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life has been so chaotic recently but I’m fr determined to put at least SOMETHING out by the end of this week I swear

#b1ackbunny rants #drafts have been editedd #in the works fr

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ignore this I just need to get this out so I can come to terms w it (longish vent under the cut)

so I just realized something last night and now I’m quite literally going insane like I’m genuinely fr tweaking out bc see there’s this one girl that I’ve grown pretty close with and like at first I ofc knew I found her attractive she has a curly wolfcut thats like midlength she dyes every few months and she’s a couple inches taller than me (which is pretty rare bc I’m somewhat tall) and she has these pretty green eyes and a gorgeous smile and laugh and bro I genuinely cannot like it’s hard to even look at her sometimes and her piercings make her even more yk like how can I not find her attractive??? her voice too bro (I might be whipped?)

but ok I need to get past that part of the vent or wtv this is but like we met through a mutual friend and at first we only talked to each other when the friend was there or in group settings but then like we started talking to each other like one on one and texting and hanging out and it’s like not only is she attractive on the outside but her personality… we have similar humor and shit I really cannot like it feels like she’s charismatic without even noticing

I remember the first time she hmu at like 9 something at night and was like wanna play a buzzfeed quiz party and I was genuinely so confused bc I didn’t know that was even a thing but ofc I said sure and like I thought it was gonna be her me and the mutual at least but then we went otp and it was just us and I was like oh okay this is different! but i didn’t really say anything ab that and so then we just did random quizzes and talked for like a good 2-3 hrs or something and then I made some bs excuse for why I had to leave and like since then just on random days we’d just do the same thing

and like this one time we were hanging out and I lowk wanted to watch this real madrid game that was happening at the same time (I keep up with soccer stuff I literally have the notifs on on my phone) but ik she doesn’t really care about soccer so I was just gonna watch it after we hung out bc this was like around noon or something I forgot but like I think she saw the notif (I need to invest in a new privacy screen mine is literally horrible) bc then she started like asking me about soccer and like it turned into us watching a little bit of the game tg???? like almost halfway idk bro

but like atp I didn’t like her like that or at least knew that I liked her (??) like that yet I just acknowledged her attractiveness but like there’s just so many things that she does and just ab her that gets me and now I feel like the relationship isn’t just platonic anymore yk?? it might just be the delusions idk but like I also think she might like the mutual…? ik the mutual has a bf now but like there’s just this vibe she has when the mutual is there idk

I don’t think I’m imagining it but I very well might be bc I constantly self-sabotage bc I have these internal conflicts when it comes to romantic feelings but like I just realized last night that I fr like her and it’s really messing with me bc there’s a friendship here now and I genuinely cannot deal with potential rejection bc she’s just really nice to be around and talk with and I don’t wanna mess that up by having these dumb feelings for her

I feel like I’m just so all over the place rn and I feel so uncomfortable with the idea of talking to any of my friends ab this

#b1ackbunny rants #sorry for all this talking #I just had to get this out #I feel a little better after putting some of my feelings into words ngl #I should get a journal or something #just a lot of feelings I don’t really want to confront #I’m probably gonna see her monday and/or next saturday too bro #I’m cooked bro #I might have to cancel plans #I think ima have to give dry responses to her texts too #bc I will most likely slip up and tell her I like her or make it entirely too obvious #my anxiety is so bad rn

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went back on insta for the first time in like a month and saw the dance vids w taeyong bada uploaded now I’m working on some of my drafts thank you my wife for giving me motivation 🙏🏽

#b1ackbunny rants #bada lee #street woman fighter #my wife bada lee

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why is karina apologizing for dating someone… bro I was joking around but I swear some of these fans have such a seriously unhealthy parasocial connection to her like bro let her live and date who she wants she don’t even KNOW you… I feel bad for her fr

#b1ackbunny rants #aespa karina #karina #aespa #like that’s so weird and toxic #the ppl who drove her to apologize don’t fr even support her as a person if they’re doing that

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are you still writing for swf?

yes I am!! I’ve just taken a break bc of a lack of motivation & to focus on school a bit but I should be back to publishing things soon

#b1ackbunny rants #street woman fighter #swf

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twice made rush for me like I need a rapper on the beat so bad like where is uzi lemme get in contact

#b1ackbunny rants #twice #kpop #lil uzi would kill as a feat I swear #Spotify

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yall where did that group rescene come from?? like genuinely bc the other day that one mv they put out came up on my youtube homepage and I like that classy concept theyre going for but like I genuinely dk this group… what label are they under?? have they debuted?? I have sm questions 🧍🏽‍♀️

#b1ackbunny rants #kpop #kpop gg #rescene

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my wife is cheating on me with a man.

#b1ackbunny rants #karina #aespa karina #aespa

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that heartbeat drama on prime getting me mad like the mc girl just pushing every one of my buttons I can’t bro I’m trying so hard to like her bc she’s honestly an okay person but she’s getting me mad annoyed

#b1ackbunny rants #heartbeat

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I HATE how I’m actually on the same wavelength with h*wl… tell me how I just searched for some chris brown angel numbers choreo to watch and that furry H*WL just posted a choreo class vid on the jj academy yt acc a day ago… lord I can’t take this

#b1ackbunny rants #I cant bro #this coincidence was DETRIMENTAL to my mental

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just wrote a 500+ word acid trip of a myth on how one of the states were formed for my mythology class in less than 40 mins and it lowkey motivated me to start writing again… potential comeback szn??? if I change my theme from my lover ryujin just know I’m in the works + thinking ab renovating my account🧍🏽‍♀️

#b1ackbunny rants #comeback szn #also im obsessed with ringo by itzy again

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SWEET HOME S2 SPOILERS!!

don’t kill me bc ik I’m so late but I just fully finished s2 of sweet home and I’m lowkey confused on wtf just happened… like song kang’s 5 seconds of screen time and that little girl that was literally birthed not even 3 months before looking like a 8yr old… also 3/5ths of the og lineup being dead bro jisu’s death hurt me BADD 💔 the bob on eunyu ate tho she fr carried the season!

#b1ackbunny rants #sweet home

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happy belated vday everyone!! 💗💗 hope y’all had a good vday and everything

#b1ackbunny rants #bada lee

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me when one of the ppl I genuinely don’t like texts me and I have to act like there’s no issue whatsoever… like bro how can you cheat on your man with your BEST FRIEND’S MAN of all ppl that YOU got together atp you’re just evil and sick bc wtf

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just did an 100 question midterm (don’t even ask why it was assigned this early in the semester bc idek) and it is now 4:44 my eye is twitching the energy drink is still in effect so no sleep today probably gonna crash tmr let’s see

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choi jeongmin will be the reason why I keep that harimu x vb!reader oneshot vb bc I’m in love with her so much lordyyyy

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bring weeworld back.

#b1ackbunny rants #i’m begging