castiel

[castiel]

i'm not trying to start anything, but i just saw a post criticizing misha collins for not choosing to quit spn when the network was homophobic and he was "profiting from homophobia" and i just think it's kind of... wild? that young people think that a person could just. decide to not work for a prejudiced corporation when they have a family to provide for?

i don't know, i don't even really want to debate or go into it more, but it's just kind of surreal to see opinions from people who weren't there in 2013 when misha collins was literally the only person willing to support not just destiel shippers but actual queer and trans and ace fans. i have no doubt that he saved lives through the care he showed to vulnerable young people who desperately needed to see someone give a damn about them. he's significantly flawed in many ways, but he will always be a saint in my eyes for how much he cared.

like i just don't think that people accustomed to this modern era where hardly anyone blinks over two men kissing on tv can understand what it was like when we were mocked and silenced, when we weren't allowed to breathe the word 'destiel' without getting booed, and misha was the only damn person who spoke up for us. the only one. who was probably risking his job in saying the things he did.

things have changed. that's wonderful. don't judge people surviving previous eras by the standards of today.

#👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 #also. i’m sorry but have we all forgotten the good place’s lesson #that’s there’s no ethical consumption under capitalism??? #is whatever job you do perfect?? because mine sure isn’t

[castiel]

#DEAN 👏🏼 DESERVED 👏🏼 TO 👏🏼 LIVE

[castiel]

Agent Queen Bee reporting for duty. 

#amazing

[castiel]

Dean taking on the cw when he finds out Cas could have been balls deep in him instead of that rusty nail

#👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 #free will baby!!!!

[castiel]

Okay yeah I am really really tired of this. So I'm just going to say outright that what spn did with 15.18, with Cas's confession, that was a whole lot of people at spn showing their love and support. Writers, Jensen and Misha, the director, and anyone else who cared--which was a good number of people who worked at spn. It was the show full on validating fan lens and the deliberate crafted work of writers that had to queer code Destiel for years due to network censorship.

Crew members were in tears watching that Dean and Cas scene get filmed.

No, Cas's love for Dean wasn't last minute added.

No, it didn't come out of nowhere.

It was a 12 season arc payoff.

It was many seasons, who knows how many years, of writers weaving it into the text.

Who even knows when the deliberation to try to push it into text decision was made. I usually think Carver era, but then Ben Edlund said some things and...who knows.

No, spn was not gaslighting and mocking Destiel shippers.

The original plan for the finale at the time 15.18 was filmed had Cas be there for the ending. They made 15.18 in good faith believing they'd be able to follow through on Destiel, as much as they could get away with it.

15.18 was filmed in March 2020 and the pandemic production shutdown hit a few days into filming 15.19. Production shutdown gave some higher ups too much time to think, and too much of an opening and an excuse to strip back 15.20.

Without the network support the most spn could do on Destiel anway was thread the needle to get as much into the text as they could, even if they couldn't make it open. But they tried to make it anyway within those parameters. They deserve credit for that and they didn't know how 15.20 was going to be stripped back when they filmed 15.18.

So tired of seeing malice assigned to the effort of the creatives who did it. Who told that story within a restrictive system.

Cas's confession wasn't even queer coded. That was the moment it switched to loud and blatant. Misha even said he was astonished they were allowed to film it at all. Lack of network support and PR erasure set in afterwards.

No, it wasn't fanservice. It was integral to the plot!!!! The major giant stakes save the world endgame plot!!!!!!!!!!!!

15.18 was respectful.

15.18 was showing the love!!!!

#gay love can pierce through the veil of death and save the day #!!!!!!!

[castiel]

misha was so close to my face when i asked the last question. you don’t even KNOWWWW

#i would pass away #🫠🫠🫠

[castiel]

Would you mind passing on that destiel/fleabag fic you speak of?

but of course!

http://archiveofourown.org/works/31276931

#priest cas does things to me 🥵🥵🥵

[castiel]

I don't know. I don't know. + bonus:

#thank god that deancas fic i read based on this ended differently #<<prev i was thinking the exact same thing 😂

[castiel]

[x]

#ahdlfkglglglhh

[castiel]

Rob is really like “Misha we gotta rein it in”

#ahdjlfkgkgkg #let him speak

[castiel]

You know, that Mythbusters post legitimately changed my life. Before seeing it, I had exponentially more guilt and stress about not being able to sleep, which of course, further exacerbated my inability to sleep.

Now, every time I wake up about three am, knowing I have to get up at 6.45, instead of stressing and panicking about how my day is going to be sleep deprived and miserable, I just tell myself 'Time to activate Mythbusters Protocol' and lie there with my eyes closed safe in the knowledge that I am measurably reducing later feelings of exhaustion.

And when this happens, about 70% of the time the reduction of guilt and stress means I actually do fall back asleep, so all in all instead of getting only three or four hours sleep, I get five to six and a half.

Which y'know, major improvement in health and energy.

#same!! #i think about that post ALL the time

[castiel]

NSFW yonder on Twitter please do mind the content warning before opening!! :^)

#….. balls deep even

[castiel]

#i definitely shower everyday #i just don’t *feel* clean unless i do

[castiel]

HE

#he fr looks so damn good omgggggg #🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵 #ride me like a bicycle

[castiel]

I ASKED WHETHER A KISS COULD HAVE HAPPENED BETWEEN DEAN AND CAS LIKE WITH BUCK AND TOMMY IF THEY MOVED NETWORKS BUT HE SAID IF THEY WEREN’T ON THE CW THEY’D BE BALLS DEEP IN EACH OTHER????!?!?!?!??!?!?!???!???

#he’s like ‘oh honey. they’d be fucking’ #i love that this isn’t even the first time he’s said something along these lines so it’s definitely something he’s thought for a long time

[castiel]

dean makes sugar cookies and he doesn't have a cutter so he makes them dick-shaped and makes fun of sam when he refuses to eat them

#while cas is licking the icing off and making heavy eye contact with dean

[castiel]

I wanted to do something special for my Cas op - since I was imagining this would probably be my only chance to get one - and I really got it

The eye contact alone had me fighting for my life, but I was shaking a whole bunch and he squeezed my hands as I went to walk away ❤️

His eyes are so blue and his expression was so kind. And his hands are so big!!! Mine have completely disappeared lmao. Truly lovely man

#so sweet!!!! 🥹🥹🥹🥹