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So much happened in the month of May, and I didn't even get to track it all down :(

My newest resolution is to use this blog as a personal diary of sorts. And a thought dump too!

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My Resolutions

learn fluent conversational malay (step two is to dive into malay lit.)

build consistency (writing, studying, learning, reading, etc.)

improve my time management skills

keep a consistent gpa of 3.2 or above

write + read more

keep up with current world issues (this is inclusive of animal rights)

work more on my engineering practical skills

stop being so depressive and emo

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Bilal Al-Shams, Sacrifice

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Thank god they brought back An Amount Of Daylight That Makes You Want To Live. It was getting a bit scary for a minute there.

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I miss them (my OTPs who haven't made an appearance in their respective media yet)

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I think God put Munna in my life as way to trigger my rebirth. Look, I'm being melodramatic, but when I saw him, something in me wanted to pull myself together. I didn't want to waste way anymore. I didn't want to be a failure of an engineer anymore. I wanted to do better, be better, and seeing and talking to someone as awesome and determined as him gave me the push I needed to get up and get back in the race.

So, aside from God whom I owe everything to, I have Munna to thank. Had I not met him, I don't think I'd be this motivated to push myself to the top and achieve great things.

He'll never see this (though I wish he would), but I hope that he knows that he's one of the primary reasons why I chose to get back on my feet and rebuild myself.

Munna, thanks, man. You're truly inspirational and someone I look up to.

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Rawr!!! I want him to reply to me and tell me his reason for studying at my uni so that I can figure him out more easily!! I also wanna know what his MBTI is >:(

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Hope Doe - Niji no Karakata, 2019

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Aristotle and Dante: A Review

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OK, first off, this series was cliche as heck. It's like the author tried too hard to appear philosophical and wise but came off as shallow and obvious.

However, I won't lie, some of the one-liners were good, and they did evoke some emotions in me, but it still doesn't negate the fact that the characters and story were cheesy and a bit superficial.

And it was a bit unrealistic too, in the sense that the characters' parents never seemed to get mad or angry. It's like every character in the book was meant to be a wise sage or something of the sort.

Another I want to add is that Ari's relationship with his parents felt a bit...incestuous.

Case in point - the bit in the second book where Ari's dad tells him that he and his mum conceived Ari under the stars. I seriously don't think any parent tells their child when or where they were conceived. That's only for the parents to know!

Another thing that bothered me was how Ari seemed to get emotional over every. Single. Freaking. Thing.

Dante's mum said thanks to him, Ari gets emotional and contemplates life.

A stranger looks at him. Ari feels a surge of emotions and suddenly wants to cry.

Like, hello? What?

Overall, this series just seemed like a try-hard, wannabe contemporary coming-of-age series. Like I said, I did enjoy some parts, but for the most part, I just found it ridiculously unbelievable.

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Happy Year of the Dragon!

I love the idea of kintsugi so here's a porcelain dragon that highlights the broken seams with gold. Despite all the pains of hardships in life, we are beautiful.

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the fact that i'm no longer the same age as the protagonists of novels and films i once connected to is so heartbreaking. there was a time when I looked forward to turning their age. i did. and i also outgrew them. i continue to age, but they don't; never will. the immortality of fiction is beautiful, but cruel.

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Grief Lessons, Anne Carson

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Entry 4

6/2/24

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I had my last final today, and it was so-so. Still, Alhamdulillah. Honestly, I only have myself to blame because of how cocky I was before the exam.

I seriously never learn sometimes. Anyway, I think the realization that I'll have to discipline myself has finally sunk in, and hopefully it'll stay until I take my last breath.

On another note, today might have been my last interaction with Munna. And we still haven't become friends yet. I suppose some things just aren't meant to be :/

Honestly, I wish I had a Munna or Z (another person whom I respect and admire) in my life, preferably a girl lol. What I really need is someone who can keep up with me and someone I can have an equal-exchange relationship with. I help them, and they help me. Much like Munna and his friends.

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I wanna be friends with him, dammit. T~T