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Hi everyone. Thank you so much for your unending love, support, & help with everything during this difficult time. Thank you for believing in me & helping me believe in myself so that I can continue to push through these obstacles we're dealing with. Something bad happened & I'm so saddened to ask for immediate help right now. This is an absolute emergency. I was bitten by our pet dog. He may have rabies. Animal control took him today to observe him and his aggressive behavior. My hand is looking awful & I can’t write or play my clarinet, but I’m used to pain anyway with EDS, IC, & endo…so I’m fine. I’m more emotionally hurt for many reasons. I’m very upset & heartbroken that Aaland would hurt me, but he has been aggressive towards me ever since I came home from the hospital after the miscarriage. I’m devastated that this would happen. More importantly, I regret to say this has caused a massive divide in my relationship with the man I was planning to marry and spend the rest of my life with. It’s crazy to think that I’d be pregnant with our child now. Anyway, he has changed significantly in how he treats me. He is blaming me for everything & asking me to leave on a plane back to Florida. I’m so devastated that I cannot comprehend what has happened. More details on how I was bitten below. But yeah, like, I never once thought for an instant that my safety & health would mean so little to the man who I truly believed loved me & had me as his top priority (under himself). I’m stunned. If something like this happened & Oaklynn attacked him viciously & wounded him, there would be absolutely no question or doubt in my mind on what to do. Adam means more to me than Oaklynn. He means the world to me & I would do anything for him. I love him with all of my heart & he’s given me a happiness & joy that I never even knew existed. He has helped with my health so much. He’s truly saved my life. It’s disgusting and so cruel to my heart to come to the realization this week that I don’t mean more to Adam than Aaland (dog), & while I’ve tried to point this out to him, it’s always an argument about how that isn’t true but I am, according to him, the only person he loves more than the dog. He told me if a gun was up to his dad’s head, he would still pick the dog. I told him families stay by each other and support each other. I was significantly wounded, & I am terrified & afraid of Aaland now that he’s bitten me. I love him so much & I don’t want anything to happen to him. Training so he doesn’t bite. He is a wonderful, sweet dog. He’s unfixed & jealous of me & Oaklynn, which has drawn out the aggressive episodes. When Adam saw what happened, he freaked out & was devastated Aaland would hurt me & Adam stepped in to defend me. But now, he is blaming me for everything, saying this is what I wanted, blah, blah. It’s so heart wrenching & unbelievable. I felt safe up here in South Dakota, in a home that Adam & I had made together with our furbabies. I feel like the family has been divided & that Adam refuses to even listen to my feelings or consider my health & wellbeing. He says I did this. But, I don’t understand & my heart hurts so much. I couldn’t have even imagined anything like this happened. Adam told me to let him punish him bc the dog has been abused in the past & gets mean & aggressive. I didn’t listen to him this time & I took a much safer & nicer approach for punishing that I learned from a dog trainer (this is when Aaland attacked my right hand/wrist). Adam has been telling me all week that I’m overreacting & way overexaggerating the bite. Well, several police officers (women & men) & animal control said no, I’m not. It’s a deeply bruised wound in my hand with multiple possible dislocations due to my EDS. There are like 8-12 puncture wounds. I felt so relieved & validated because Adam made me feel so horrible & like I was lying to get attention from the dog bite and milk how bad it was, when I just wanted him to look at it, acknowledge it, & try to understand why I’m scared. So it is a serious bite, confirmed by police & animal control. Adam cannot even admit that and say that to my face. He has said that I’m outta here & on a plane to Florida soon though. SO YEAH, I’m freaking out a bit. A lot. But really….I’m sorry. I love animals, but there is no question. Straight up human lives matter more than animals. My mobility has taken decreased significantly, causing me to have a number of problems, from getting out of bed to walk