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I watched LoA last night (again!) and I had this idea…

So the part near the end where the military doctor and Lawrence are interacting, the part where the doctor is screaming “OUTRAGEOUS!!!” in Lawrence’s face and then Lawrence starts laughing, so the doctor slaps him, I half expected Ali to appear out of nowhere with that LOOK of his, like “don’t touch my bf or you die”. I was sadly disappointed, even though I’ve seen the movie before XD

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....seems appropriate today!

Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;

Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,

The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere

The ceremony of innocence is drowned;

The best lack all conviction, while the worst

Are full of passionate intensity.

Surely some revelation is at hand....

a vast image out of Spiritus Mundi

Troubles my sight: somewhere in sands of the desert

A shape with lion body and the head of a man,

A gaze blank and pitiless as the sun,

Is moving its slow thighs, while all about it

Reel shadows of the indignant desert birds.

The darkness drops again; but now I know

That twenty centuries of stony sleep

Were vexed to nightmare by a rocking cradle,

And what rough beast, its hour come round at last... Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?

From the poem by

Yeats The Second coming

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" for the world, which seems To lie before us like a land of dreams, So various, so beautiful, so new, Hath really neither joy, nor love, nor light, Nor certitude, nor peace, nor help for pain; And we are here as on a darkling plain Swept with confused alarms of struggle and flight, Where ignorant armies clash by night."

Matthew Arnold from the poem Dover Beach via poetictouch

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What Goes Up...

You may have noticed my special interest in the technical aspects of Lawrence's later life choices, such as boats and aircraft. Flying machines I've been fascinated with from a very young age are zeppelins. In Germany the "Hindenburg" and her famous crash ended the era of these airborne luxuries. I've just now read that something similar happened before with a British zeppelin; the massive R101, and how Lawrence's life was influenced by this:

1929/30

"These Airships: one or two of them have trial trips soon. Some say to the States, others to Karachi . . . Well, by going just a few miles out of their course to the southward they can pass over the Ruba el Khali, the so-called ‘Empty Quarter’ of Arabia. This is a huge area of many hundred thousand square miles. No European has ever crossed it, nor any Arab any of us has actually questioned. All the Geographers refer to it annually as the great unsolved question of geography. Now, I want the trial trip of the airships to settle the Ruba el Khali."

The R101 — it's huge!

Lawrence had been interested in the exploration of the ‘Empty Quarter’ of the Arab Peninsula for some time. He had written to Sir Hugh Trenchard on Friday 12 July 1929 suggesting that the new airships, R100 and R101, could be put to good use if they flew over Southern Arabia:

One report has it that Lawrence told Field (the geographer who talked with Lawrence about exploring the "Empty Quarter") to fly out to India and return on the R101 as an observer: the dirigible was to be rerouted to fly back across the Ruba el Khali. Apparently Sefton Brancker, Director General of Civil Aviation, wrote to Field that this had been agreed.

The R101 left Cardington, despite forecasts of bad weather, on 4 October 1930, on her maiden voyage to India via Egypt. In the early hours of the morning of the 5th she crashed near Beauvais, France. There were six survivors and 48 killed, including the Minister for Air, Lord Thompson and Brancker. Nancy Astor had a seat on the airship but cancelled it.

The site of the crash — the R101 burned for 2 days, only steel was left over

Lawrence earlier asked George Bernard Shaw to suggest to Thompson that he, with his extensive knowledge of Arabia, would be a useful addition to the crew. Thompson replied on 24 July 1929 that he would consider the matter but that T.E.’s ‘passion for obscurity makes him an awkward man to place and would not improve his relations with the less subtle members of the crew’. Any possibility of his involvement was vetoed after his falling out with Thompson at the Schneider competition that September. {Excerpt Chapter "Henry Field" from 'Another Life: Lawrence after Arabia' by Andrew R B Simpson}

Thompson wasn't happy about TE's involvement with the 1929 Schneider Trophy Cup organizational team. Despite Wing Commander Smith’s reassurances to Trenchard, Lawrence did not stay out of the public gaze.

Aircraftsman Shaw and Wing Commander Sydney Smith

The press had been briefed specifically by C.P. Robertson not to photograph Shaw, and they agreed to comply. Trenchard, probably on the day he surveyed the course, saw Lawrence talking to Nancy Astor and told D’Arcy Greig, ‘Keep your eye on that damned fellow.’ On the day of the race General Italo Balbo, Italy’s Under-Secretary for Air, asked Lawrence to get the Italian slipway cleaned of some green scum that had built up and Lawrence saw to it. Lord Thompson, visiting the site, noticed a British aircraftman cleaning the site and demanded of ‘Shaw’ why this was happening. At that point a press photographer, unable to resist the temptation, coughed and pressed his shutter, photographing Lawrence and Thompson together. Of course then every other photographer at site did the same. And even though the photos weren't published in British newspapers, they were all over Italy and France, the competitors in the Schneider Trophy, and the rest of the world.

