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Don’t waste your time doing what you weren’t meant to be.

ibelieve1975  (via wordsnquotes)

#a reminder perhaps

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I’m not sure which is worse: intense feeling, or the absence of it.

Margaret Atwood, The Blind Assassin  (via theliteraryjournals)

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#0r is it the reverse?

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ITS G0TTEN T0 THE P0INT WHERE I NEED GLASSES

i l0ve n0t kn0wing whats next

i l0ve having n0 0ne else t0 l00k t0 f0r p0tential health issues

what ab0ut y0ur ancest0r that was apparently real? maybe y0u c0uld l00k t0 her? well guess what! she was a heretic and f0ught against the empire s0 every trace 0f her 0utside 0f highbl00d pr0paganda has been systematically erased

#i l0ve having n0 0ne t0 talk t0 ab0ut this t00!! it feels fucking great #uncertainty is my enemy and yet my entire existance is uncertain #if i wasnt semi imm0rtal h0w l0ng w0uld i live? #whats g0ing t0 happen t0 me until i find a way t0 permanently die? #will i deteri0rate? #h0w l0ng will it take? #im n0t even friends with any 0ther redbl00ds t0 c0mpare n0tes with

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G0TTA SET TH0SE #L0WSTANDARDS

#D0NT EXPECT ANYTHING FR0M ME! ILL 0NLY DISAPP0INT Y0U AND MYSELF IN 0NE FELL SW00P

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I MENTI0NED FEELING ALIENATED BUT ITS N0T AS IF I D0 ANYTHING T0 HELP MYSELF IN THAT REGARD LMFA0

#PATHETIC! I KEEP T0 MYSELF S0 C0MPLETELY ITS A MIRACLE I HAVE FRIENDS AT ALL #IN FACT I THINK AT THIS P0INT BEING FRIENDLY IS ALL I HAVE G0ING F0R ME #IM TECHNICALLY A G0D AND MY LIFE HAS BEEN WHITTLED D0WN T0 A SAD RECLUSE #ID L0VE T0 JUST #BE #HAPPY? I GUESS #ENJ0Y LIFE LIKE I NEVER C0ULD BEF0RE #BUT I CANT AND HATE MYSELF F0R IT #THE NEVER ENDING CYCLE 0F A SMAD CIRCLE JERK

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THEY CALL ME ALIENATED ARADIA 0N ACC0UNT 0F THE WAY I FEEL ALIENATED 

#its n0thing im n0t used t0 already anyway th0ugh #shrugs

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felt a bit weird thr0wing this 0ut in the 0pen but: time aspect?

MAD disass0ciati0n 

all the time

maybe n0t a cause if n0t in active use but it definitely lends a hand

#perhaps n0t f0r every0ne but thats abs0lutely h0w i experienced it

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its a bit 0f a shame h0w resistant ive bec0me t0 using my p0wers

0nce up0n a time they were my reas0n f0r being, quite literally

my self w0rth was directly linked t0 h0w useful i c0uld be t0 my party and sessi0n

but we arent in th0se c0nditi0ns anym0re there is n0 need f0r what i can d0 and the h0nest truth is what i can d0 is scary 

#its scary and has n0 place in my day t0 day life

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honestly the best feeling ever is realizing you’re not sad anymore over something you thought you would never get over

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ITS A G00D THING IM N0T DEPENDENT 0N MY 0LD ‘FRIENDS’ BEING AR0UND ANYM0RE LMA0

#F0R A L0NG TIME I TH0UGHT SINCE THEY WERE THE 0NLY PE0PLE THAT WENT THR0UGH THAT WITH ME #THEY WERE THE 0NLY 0NES I C0ULD HAVE MEANINGFUL RELATI0NSHIPS WITH #BUT M0ST 0F THEM WERE *ASSH0LES* S0 THAT DIDNT PAN 0UT #THE DISTANCE ENDED UP BEING G00D F0R US

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i miss my wings

they were inc0nvenient at times but the feeling 0f them fluttering was s0 calming

like a c0nstant sl0w buzz 0r a thrum i c0uld feel thr0ugh my wh0le b0dy if i cared t0 use my p0wers anym0re im sure i c0uld still fly

but it just isnt the same! 

#its been s0 l0ng n0w im w0rried ab0ut what w0uld happen if i tried t0 summ0n them #the area has already scarred 0ver

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???

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#I WAS #N0T EXPECTING THAT? #I D0NT FEEL PARTICULARLY LIKEABLE #aaaaaahhhhh

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Sunset Storm by Samuel Sharpe Storm on sunset, taking through our kitchen window yesterday afternoon. Pretty happy with how it turned out considering it was a handheld 1.6 second exposure.

#A