to the bathroom, to opening my medicine bottles & carrying around my basket of meds. I’ve fallen repeatedly over & over & over again the past week, as well as falling down the stairs multiple times, which Aaland actually liked my face to wake me up from that. Aaland is a good dog, loves me, & I love him. He just has really bad aggressive episodes targeted towards me & poor Oaklynn. I don’t know why. After all of this stress, my EDS has reached what has now become the worst & most dangerous levels I’ve yet to face with this progressive, debilitating disease. My knees are pictured after the dislocations & consecutive falls due to my EDS. They are now bruised over, much darker & purple. I need immediate help with my health & finances. It’s also reaching end of month, when my (roughly) $500 Cobra health insurance bill is due. Disability is taking so long, which is why I’m prompted to come here for help. There’s a set goal on here for a reason, & we need help reaching it. I would not be posting about this if it wasn’t an absolute emergency. This is having a detrimental effect on my physical & mental health. I am terrified & I’m struggling to not lose it. I don’t even know if I have a home now. I don’t know if I’m staying in South Dakota or flying back to Florida tomorrow. IDK. The panic attacks are never ending. If you are able, please help. Whether it’s by sharing, keeping up to date, or donating. ~ There are digital bundles of my artwork in Callie's Closet (since I cannot currently [physically] complete print orders and ship them out or ship out Patreon Rewards due to my health). These digital bundles & digital print sets on Patreon are 100% going towards my medical funds as donations. I wanted to offer an option for ya'll to receive some of my artwork digitally by contributing as opposed to donating & supporting that way only. Go here: https://calliescloset.storenvy.com/ ~ You can also contribute by donating to my PayPal & (be sure to use the friends/family option since I consider ya'll & all of my followers fellow geeky friends anyway). I have 2 emails: [email protected] OR [email protected]. ~ Here's my linktree where you can find all my other links and such. ^.^ https://linktr.ee/calliecosplay

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Awake this early thanks to insomnia... 😅 Heading out for some spiritual growth in a bit. Trying to focus on healing the soul so the body may mend. Enjoy your Sunday, guys and gals! 💖 https://www.instagram.com/p/Bnyc6dBDv7q/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1nvojb4gk9xmm

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Happy Saturday, Everyone! To let you know: I am alive, doing so-so. Here's a quick nofilter pic of me from yesterday when I forgot to post this update because well, I hadn't slept in almost 72 hours & might've been a little delusional by that point. Insomnia's been plaguing me extensively, & I'm still sick.Thank you all so much for your love and support. Y'all are awesome & I'm thankful for you all. You inspire me to keep fighting the good fight. 

!!!Currently medical funds are needed (and crucial) for medicine and this month's health insurance. Deets below.To read the full update, check out my GFM Campaign here: https://www.gofundme.com/emergency-surgery-gone-wrong&rcid=r01-153704851109-57abd0ddb80b4c22&pc=ot_co_campmgmt_w

If you'd like to contribute/donate/share directly, check out:

***https://linktr.ee/calliecosplay *PayPal: [email protected] OR [email protected]*Callie’s Closet: Purchasing Prints/Digital Prints: https://calliescloset.storenvy.com/*Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/calliecosplay

*NOTE: This is for those of you who have asked & shown interest in helping out. I love & appreciate you all the same, no matter if you donate, follow my social medias, buy a print, send me some goodies from the All Mighty Amazon, chat with me here & there, or follow me silently from a distance, but still showing that support (or even without any liking) by the click of the thumbs up or heart. Anyway, I only post & include this to answer questions from those of my friends & followers who wish/seek out to actively help me during this time. You never have to donate or contribute in any way to my medical campaign(s) to continue being a [loyal] fan/follower/friend or not. I love you no matter what. Thank you for still being here during what has been the most trying time of my life. Thank you all for your love, support, & time in sharing these moments of growth together. 

