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BPD culture is PLEASE just be honest with me about everything. PLEASE tell me every little thought you have about me. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE JUST BE HONEST WITH ME I KNOW IT'LL HURT BUT I NEED TO KNOW WHAT I NEED TO CHANGE ABOUT MYSELF SO YOU WON'T LEAVE ME

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thanks for triggering my abandonment issues again, have a nice day.

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i genuinely want to relapse so bad like it’s not even funny.

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When your anger disappears but instead of being happy now you just feel empty and disconnected <<<

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Vincent van Gogh, from a letter to Wil van Gogh. May 1889. The Illustrated Provence Letters of van Gogh selected and edited by Martin Bailey

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I literally feel dead in a living body

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just gonna leave this here.

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*ziet een neerwaartse spiraal van mijlenver aankomen* wow ik ben echt benieuwd naar wat er op de bodem te vinden is

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one of my only friends who also has bpd has a tattoo that says forever suicidal and I feel like thats just such a mood when you have to feel the level of anguish that is associated with bpd… it’s like you’re haunted or cursed with a sword through your heart and life just twists it over and over

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should i over explain myself or remain

misunderstood

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my anhedonia is eating me alive so i’m making these mental illness memes to cope

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BPD culture is…

Also have other disorders and always wondering if it’s the BPD or something else.

AlwaYs questioning if you REAlly have BPD or are just being dramatic.

Wanting to hurt yourself … then being fine a few minutes later

Punishing yourself in any way you can bc you feel like you deserve it, ex. Starving, letting yourself get really cold ect

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BPD culture is feeling so much that the fire burns itself out and you just, don't feel anymore.

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it was his fault not mine

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bpd + autism culture is having a strong sense of justice but always feeling like you're being dramatic because of how overwhelming your emotions are

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