fear. What helps Shigeo is the display of kindness with nothing to be gained and Mob finally realizing that Shigeo's just...flawed. They both realize that sometimes people are just flawed and fucked up and make bad decisions and just straight up hurt people. And they'll still love you. They'll still be worth saving. But you can't deny their flaws, for Mob, and you don't need to seek the perfect relationship to have someone there, for Shigeo. It just. Agh! God! I am always losing my mind over this story. Fuck. This SHOW .

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can u give me a doodle of narinder with absolutely 0% effort put into it please

Lamb made it

(I just drew it with my non-dominant hand lmao)