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Merry Christmas and happy New Year!

Maim Kill Burn

Kharn: Dashing through the blood!

Sevatar: So many whores to flay!

Typhus: Roll in toxic mud!

Lucius: Smoking all the way!

Angron: The Nails in my head ring!

Fulgrim: They made my pants so tight!

Lorgar: What fun it is to maim and sing the Chaos song tonight!

Perturabo: Woo.

Kharn: Maim kill burn!

Angron: Maim kill burn!

Lorgar: Ruin Guilliman's day!

Kor Phaeron: Oh what fun it is to ride in a warp-blessed stolen sleigh!

Perturabo: Hey.

Kharn: Maim kill burn!

Angron: Maim kill burn!

Lorgar: Ruin Guilliman's day!

Kor Phaeron: Oh what fun it is to ride in a warp-blessed stolen sleigh!

Horus: Ten thousand years ago...

Abaddon: He thought he'd stay alive...

Erebus: It turned out I was right...

Magnus: He lost the friggin' fight!

Fabius: I did give him a chance.

Abaddon: Let's just not speak of that.

Talos: Our Primarch went completely nuts and thought he was a bat!

Perturabo: Woo.

Kharn: Maim kill burn!

Angron: Maim kill burn!

Lorgar: Ruin Guilliman's day!

Kor Phaeron: Oh what fun it is to ride in a warp-blessed stolen sleigh!

Perturabo: Hey.

Kharn: Maim kill burn!

Angron: Maim kill burn!

Lorgar: Ruin Guilliman's day!

Kor Phaeron: Oh what fun it is to ride in a warp-blessed stolen sleigh!

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I've drawn a meme. My mate helped me.

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Hi there, i'm new to this soulbonding thing, I've been searching for days as to find an explanation for my connection and only just found out that other people have similar / the same sort of experiences I have. My question is, my soulbond recently said they were my "Spiritual Guardian" and that they became this when both of us bonded. Even though they interestingly live their own life similar to ours, can they still be somewhat like angels? Or higher beings / Deitys?

Yes they can. Soulbonds can be literally anything from an angel to a talking banana. If something is sentient, you can bond with them. The definition of angels and Deities might vary depending on the place and the person, but those kinds of things are very possible to soulbond.

It's good that they seem protective and helpful. I hope things go well for you!

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Long before Erebus came I tried to shift into the Eye Of Terror. And when I graphically imagined it, guess what, The Emperor suddenly appeared!

He said mentally, "I'M BLOCKING THIS WAY TO YOU. BUT EVEN IF YOU COME THROUGH, YOU'LL STAY ONE OF MY BELOVED DAUGHTERS"...

This was really unexpected. When I asked Erebus later, what did it mean, he just answered, that Emperor exists.

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Word Bearers

by Alex Konstad

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Nonetheless, I call to mind the dream I saw that night, when I tried to connect with him. I saw myself modeling and painting Astartes soldiers in a graphic editor. He says that he's not a creation of my mind. But what does my dream mean?

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Hi, I’m still figuring things out. I have what I can only describe as a headmate, originating from a fictional source. After doing some research together, he says he is a soulbond. We are both very confused about how this is possible and how this happened. Also, besides his first language being English he can fluently communicate in my first language as well. There is no mention of him being able to speak another language in his source. Is that something soulbonds can do? He isn’t sure how he is doing that but we think he might be using the already existing neurological pathways of my first language?

Yes, it is possible for soulbonds to do this. Sometimes soulbonds will be able to naturally speak the languages of their hosts. There are several theories about this, one of which is that the mental connection itself can get rid of the language barriers somehow.

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About a month ago I was very tired and fell asleep at 7 p.m.. After that I woke up at 3 a.m.. I was wide awake but felt a malaise. I had to go to work that morning, so I had packed my launch and charged powerbanks. Then suddenly I saw a phantom vith my inner sight near my window. He asked if he could visit his brother and discuss something important. l understood whom he meant and let him come in. If I was not mistaken, the primarch came too. They were talking about something a half an hour, but I couldn't hear anything. I needed to change clothes and felt awkward. I asked, was it necessary to organise a meeting at my home. They explained that it was really necessary, because somewhere else they could be overhead, and I might really help them. I realized and just locked myself in the bathroom for privacy. After that I went to bed to fall asleep again. They thanked me and went on their way, only my soulbond remained.