The darn photo at the Schneider Trophy Cup 1929

Thompson was miffed and this was the point he decided that 'Shaw' [...] was to ‘stop leading from the ranks and confine himself to the duties of an aircraftman’. Furthermore he was banned from leaving England, barred from flying in any service aircraft, and was not to speak to any ‘great men’ or women.

After Thompson died so tragically in the crash of the R101, these bans were void.

Wikipedia article about the R101 and its fatal crash: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/R101

Video about the R101: https://youtu.be/gdPrUBkMgdE

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“I’ve been burned so many times, I don’t know where my scars end and my body begins.”

Ray Bradbury Farenheit 451

Via we- the-dreamers

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"I care so much I’m sick."

Ray Bradbury

Via quotemadness

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"It was a long time ago. It doesn’t matter anymore. And yet I cannot let it go. I cannot let it go."

Sylvia Plath via violentwavesofemotion

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"My insides are raw

What was mine was never yours

Dont touch me again"

Sylvia Plath

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"It isn’t your room that’s a prison, it’s yourself."

Sylvia Plath

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Oh no! What would TE think of these luxury tourist destinations in Wadi Rum?!?!

Wanderlust by In The Know This panoramic tent hotel looks like something from the future

Sleep under the stars in this panoramic tent desert resort.

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The Sabaton History video for Seven Pillars of Wisdom is out now on Youtube!

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"I usually solve problems by letting them devour me."

Kafka

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“I have the tongue of some endangered animal. No one can understand me  / anymore”

Tommye Blount via soracities

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God, this is awful.

T.E. Lawrence (352087 Aircraftsman Ross), The Mint

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Thankyou soooooooooooo much Crunkmouse!You are the absolute most wonderful bestest in the whole world! The Odyssey by Homer translated by himself! TE:)

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The Sabaton History video for Seven Pillars of Wisdom is out now on Youtube!

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On Dissociative Behaviour

(from Chapter LXXXI, Seven Pillars of Wisdom, Penguin paperback edition.)

25 November 1917, 4 days after Deraa

Auda is unable to supply them with fresh camels when they arrive at his camp near Jefer in the forenoon.

“��� now I was nearly finished. Step by step I was yielding myself to a slow ache which conspired with my abating fever and the numb monotony of riding to close up the gate of my senses. I seemed at last approaching the insensibility which had always been beyond my reach: but a delectable land: for one born so slug-tissued that nothing this side fainting would let his spirit free.

Now I found myself dividing into parts. There was one which went on riding wisely, sparing or helping every pace of the wearied camel. Another hovering above and to the right bent down curiously, and asked what the flesh was doing. The flesh gave no answer, for, indeed, it was conscious only of a ruling impulse to keep on and on; but a third garrulous one talked and wondered, critical of the body’s self-inflicted labour, and contemptuous of the reason for effort.

The night passed in these mutual conversations. My unseeing eyes saw the dawn-goal in front; the head of the pass, below which that other world of Rumm lay out like a sunlit map; and my parts debated that the struggle might be worthy, but the end foolishness and a re-birth of trouble. The spent body toiled on doggedly and took no heed, quite rightly, for the divided selves said nothing which I was not capable of thinking in cold blood; they were all my natives. Telesius, taught by some such experience, split up the soul. Had he gone on, to the furthest limit of exhaustion, he would have seen his conceived regiment of thoughts and acts and feelings ranked around him as separate creatures; eyeing, like vultures, the passing in their midst of the common thing which gave them life.”

Poor Ned, what he describes in that short passage sounds very much like this:

What Is Dissociative Identity Disorder?

Dissociative identity disorder is a severe form of dissociation, a mental process which produces a lack of connection in a person's thoughts, memories, feelings, actions, or sense of identity. Dissociative identity disorder is thought to stem from a combination of factors that may include trauma experienced by the person with the disorder. The dissociative aspect is thought to be a coping mechanism -- the person literally shuts off or dissociates himself from a situation or experience that's too violent, traumatic, or painful to assimilate with his conscious self.

There are several main ways in which the psychological processes of dissociative identity disorder change the way a person experiences living, including the following:

Depersonalization. This is a sense of being detached from one's body and is often referred to as an "out-of-body" experience.

Derealization. This is the feeling that the world is not real or looking foggy or far away.

Amnesia. This is the failure to recall significant personal information that is so extensive it cannot be blamed on ordinary forgetfulness. There can also be micro-amnesias where the discussion engaged in is not remembered, or the content of a meaningful conversation is forgotten from one second to the next.

Identity confusion or identity alteration. Both of these involve a sense of confusion about who a person is. An example of identity confusion is when a person has trouble defining the things that interest them in life, or their political or religious or social viewpoints, or their sexual orientation, or their professional ambitions. In addition to these apparent alterations, the person may experience distortions in time, place, and situation.

There is of course even more to this. The article under the following link is a lot longer: