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i only have sex when it allows me to further engage with the text in a nuanced and complex manner

#he wot now?

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DR ADAM LEVY ClimateAdam ROSEMARY MOSCO

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"Calculate your carbon footprint and use your yard to undo the damage you do ^_^" the term carbon footprint was invented by fossil fuel companies to shift the blame of climate change and environmental destruction from them onto people just trying to survive, stop falling for their propaganda

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frog chair

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Desolation Tim hnrhghghgh

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you may think your only options are

but in fact you can

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what do you meaaaaaaan this is baby sturgeons youre lying to me.... you just Shrunk him

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You've got the Sun

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"You Missed the Point by Idolizing Them" Starter Pack

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the magnus terrible basement offices with no windows more like

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always excited to listen to the new tmap episodes because one second your laughing like LMAOOO bonzo lap dance and moments later all you can do is sit there like this

#I can't wait to traumatize Twin with this :>

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elias took numerous language courses. there was no proper reason for this - he hates travelling - he just finds it fun.

he loves duolingo.

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More eye halo plus give him a friend!!!

#they would be such good friends

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So it's been a few days and the emotions have gone down, but it's safe to say this part of the Training Montage was a failure. The first half of it was ok, I hung out with a girl I knew and her friends, and she made sure to try and make me feel welcome. But I did get the feeling that her friends would have rather I not be there, and in fairness, I was actively fighting my anxiety the whole time and was kind of being a wet blanket. They did get me to dance for a while though, which is more than I normally do at these kind of functions

Then one of the girls spilled their drink and no one was making a move to clean it up, so I went to get napkins and I cleaned it up,but then my hands were sticky so I went to wash my hands, and on the way back I stopped for a cookie from the food table, but then when I got back to where the group was, everyone was gone and their stuff was gone. And I know, at least on the part of the girl I know, that it wasn't intentional, but bro the feeling of being abandoned was so strong. I tried going around looking for other people I knew but everyone was in their own little circles and no one really acknowledged me even when I said hi or did the polite smile thing and I kept feeling like I was just in the way, and no one would notice if I left. I stayed for an extra hour in the periphery, just in case, but that feeling never went away, so I went home. I fixed myself a strong drink, cried, and went to sleep

At least I looked fucking hot while having a mental breakdown

(You can't tell in the picture, but I had gold glitter eyeshadow on)

I have a grad student formal tonight and I'm TRYING not to be anxious, but it's the first time I'm gotten dressed up or even worn makeup here so I'm starting to get the butterflies

As part of my Training Montage, my counsellor has given me the job of introducing myself to two new people and asking them about their majors. Not intimidating at all. It's fine, it'll be fine

#sword speaks #I think what happened on my end is all of the anxiety came up from when I had dances in high school #and I wasn't prepared for how intense reliving that would be #so I went into freeze mode and it took a while to get me out of it #but then with my anxiety already primed and my RSD button was pushed it just made me go off the deep end a bit #but now I know that this is a Specific Thing I need to work on

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Petroglyph depicting whales,

Qaqortoq, Greenland.

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