*Virtual Hugs*Cal

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Hi Guys and Gals! Thank you so very much for your continued love and support during this difficult time. Here's a pic of myself and my two loves who have been helping me *so* much at home. New Update with details on my GoFundMe Campaign here: https://www.gofundme.com/emergency-surgery-gone-wrong&rcid=…

I am still raising much needed funds, especially now with the new diagnosis (HUGE ISSUES WITH CARPAL TUNNEL) and complications and potential surgeries. Thank you so very much to every who has contributed, kept up to date with news, and shared this campaign. If you all can share again, that would be immensely helpful. I'll be sharing things again more consistently on my social media.

I also wanted to share this on here, but there are more ways to donate/help out and even get stuff too since I am going to be editing pics and I've added digital prints in my online store. Go here to see more: https://calliescloset.storenvy.com/

~~~ALSO~~~ I've had a lot of you also ask for my Amazon wishlist. Now, I never thought I'd see the day when I'd be publicly sharing a wishlist, but I made a "Medical Wishlist" just for things that can really help me both physically and mentally during these times. A lot of what's on the list are products that have helped me in the past and also stuff that my drs and therapists have recommended. It means so much to me that so many of you are helping me during this time, and that so many of you are asking how you can help as well. So, I've made another option other than just donating or supporting via my Patreon or Print Shop. Here's the link to the wishlist: http://a.co/iAJLwmy

There are a lot of ways you can help out, whether it's by checking out the links, supporting me in any of those ways, or by just sharing and/or following me on here while I try to get a grasp on my health and get my life back. All the links are neatly organized here: https://linktr.ee/calliecosplay

Thank you guys and gals so much. I hope to be posting soon with good news surrounding all of my medical stuff and my life in general. There have been many moving parts to this whole thing, those contributing to worsening my conditions and those also (more recently) working to improve my health in every way. I'm anticipating for the very day I feel good enough (and get drs approval) to shoot again, as I've been really itching to cosplay! It does help me feel better and I'm hopeful to do another cosplay by the end of this year. I love you all so much, and again, thank you so much!

<3 Leah

More Detailed Update: Things have gotten a little crazier. I have been sleeping for very long periods of time and have been extremely sick (almost throwing up daily, multiple times a day) and yeah...just waiting for the HCG hormone to still come down. I need to call several drs to get tests done. My gyno does want to do chemo (one injection for now) because my HCG is still not hitting zero. I'm trying to wait until it does before I call him back so I am praying each week that my HCG will be at 0 and then maybe I won't need the chemo. Still weekly tests until it is at 0. My meds have increased, so they are costing more, sadly. With the miscarriage being so extensive and difficult, my Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome has gotten worse so my dislocations are more frequent, extensive, and painful. It has also triggered Carpal Tunnel Syndrome severely in both hands, wrists, forearms, and up to my shoulder. I am having to wear braces to bed every night on my wrists. I had to decline a job I had gotten on base that I really wanted because of my health. I have been deemed unable to work by my doctors and they have referred me to Occupational Medicine to work with me on a disability claim. We do not know how long that will take. It could be months. Obviously, it is another month, so I do need help in getting insurance again for this month. I do have some good news that I will be sharing soon about some legal things that have been resolved! This will help immensely in getting through this and moving forward. My depression and anxiety has been bad and once again, my agoraphobia has peaked and I've been a shut in for the last month. I haven't posted much since I haven't really been on my phone or computer. Just trying to get better and move forward. Accepting some difficult stuff...the carpal tunnel is now preventing me from doing a lot of the stuff I love (playing my clarinet, playing on the computer, or even really being as social on the interwebs via my laptop or phone). I also have a bad ganglion cyst in my right wrist that has gotten bigger and very painful. We are looking at surgery for that and after the carpal tunnel results, we will look at surgery for treating and potentially fixing that as well.

