callmegoofy

[callmegoofy]

I feel like I'm stuck in a cycle. I start to do better, then I get complacent, and then slip back into mediocrity. It's been like this my whole life. I need something to help break this cycle.

[callmegoofy]

Uncle Sam's Machete

COME ON!!

How do you not understand,

that you will die as you live.

You may like living on the edge,

until you fall and slit your neck.

You can’t ignore your fate,

just don’t drown in your hate.

CHORUS

Hide as you might,

you can put up a fght.

But just to let you know,

Uncle Sam’s machete,

will always live inside me.

Justice will be served,

on a long and sharpened blade.

You can try and hide your face,

but Uncle Sam will put you in your place.

CHORUS

Running is futile,

Justice is brutal,

The machete is sharp,

you’re gonna get torn apart.

The legend of Uncle Sam’s machete,

will always live inside me!

YOU CAN’T RUN,

YOU CAN’T HIDE,

FACE THE FACTS,

YOU’RE GONNA DIE!

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Disconnected Sorrow

Sitting, staring,

Looking into the night sky,

thinking and wondering why.

What have I done wrong?

Why must I wait so long?

CHORUS

Disconnected from the world,

sitting alone, my mind in a whirlwind.

The sorrow of the wait,

keeps me awake.

Waiting gets old,

I am not bold.

You need go for it,

not sit and wait for it.

CHORUS

When I am out,

the feelings get pushed down.

When I get back home,

the sorrow returns.

This pain,

it’s not a game.

But you play me like it is.

I will not back down,

I will not break down.

CHORUS

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Forfeit to Your Game

When will I learn?

What have I done,

to deserve this?

Thinking I finally had it.

Then being shot with your words.

Laying on the floor,

your gun in my hand.

Why do I even care?

CHROUS

I don’t want to sleep

because I’m afraid to dream.

You’re all I wanted,

then you tore me apart.

Just get out of my head,

and I will forfeit to your game.

It doesn’t matter now,

you’ve done your act.

Now I’m feeling the pain

and your feeling the joy.

Fell trap to your words,

fell trap to your smile.

CHORUS

Why?

Would I keep doing this?

To myself?

I think that you care,

but you went there.

You fucked with me,

now leave me be.

Just.

Leave.

Me.

Be.

And I will,

Forfeit to your game.

CHORUS

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A Long Walk Off A Short Pier

Watching the sunset,

holding my breath.

Thoughts of you,

swirling in my head.

Freedom just steps away.

CHORUS

I don’t run because I know

you don’t want to rush the perfect ending.

I take my last long walk

off of this short pier.

Don’t miss me dear.

This falling feeling,

it’s something new.

No problems, no stress.

Freedom flowing through my hair.

All I did is take a stroll to freedom.

CHORUS

Now,

I know,

When I’m gone,

Don’t cry for me,

I was a fool,

For you.

CHORUS

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Superhuman

I want to leave this deadbeat place,

Go to a city where I can shine.

Sread my wings and fly.

Make some riffs and drop beats that melt your face.

CHORUS

All I want is a rockin’ band,

have any woman I want in the palm of my hand.

Travel across the land.

I don’t want to be superhuman,

I just want to be the best I can

Fill up some venues,

making the pit move.

Hoping these dreams come true.

I don’t do this for the money,

I do this for the love of it

I do this for the people in the pit

CHOURS

Revved up, ready to go

Read to leave and start

Can’t wait to get this show on the road

Revved up, ready, let’s go.

BREAKDOWN

CHORUS

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Invisible Killer

It doesn’t matter where you go.

It doesn’t matter what you do.

The killer is there the knock you down.

Be it in the street,

or in the safety of your house,

everytime you turn the corner

you get pushed down.

CHORUS

The thing about it is,

he isn’t even real

yet you still have the scars.

You gotta fight back.

You gotta fight back.

You gotta fight back.

Fight against the pain.

Everywhere you turn,

he stand with a knife,

it’s shining in the light,

waiting to screw up your life.

You just let him do his work,

you don’t ever fight it

*CHORUS*

Stand up!

Fight back!

Grab him by the neck,

make your move to put him in check.

Don’t give up on your life,

you have too much ahead.

Don’t fall for his trap, remeber,

*CHORUS*

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Confidence Game

a tired and shattered man

trying the best i can.

no matter how much i say.

no matter how much i try

i cant spread my wings and fly.

trapped inside this shell.

it feels like a living hell.

cant talk the talk

cant walk the walk

i always seem to balk

at the moment in front of me.

i dont hold the key.

confidence is the name of the game

but out of the gates i come up lame.

i always sit around and think how i can do better

but when the time comes i just cant get it together

hands start shaking

palms start sweating

thoughts stop coming

words stop forming

i freeze in the moment.

i know in the future i wont get over it.

i fear the worst will happen

but seriously. whats the worst that can happen?

i face rejection in its firey eyes

and i fight through all the lies.

next time i want to be rock steady.

next time i want to be ready.

but what if there is no next time?

where do i draw the line?

its time to grow up

its time to get up

its time to gain some strength

keep success at arms length.

build up my confidence

work on getting better at this

dont be afraid to say my name

dont be afraid to play the game

run through the gauntlet

because it could be worth it.

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Bitter Deception

When I know that I have failed,

When I know that I have hesitated,

When I know that I don’t even try.

I feel like my heart is crumbling to pieces,

And when I feel my body become sore,

It’s because I am shattered at the core.

My paranoid faces laughing as I fall to the floor,

Inside my head is an ongoing war.

Killing me inside, as my heart crumbles to pieces.

My broken heart bring me to the floor (FLOOR),

Down to the FLOOR, do you even care anymore?

I’ll just lay here, wallowing in the pieces of my shattered core.

Feeling cold and along, nobody to care.

All I wish is that you could be there,

To tape together my torn, tattered, and shattered heart.

That pain that I feel, stings so hard, all the way,

All the way to my CORE.  CORE.  CORE

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Raven of Beauty (unfinished)

FEAR THE BEARD!

Nothing can compare,

to the epic facial hair

on this man.

His beard has been known to do things,

that will make a weaker man crumble.

When he is on the mound,

batters fall to the ground.

Not because he hits them,

but they bow to him.

CHORUS

Pitching by the Bay,

makes it a great day.

Because when we see that beard,

I see raven locks sway,

on the ocean breeze.

He is like the black bearded Santa,

delivering presents nobody likes.

His beard is quite mercurial, 

so keep him away from the tykes.

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2 year wedding anniversary next week. Time flies. 9 years together and she's still not sick of me.

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It's been a while. Glad to be back. I missed this creative outlet. Hoping to get back into writing, but I'm back in school, so no guarantees.

[callmegoofy]

I want to elope.

Is it too late to elope? I just feel like it will be easier that way. No drama. No debt. Just us.

But I want the first dance. The cake. The memories with all my friends. This is really bumming me out. I know how bad she wants this.

[callmegoofy]

Did it in October, but I'm still proud of it!!!

[callmegoofy]

What's going on with me?? I can't explain these feelings....

[callmegoofy]

U dont seem convinced bout tying the knot. Could b u know shes not the one like u want 2 think

What makes you say that? I'm wholly convinced, just has to be the right time.

[callmegoofy]

Stitches are out and back to work tomorrow. Thank God. I've been so bored...