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"how are you doing, lance?" I'm in my kitchen sobbing hysterically because of waffles and a squeaky fan

#tw vent #purrsonal #i want nothing more right now than to just fucking die and let it be done #there's so much more than this but i just #it doesn't matter nothing fucking matters

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hi, hello, i will be so furreal right now, um. we need help!! my stepdad started his job but he doesn't get paid for three weeks. my mom's disability won't come in for a week and a half, and it's fully going to rent. i got hired part time, but won't get paid until next month. there's no food in the house, we don't have gas in the car, and the landlords are doing a surprise property check on sunday. everything's a mess because we haven't had money to buy cleaning supplies.

right now, we need about $75 to get some food essentials and some cleaning supplies for Sunday.

anything helps right now! boosting is appreciated!

#crowdfunding #financial aid #mutual aid #fundraising #god i am dissociating so fucking bad i'm so scared #i know it's probably fine like they're pretty cool people like we've been here a year it's a normal check-in #but i'm so scared they're gonna be like. oh and btw. we're selling the house. #because we will be homeless. we don't even have the money to eat let alone fucking move

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me: i wanna be active again, i think i'm ready to come back!

my mental health:

#i'll be pretty fr w yall rn #these mood stabilizers #aren't really mood stabilizing #in fact i have been teetering on the brink of a severe breakdown for several weeks now #he says as if he's not actively having one of the worst mental health episodes in like a year #tw vent #purrsonal

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#sobbing #it was black butler for me too unfortunately

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#THIS IS LLAMAS WITH HATS AND ASDF MOVIE ERASURE #that being said. CHAAAAAARLIE WE HAVE TO GO TO CANDY MOOOUNTAIN

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“Get a rat and put it in a cage and give it two water bottles. One is just water, and one is water laced with either heroin or cocaine. If you do that, the rat will almost always prefer the drugged water and almost always kill itself very quickly, right, within a couple of weeks. So there you go. It’s our theory of addiction. Bruce comes along in the ’70s and said, “Well, hang on a minute. We’re putting the rat in an empty cage. It’s got nothing to do. Let’s try this a little bit differently.” So Bruce built Rat Park, and Rat Park is like heaven for rats. Everything your rat about town could want, it’s got in Rat Park. It’s got lovely food. It’s got sex. It’s got loads of other rats to be friends with. It’s got loads of colored balls. Everything your rat could want. And they’ve got both the water bottles. They’ve got the drugged water and the normal water. But here’s the fascinating thing. In Rat Park, they don’t like the drugged water. They hardly use any of it. None of them ever overdose. None of them ever use in a way that looks like compulsion or addiction. There’s a really interesting human example I’ll tell you about in a minute, but what Bruce says is that shows that both the right-wing and left-wing theories of addiction are wrong. So the right-wing theory is it’s a moral failing, you’re a hedonist, you party too hard. The left-wing theory is it takes you over, your brain is hijacked. Bruce says it’s not your morality, it’s not your brain; it’s your cage. Addiction is largely an adaptation to your environment. […] We’ve created a society where significant numbers of our fellow citizens cannot bear to be present in their lives without being drugged, right? We’ve created a hyperconsumerist, hyperindividualist, isolated world that is, for a lot of people, much more like that first cage than it is like the bonded, connected cages that we need. The opposite of addiction is not sobriety. The opposite of addiction is connection. And our whole society, the engine of our society, is geared towards making us connect with things. If you are not a good consumer capitalist citizen, if you’re spending your time bonding with the people around you and not buying stuff—in fact, we are trained from a very young age to focus our hopes and our dreams and our ambitions on things we can buy and consume. And drug addiction is really a subset of that.”

—

Johann Hari,

Does Capitalism Drive Drug Addiction?

(via bigfatsun)

#put me in rat park it would fix me

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#French Fry.....

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the neopets april fools joke is mildly unhinged

#IM GONNA USE YOU KNOW NOTHING FOR FUCKING EVERYTHING.

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BITTY CROSSING...

#BEEP BEEP

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hey look up "[your birth month(in numbers not words)][your birth day] pokemon". if it's over 1025 remove the last digit. that's you as a pokemon now what did you get

#FUCK YEAH POPPLIO

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BITTY CROSSING...

#furry #sfw furry #fursona #my art tag #bitty tag #WIT DA LANCE JACKET. D U H .

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everybody give it up for this brand of green. round of applause for most under appreciated green

#HEY IM WEARING THAT LAST ONE RM #WOOOOO

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GUYS THERES A MAMA POSSUM AND BABIES IN MY BACKYARD

#purrsonal #THEYRE SO FUCKING CUTE

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👀👀 not gonna name names but SOME of u are sweet and kind and deserve the world and i am rooting for u

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P a s t e l S k i e s

#AFTERNOON REBLOG OF FLUFFY BABY #He gets fluffier and scruffier every time i draw him

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P a s t e l S k i e s

#furry #furry art #sfw furry #anthro #digital art #icons #my art tag #bitty tag #HE CAME OUT SO CUTE #this is my favorite brush

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“Kazul’s not my dragon.“ Cimorene said sharply. “I’m her princess. You’ll never have any luck dealing with dragons if you don’t get these things straight.”

Dealing With Dragons - Patricia C. Wrede

#HELL YEAH #THESE BOOKS WERE MY FUCKING JAM