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Hi everyone! Thank you so much for your continued love and support during all of my crazy medical issues. It was recently my birthday, so I've decided to put up the birthday shoot I did with @theartofalabazzia from a few years back. You can get any prints physically or digitally now (all of the prints in Callie's Closet) since shipping is delayed due to my current medical condition. All proceeds are going directly towards my medical funds. Go here to see more: https://calliescloset.storenvy.com/

I've had a lot of you also ask for my Amazon wishlist. Now, I never thought I'd see the day when I'd be publicly sharing a wishlist, but I made a "Medical Wishlist" just for things that can really help me both physically and mentally during these times. A lot of what's on the list are products that have helped me in the past and also stuff that my drs and therapists have recommended. It means so much to me that so many of you are helping me during this time, and that so many of you are asking how you can help as well. So, I've made another option other than just donating or supporting via my Patreon or Print Shop. Here's the link to the wishlist: http://a.co/iAJLwmy There are a lot of ways you can help out, whether it's by checking out the links, supporting me in any of those ways, or by just sharing and/or following me on here while I try to get a grasp on my health and get my life back. Currently, we are still waiting to here if it's cancer. Right now, I am set to have chemotherapy treatments either way. BUT, if my HCG hormone levels can get down to 0, there is a big chance I may not even need chemo (I REALLY DON'T WANT CHEMO, MY BODY HAS BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH). All the links are neatly organized here: https://linktr.ee/calliecosplay

You can check out my GoFundMe for more info and updates related to my current medical status here: https://www.gofundme.com/manage/emergency-surgery-gone-wrong

Thank you guys and gals so much. I hope to be posting soon with good news surrounding all of my medical stuff and my life in general. There have been many moving parts to this whole thing, those contributing to worsening my conditions and those also (more recently) working to improve my health in every way. I'm anticipating for the very day I feel good enough (and get drs approval) to shoot again, as I've been really itching to cosplay! It does help me feel better and I'm hopeful to do another cosplay by the end of this year. I love you all so much, and again, thank you so much!

<3 Cal

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#tbt (I miss cosplay so much)

Hi everyone. As you all know, I have been gravely ill and my life has been on the line for the past several months while I've become completely debilitated and await chemo and a cancer diagnosis. It has reached a breaking point where my life is now on the line, which necessitates medical fundraising. Read below for more info.You can contribute/donate/share directly via these avenues:

https://linktr.ee/calliecosplay

My Gofundme Campaign: https://www.gofundme.com/emergency-surgery-gone-wrong&rcid=r01-153490864358-e737795367c54ced&pc=ot_co_campmgmt_w

Donating to either of my Paypal Accounts: [email protected] OR [email protected]

Purchasing Prints or Digital Prints from Callie’s Closet: https://calliescloset.storenvy.com/

Joining my Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/calliecosplay

Because of my inability to function, live, and continue doing the things I love such as cosplay and photography, I have reached out to the community that has always been there: you guys and the cosplay community as a whole. Asking for help is difficult, especially for me and my social awkwardness/anxiety and such. But I’ve had to. To literally stay alive. This is why I started raising funds for medical purposes to, quite literally, save my life. Thank you to everyone who has helped, shared, spread the word, and just been there for me during this time. To answer many questions, I’m posting about the different ways contribution and support can be directed towards my medical fundraising. While I prepare for chemotherapy, await a very likely cancer diagnosis of choriocarcinoma, and battle with my Endometriosis, Interstitial Cystitis, Fibromyalgia, and now the worst of them all my Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome Hypermobility type (I’m talking constant and excruciatingly painful daily dislocations and sublaxations (partial dislocations) of my shoulders, hips, knees, ankles, wrists, etc…), I have opened up contribution options through numerous outlets. We are raising funds for my overall medical state right now, including but not limited to (very expensive) Cobra health insurance, weekly and monthly medications, dozens of doctors’ appointments, treatments, physical therapy, procedures, labs and testing, blood transfusion(s), transportation to and from apts and hospital, all medical bills including past and very near future surgeries and hospitalizations, and most importantly transportation and room and board for a lifesaving month long program Mayo Clinic in Jacksonville, FL has designed for my specific case. I love you all so very much and am so thankful for this wonderful community. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

Love and Light Always,

Leah aka Cal

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https://www.gofundme.com/emergency-surgery-gone-wrong Please check out my campaign! Trying to raise funds for insurance for this month. No update from the pathology reports that will determine if it's cancer or not. Insurance is vital tho, it's about $500 per month. Halfway there to getting insurance for this month but sadly I'll still need a lot for medicine. I will be trying to see what other options are available because I've gone full disabled, bed ridden and I am having a tough time doing everything, and really that's just leaving the house for drs apts. Thank you so much to everyone who has helped, shared, stayed up to date. It means the world to me. I had a pain management nurse practitioner tell me I should accept that my life will be unlivable and that there's no hope, and I was appalled because I have so much faith that I can beat all of these awful health troubles. It amazed me that a dr was already giving up on me and labeling me (though she doesn't know me and only saw my medical records).

