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The feminist part of me needs to win. Permanently. She's the only thing that can save me from internalized transmisogyny

#catgirltxt

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No the one place I really truly want to live is a small apartment in a dense city where I can walk for my groceries and take transit to cool places and meet my friends. My greatest desire is urban character.

#kowloon manifesto is correct #maximum density now #catgirltxt

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reblog for sample size !!

#hmmmm tortie but with more white than other colours

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OKAY series of polls about sock preferences because i'm a curious autistic fuck:

(if you don't wear socks don't answer any of the other questions)

#wearing contaminated socks is bad but the alternative is getting the conramination directly on your feet

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#beaches are a sensory nightmare #sand everywhere and then saltwater has that crust to it then the bright horrible sun #then the sudden shifts from cold to hot and back again then the sunscreen then the brightness #rocky beaches are more likely to be okay if it's overcast and cool and i'm just taking a walk along it #sandy beaches are bad for walks because that shit gets in your shoes

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not to be on my old bullshit again but i'm so terrified of the future.... to give u a quick summary, on the 6th of april my boyfriend started suffocating me and later depraved me of liberty because he wanted to make me his wh0re so he doesn't have to work, saying my only way to escape would be jumping off the balcony at the third floor and breaking bones while doing it. this situation lasted only a while and i managed to escape, but because of the trauma i had to resign from my new job after a week of training because i can't think straight. i am looking for a less demanding job, but it's borderline impossible to get any in my town + i've been unemployed since the beginning of january and i'm not eligible for any sort of benefits. i'm waiting for a spot at an outpatient psych clinic to deal with what happened so i can eventually go back to that job (the boss said i can do it when i feel better) but it will be weeks and i have time until the 5th of may to move out and start my life from scratch again as it's probably the day my ex(?) boyfriend leaves the hospital. also i'm so scared of being homeless and slipping back into selective mutism, i don't want it, especially now that i have to be stronger than ever before and idk what to do without any money so if u can help me in any way i would be very very grateful 🩶🪽

p4yp4l

ps. polaczki mam mnóstwo ubrań i biustonoszy (nówki sztuki nieśmigane) do sprzedania, których nie noszę i muszę się pozbyć żeby ułatwić sobie przeprowadzkę 🥴

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Literally why do I experience nighttime dysphoria.

#deeply stupid phenomenon

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today you have to draw the tgirl without birthing hips

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#FLAT FUCK FRIDAY IS EVERYDAY HERE BABEY

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People naturally gravitate towards adultier adults once they grow up and learn that adulthood is a scam. This is why men can get power and authority just by growing a moustache.

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I hate hate hate hate how dog friendly everything is in the city now. Barring medical necessity, there is no reason to bring your dog to a restaurant, there is no reason to bring your dog to the grocery store, there is no reason to bring your dog to the nail salon. Dogs do not need to go everywhere you go why am I being forced to be around dogs all the time

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Mommy needs to be honest kitten. You're not a kitten, you're a puppy, I know. Actually, that's exactly what I wanted to talk to you about. You've let this whole puppygirl thing completely take over our sex life and to be honest it's not really clear to me that you really enjoy it anymore. You really seem stuck in a short-term hedonic spiral from posting about it on tumblr and getting likes. And I know it's hard to get out of that kind of thing but it's really been getting out of control. You said "we're trying for puppies" to my best friend of 15 years. Seriously? How the fuck am I supposed to live that down? No one was laughing. The room was dead silent and I wanted to sink into the floor. And this was days after I was crying my eyes out over the infertility stuff. So you came across as kind of an asshole on top of it. Yeah, I know you didn't mean it like that but you can only point to "bourgeois morality" so many times before it starts to feel like you're just saying "I'm sorry you got offended" you know? Like every time I try to express that some basic social decorum is necessary to preserve relationships I care about you start misquoting Bakunin. And like look you have a lot of positive qualities but I don't think this is working anymore. We both know it hasn't been good for a long time.

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I still feel so disconnected from my transness, like it's shaped me in so many ways but I feel separated from it.

#catgirltxt

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No one fucking knows what a fourteen year old looks like huh.

#i see homestuck art and the kids look either like older teens or ten year olds #the human psyche is simply incapable of imagining young teenagers #tbh i'm kinda convinced all the cultures that said you reached adulthood around fourteen were on to something #like it's around that age that most people transition suddenly from baby face to adult face #an eleven year old is almost always a child a fourteen year old is almost always a very new adult but between gets blurry #and to be clear this is an artificial boundary because it's based entirely on a perceptual distinction being made between children and adul #that sorts faces into child or adult and cannot deal with interliars #but it's an entirely salient one to what seems like most human cultures #....wait a goddamn second that's just the beginning of puberty #i'm fucking stupid #but my original point stands no one knows what a thirteen year old looks like

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First you procrastinate on the task because it is not a big enough deal to get done urgently. Then you procrastinate on the task because it has become such a big deal that doing it is overwhelming. You would think that this implies a middle point where it is just big enough of a deal to get done easily, however the inherent perversity of the universe's causal geometry prevents this

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Urban environments I have fantasized about tonight:

LA

Clusters of small dense towns as found in western Germany.

#what the fuck is wrong with me #catgirltxt

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born to be your daughter

forced to be called your daughter

live as your daughter, love as her

but your child realized, those words do not fit 𝗵𝗶𝗺. he has bloomed into a beautiful boy, a boy who isn't afraid to express both his masculinity and feminity. a boy who still lives past your demeaning and dismissive labels. he is your 𝘀𝗼𝗻.