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February 2023, still don't know what I'm supposed to do...

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seeing my old posts, knowing how miserable i am and still am now wow i need to share happy posts from now on

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@doseofsociety - TikTok

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#quotesoftheday #27022023

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week by week life has been a challenge, i would say these few months might have been the hardest for me, it felt like how i lost my mom. im like a zombie. walking without a soul inside of me. i remember it how zero it was. its painful but more to emotionally. im battling this on my own now. even with me, talk it off with someone, the pain is still there. what is this actually? am i sick? i know this started from this new job. im trying so hard to try to make it okay, but this is hard. ya allah i know this is a test for me. please make it ease for me to go through with it.

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At this point, in order for me to reach to london during this pandemic. I need to marry someone who lives in london.

Why in london? Well why not!?

Can’t a girl dream?!

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Visual Massage (Marseille, 2017) HQ

My sites: Tumblr - Giphy - Twitter - Makersplace

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This September 2020, it’ll be my third year of working in this current company.

For the first time ever, I don’t want to work. I don’t care anymore. I’m doing marketing, but now I just feel, can I get a new work that does not involve any marketing?

I’m sick of social media, but yet here I am. I’m stuck with them mainly because of work. Other just because of world update.

With knowing my main boss treated my like I’m capable of all, I just don’t feel like want to continue my future with this company anymore.

From handling marketing to receptionist? All those hard work I’m doing just to thought I’m learning and coping to this new work, apparently they don’t think of me as more.

Some people might see this an opportunity to impress your boss, impressing your boss by doing work that is obviously a lower field than your current field? That’s not impressing at all.

It’s been awhile I haven’t write this long, and yes if I don’t write here in Tumblr, probably I’m doing okay. Well not so much now, people around me, yes they sometimes listen but yes. It’s different. They’re there, but not there.

I’m not blaminng anyone for this, this is my own problem. I’m not liking how the current situation is happening now, I wanted to change but I don’t know how, people do share their thoughts but I don’t think that’s what I want.

But what actually I do want?!?!?

Up until now, I still don’t know what I want in life. I want happiness and I want to travel, that’s just normal, but as for work and dreams in careers.. goals..

It still doesn’t to pop out yet...

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Took a nap on a Sunday after a long time of not having a nap. I took it not bcause of of I’m tired, just cause I want to take my mind of things.

Bad move.

Now I’m having headache from it.

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July,2020. This GIF sums it all what I’m feeling right now.