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It's only gotten worse. Please share. Thank you to everyone who has helped. My life is dependent upon whether I can keep my insurance or not. If I cant, then I wont be having chemo which the results from that will be evident. My life is literally depending on this. I cant believe what it's come down to.

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Please read the new update. I'm being forced to go back home to FL. I'm devastated and heartbroken.

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Please check out the new update. I am at a complete loss for words as to the absolute neglect the doctors in this state are allowing for my treatment and over health management. Things have gotten out if control after my primary dr here moved away. Now I am facing all of my diseases and cancer without getting the proper medicine that I need and require at this time. Because of this, I will be required and forced to go back to FL. This is literally ruining my life. I'm just at a complete loss for words, as I am blown away right now.

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Check out the update. Thank you so much for your love and support

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Another shameless cat pic. This awesome guy makes being stuck in bed so much brighter 😻❤ If you'd like to be in the loop with my medical stuff, check out the campaign I have, whether you choose to donate or not, any support is greatly appreciated, including just a like, comment, or prayers. In this difficult time, any love and positivity is so dearly appreciated. https://www.gofundme.com/emergency-surgery-gone-wrong Xoxo https://www.instagram.com/p/BmCCaQ0jN4Y/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=dk5jx81wwus5

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I can officially say that no matter what it is, I need chemo. Also people, just stop. Stop questioning or shaming me for not going on disability. I'll say this once since I have not addressed it (ill be talking about the medicine issue again tho). I have applied twice since my health issues and diseases (which are on the disability list) have disabled me enough to stop me from going to school or working. Both filings were denied. This was before EDS diagnosis. My insurance now is so much better than Medicaid. I can go to Mayo, do 3 weeks of the program my drs want me to do and it is a 100% success rate to put my EDS and Fibromyalgia into remission. I can handle the pain from the interstitial cystitis and endometriosis. What I can't handle is all of my major joints constantly popping, sublaxing, and dislocating and relocating. I mean hot damn, I'm getting really tired of being a fucking Bendo. With my insurance I have a chance to get real help. Specialty help. Rare specialty help. Medicaid would throw me pain pills and I'd be doing the same thing I've been doing for the past 3,4,5 years? Being in bed and taking prescribed opiate pain medicine to function. Yeah, let's talk about the ugliness of meds. I cannot function without oxycodone. It is the only thing that helps with my pain and my doctors have dubbed it medically necessary. Well guess what. I dont want to be on these meds anymore. I want to stop putting a bandaid on the pain and face the real problem that can be fixed. This will be the most difficult thing I will have ever done. Even with whatever the fuck kind of fucked up chemo required sickness or cancer I have, i have options. Shame me for having hope. I'll just be smiling over here still trying. Sometimes for an instant I may lose that hope, but when that happens it just comes back double the force before and every downfall I have makes me stronger. When you have rare diseases, you face so many additional and unexpected problems in the medical system. https://www.gofundme.com/emergency-surgery-gone-wrong https://www.instagram.com/p/Bl_Tl1njXdm/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=tcofhndhzknr