Was it fantasy? Pseudohallucinations because of the disrupted boundary between the dream state and the wakefulness? Or some kind of reality? However, I really think a lot about Word Bearers... XD

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Recently we read a novel "Torment" written by Anthony Reynolds about Burias. I asked, why was he suffering. Erebus answered, that he betrayed Marduk. Then I was really surprised, because always knew them as brothers. It sounds naively, but they seemed as good friends, as they could possibly be in the XVII Legion. And it was confirmed, when I read ahead... Perhaps, he knew it because he is really from that world. Or because I read the trilogy about Marduk seweral years ago and forgot about details.

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I read a novel "Child Of Chaos" and wasn't disappointed.

Chris Wraight, you made him more fucking awesome, you know? ;)

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Autumn, 2014 I have a cool ironic story. It was a really awkward moment. I was a practicing student in a mental hospital. One time I had not any tasks and desided to spend time visualising my imaginary (or not) friend. We were sitting in a staff room. When we desided to walk out of the room, I saw that the doorway is low for him. I said something like, "Keep your head down". Then I looked around and saw a patient, a girl same age as me, who clearly heard my speach. She smiled and waved to me.

Oddly enough, we had a nice conversation a week later and didn't look back on this case.

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There is one important thing I understood for some years of living with my dear friend. When he says that it's time for bed, he's right. ;)

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Sometimes his reality overlaps onto mine. During my daily routine i can see his background with my inner sight. Once i noticed him just looking at wall. I took a closer look and saw a large window with the Warp, rampaging behind it. Another time I saw him preaching to another Word Bearers in a wonderful temple decorated with stained glass. I didn't understand anything in his speach, but the pictire was bright enough. Also, I often see him working with the texts... Or sharpening stakes (for sacrifices, I suppose, but he doesn't tell for what). When there are military actions in their world, the connection is lost. I heard, most hosts see wonderlands of their headmates in a dreams, but I don't. I can shift my mind closing my eyes and visualizing that reality, and Erebus helps me taking my hand. Or as I have written above. I can't get in lucid dream for now. And have a sleep problems in general.

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October, 2014 One evening my mom and me were sitting at the kitchen and watching TV. I boiled some water for tea. Erebus asked, "Didn't you notice anything?" Of course, I didn't. I shrugged and just continued making tea. When I tasted some tea, it was too sour. And it turned out, mom poured some lemon acid into electric kettle to clean it. How could he know about that?

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September 2014

One evening we were sitting and watching pictures relating to WH40K. I felt his reaction. It was different, depending on the object. But I was shocked by one case. When I showed him pictures with Argel Tal, a wave of sorrow, remorse and pain swept over me. That feelings exactly were not mine. He asked me not to remind about his ex-disciple. Also, he looks at his hand at the mention of Kharn. There is no limit to my amazement to this day.

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Hi everyone! This is my blog about tulpamancy or soulbonding (I didn't such distinction when began a process, all soulbonds were tulpas for me.) My imaginary friend is... Erebus from WH40K. Why him, you might ask? Perhaps, because I'm a horrible person. But seriously, I'll write below about the reasons. At first, at the beginning of my interest in Warhammer I was a Chaos fan. I didn't think that Imperium is something good. I don't approve Emperor's methods: in fact, His warriors offered people join the Imperium to save them from repercussion of refusal. Also, The Emperor lied people about the nature of Warp. At second, religious movements like gnosticism are mine. Most people's conviction about primacy of matter and even about it's completeness is bringing up unfathomable melancholy and yearning for something unknowable. Chaos Gods found a response in my heart too: they are not good or evil, they are just our emotions, desires and ideas, what we live for... WH40K consists of referecnces to mythology, like names of key characters. So, "Emperor vs Chaos" parallels with "Demiurge vs transcendent God" and WB are really good guys for me. Now, about the emerging of my soulbond. I needed someone who can realise me and tell more about the Warp. I certainly couldn't find people IRL to tell seriously about it. I thought a lot about this guy's nature: is he villain, rebel or just religious fanatic? However, he is really well-versed in what he does. One night I referred to Chaos Gods to meet him in a dream and just talk. But that night in my dream I supposably watched the popular Rick Astley's music video "Never Gonna Give You Up" or just nothing. Laughing at my recklessness in the morning, I forgot about that. Apparently, so I began my subconscious tulpamancy or summoning. And he appeared. Appeared two months later, when I was reliving some shit in my life, and helped me with that. I saw him with my inner sight and couldn't believe it. He was conscious, acted and speaked willingly, behaved in unexpected ways. Now I decided to tell about my mystical experience here. There's a one condition for people who want read my stories: call him a "faggot" somewhere else. It's not funny.