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This is how my recovery has been. ❤🧡💛💚💙💜 My health struggle has been absolutely horrific. I'm on meds I dont want to be on...but then if I dont take them, the withdrawals and intense pain is unbearable. Having to worry about getting healthy is my number 1 concern and goal atm. I've I'd 3 surgeries this year and 1 more to go. The next one will be ultimately serious and requires hospitalization. I have good insurance now, but it costs 500/month and all the meds I am on a month is probably half of that of not more. I refuse to get on disability bc I know I can fight this. I know once I'm better, i will be stronger and my immunity will be superb. After this last surgery I will be kicking ass, I know it. And I cannot wait. I feel like the diseases have trapped me, but now I'm not letting them win. If you haven't seen my other posts, I have endometriosis, interstitial cystitis, fibromyalgia, and eilers danlos type 3 (hypermobility type). I also have serious depression and agoraphobia. Just ONE of these diseases can be paralyzing. I dont know how I'm still alive, honestly. I spend most of my days in bed. I hate it. I want to do all the things! And the light in me is starting to get brighter, I can feel it. Or thats just my heart problem... Obviously, the finances are a huge problem. The medical bills from this year alone is currently past 30k. I've just been avoiding it all. I am going to try go shoot. Weve been working on 3d printing a characters gun from overwatch. Want to guess who? 😋 I have a campaign, which I've been posting on most social media platforms to raise funds that I need for the medical issues. Raising enough to go to Mayo clinic would be a dream and the closest thing to a cure for my illnesses. My rheumatologist at Mayo wants me to do a 3 week program to put the diseases into remission, in a way. That is the ultimate goal. If you can please read and share. I'm going to put the link in the bio. Thank you so much for all of your support so far. I've been able to pay insurance. Some medical bills, and get all my medicines. I would be suffering and in pain probably going to the ER every other night and then just totally avoiding & ignoring costs

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This is how my recovery has been. ❤🧡💛💚💙💜 My health struggle has been absolutely horrific. I'm on meds I dont want to be on...but then if I dont take them, the withdrawals and intense pain is unbearable. Having to worry about getting healthy is my number 1 concern and goal atm. I've I'd 3 surgeries this year and 1 more to go. The next one will be ultimately serious and requires hospitalization. I have good insurance now, but it costs 500/month and all the meds I am on a month is probably half of that of not more. I refuse to get on disability bc I know I can fight this. I know once I'm better, i will be stronger and my immunity will be superb. After this last surgery I will be kicking ass, I know it. And I cannot wait. I feel like the diseases have trapped me, but now I'm not letting them win. If you haven't seen my other posts, I have endometriosis, interstitial cystitis, fibromyalgia, and eilers danlos type 3 (hypermobility type). I also have serious depression and agoraphobia. Just ONE of these diseases can be paralyzing. I dont know how I'm still alive, honestly. I spend most of my days in bed. I hate it. I want to do all the things! And the light in me is starting to get brighter, I can feel it. Or thats just my heart problem... Obviously, the finances are a huge problem. The medical bills from this year alone is currently past 30k. I've just been avoiding it all. I am going to try go shoot. Weve been working on 3d printing a characters gun from overwatch. Want to guess who? 😋 I have a campaign, which I've been posting on most social media platforms to raise funds that I need for the medical issues. Raising enough to go to Mayo clinic would be a dream and the closest thing to a cure for my illnesses. My rheumatologist at Mayo wants me to do a 3 week program to put the diseases into remission, in a way. That is the ultimate goal. If you can please read and share. I'm going to put the link in the bio. Thank you so much for all of your support so far. I've been able to pay insurance. Some medical bills, and get all my medicines. I would be suffering and in pain probably going to the ER every other night and then just totally avoiding & ignoring costs

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Stuff is getting worse. I need all the help I can get. Please share. Xoxo